A Long Way

I have come a long way since my separation.

I found someone special to me. Furthermore, I count; I am not a slave to my sin and the lie of lies. Besides, I saw the truth, as they say, “The Truth shall set you free.” I take life one day at a time, and I am ready for significant changes.

I miss my children something awful, and I have no trust in him; he admitted that he did not want everything he got. He told me for years this was going to happen. I have had four surgeries, three c-sections, and a nine-inch cut across my gut. My gallbladder was removed four months after my son was born, and five months after surgery pregnant again.

He made significant statements and enticed me a few times

and then turned around many years later and told me, “He deliberately lured me in on purpose.” He tried every lie in his books to drive me crazy; he admits that as well. Then he had the need to ask me, “How did you get through it?” All I could say was, “I never gave you my heart.”

I weighed every pro and con and ultimately abandoned my life

Because my life was one big lie. Except for my children. I could not do anything. I needed restoration, major reconstruction. Furthermore, I put up and masked out the truth. I weighed all the circumstances, and I was unable to handle anything; life was entirely out of control. I tried to work when I was a mess; I knew I needed to recharge.

The only thing I could do was to let go and let God,

Do His work. I had to go through a lot of healing, a lot of studying, and learning. I had to let go of all the misconceptions, the reasons I went through my life that way. Mind games suck. It is weird how I was freed entirely when I should have been six feet under. I was dead inside; I completed turning the other cheek, seventy times seven plus. I had to do my penance.

Furthermore, I am the only one who could write “In Presence of Spirit.”

I had to live with their pain and to put an end to the generational abuse that was passed down from generations. God was with me, even though I could not find him.

Some things I write you might not have an understanding for, and I might sound presumptuous; forgive me. I put up with a lot of sickness, mind games, lies, and constant crap. I had three assault charges on him; I was not functioning right. When I left, I knew I was not going back. His lie was a curse and a blessing

Even though I lost everything. I found Christ within me, and my love and worthiness are in Christ Jesus. I am free to love with all that I have, and it is formed in truth. Furthermore, I am not a disgrace in God’s eyes; I tested positive. I fought for the truth, and I followed the way out of the fire of Hell. I am not unworthy of happiness, and I have gotten stronger.  March 11, 1997, Wendy Yvette Greenwell.

February 19, 2018, I left these out… I have to deal with it; so many women are suffering. Tomorrow is the 22nd anniversary of my divorce, and this year, 2018, is 22 years since I started writing in January 1996. I am going to celebrate by going social. “Ha I did not.” I have my plugins already installed.

This is “In Presence of Spirit’s” 30th anniversary year. To be clear, my first writing, In Spirit with The Lord. Even though I have loads of work to do on the archives and pages, the writings I have published, 86 this year, are ready.

So I found forgiveness when I was given the choice in The Book “A Course in Miracles,” I picked him to forgive. It helped so much, and then later the 2005 writings. They are an intricate part of my sharing my writings with anyone who might find them one day. By sharing with him, so I thought, I was sharing with the world already.

In actuality, the writings of “Reflections in the Presence of Spirit,” were not really interpersonal in the physical; they were all spiritual for anyone who is looking to forgive someone. Oh, my, this says so much. I have to publish it. This was written to a person; I never sent it. I mean, I have published so many; this one is different. I have not seen it for many years. Furthermore, I am going to publish it now. Wendy