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2010

SO WHAT!

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.

Moon Light
So what am I supposed to do

“As it was, in the beginning, is now and ever shall be the world without end.”

So what am I suppose to do? The Book says to be positive and affirm positive attributes and dedicate yourself to your conviction, and I have. Time, and time again. Through out the length of my writing days, and then some. I acknowledge that you have given me the greatest gift being, in presence of spirit with you in all my writings. January 14, 2010

Laser Tomorrow

Mr. Errol Grannum will be performing drilling a hole in my left eye and the will re-open the hole in my right eye. The ones that made this happen are Knights Templar out of Illinois. Thank you. They are paying for my surgery on my left eye, and since my Dad and His Wife paid in cash the first surgery and preliminary Doctor’s appointment, he is going to open the hole in my right eye.

    It is a stressful time for me on the 27th I go before the Social Security Disability Judge, my third appeal. I have not had very many Doctor appointments because I do not qualify for any help because once again I am a pauper because I quit June 2007 because I was suffering from my eyes and yes forever thought they were’ eye migraines, turning out to be Narrow-Angle Glaucoma, with Cataracts that are not bad enough to take out.

    I am not even eligible to get the help of any kind from the commissions for the Blind. Now if I were going to go back to work, they would help me. I figure I will go to them if I get denied again.

My brother is coming down from California

for my Twin and My 50th Birthday. Weird how swift time flies.

You see back in early 1996 I wrote a piece,

    I asked the Lord for a friend, not a husband, Ha. There is a difference. He gave Richard and me our friendship. We have lived in this comfortable House for eight years. When I worked, I paid for my part. But since I have not worked in two years and seven months, he has taken care of all of it. It is only Him, my Son and me now. The girls have since seven months moved out.

    Although I care for Richard with his needs, he has provided. Home for me. We remain friends, and of course, we are companions, we even share a room, but it does not mean we are common law married. “He is 75 now. Cerebral Palsy has taken its toll on him. I am thankful that God gave me the ability to care for him day in day out, although we like the nights I hate the Sun, the heat of South Texas.” Jesus Christ thank you for Richard, my best friend. Only a friend. I am worried, and no one will still help.

    Oh Lord in your name I do pray.  I am so confused about what I am supposed to do. I need your help in all areas of my life, my love, my book, the complete book. The Surgery on my eyes tomorrow, The court in front of the Judge for Disability with my Lawyer at least I will not be alone.

I have been reading 2005 writings

“Reflections of In Presence of Spirit.” To the husband of my youth, from the wife of his youth. It is beautiful that is when I had my first glaucoma attack. I am already on page 59. He still has not read it But my reading and editing further a feeling the vibration of such power prayers to the husband of my youth that is over one hundred pages and 29,000 plus a word count. Second to the highest words from all the years of writing.

    It is for anyone, not just him. Truly it is verified. Hopefully, prayerfully you can find forgiveness in your heart, mind, and soul, it takes a ton of layers of your past and gives you the room to breathe through the cleansing of your hearts pain.

I know it works because that gut pain has not come back.

    Even in extreme difficulties, to describe mine to the minute status. How else could I state that? I have choice minutes of anxiety depression, fear, I do not have the means and resources I need. Still, no transportation. January 21, 2010

I know I have been working on the writings, no one else was going to do it.

    I told my Lawyer it is my hobby, Ha, it is a lot more than that, but because, “In Presence of Spirit,” only sold one book. There is no money involved it has nothing to do with my Court. I worked for The Lord and He will provide in His time. This, all this, is not, for greed it is to help, in the regeneration of our souls. Seriously I followed through with what I was given in Spirit to do. Even in my Mortality with my own problems and the way I am. The Holy Spirit of Jesus Christ blessed me with His Presence of Spirit.

    Thank you, Jesus Christ, there is no way I would have made it through without you and our “You are and I am In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with the Lord.” “Knowledge had but impatiently been misplaced”

    I knew that was the beginning of my book. I was going to be writing while I worked on it on the side. I was still writing every word that would one day be my complete, to be certified Book, of the offspring of my first, in writing communication, “In Presence of Spirit.”

      Jesus Christ heard my prayers and answered it at the beginning of my soul’s voyage in search of peace in my soul. Now we know it is not all about me. It is for anyone who is searching and not finding. It is for you and for me. I still do not speak about all this, I have no questions to answer. My eyes feel better today. January 28, 2010, Wendy Yvette Greenwell

©2010-2023 inpresenceofspirit.com Wendy Yvette Greenwell

1996

THROUGH ALL THIS PAIN

1 Corinthians 7:30-31

Just Clouds
With all my Spirit I will not lose track

    “And they that weep, as though they wept not, and they that rejoice, as they that rejoiced not 31. And they that use this world, as not abusing it, for the fashion of the world passeth away.

    Romans 11:8 According as it is written, God hath given them the spirit of slumber, eyes that should not see, and ears, that they should not hear; unto this day. For if the casting away of them be the reconciling of the World, what shall the receiving of them be, but life from the dead

THROUGH ALL THIS PAIN

    Letter: Through all this pain and suffering also for my children. I am not a disgrace to God. For it is with him I live, move, and have my being. I am waiting for the Lord for His Justification because through the Judge; God set me free from bondage to well, “Internal House Cleaning.”

I am working on the Bible, and with all my Spirit I will not lose track.

    We need to work on “regeneration.” See I have shed some layers of the afflictions that were’ put upon me. Long generations of time past are surfacing in time and reason.

    Abuse in the physical, mental, emotional, verbal, spiritual, alcoholism past down generation to generation. How Long? A long time, covetous, possessiveness, control, rage, shame, blame, jealousy, should I go on, we know we can go to the Bible and find the reason. “It keeps regenerating itself until destruction.”

For my Dears, not man’s will but, “God’s will be done,” any way round about.

    Reading Chapters of Scripture in Church, a must, show the World how much security you have in bringing in more than you can hold.

   2 Corinthians 6:1-18, 7:1-16. When you read scripture, you read a chapter. God’s words flow through the writings, you know that. Man’s way is not right with God. For all have come short of The Glory of God, but what can one Church do? What can one couple of Ministers do? You can make known God’s way complete.

    2 Corinthians 4:4 (For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strongholds;) 5. Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ.

    Corinthians 12:9 “My grace is sufficient for thee, for my strength is made perfect in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

See when I told you I was prophesying. I was.

    It is for The Glory of God. Christ my Salvation, My Baptism, my reaffirmation, I got Delivered on 2/9/1996. The prophecy I carry is “God’s Words.” Who knows what miracles he has planned for his chosen and I know I am one. I am a baby in Christ, and I have always known in my heart there is a God, and I walked willingly through the fire of my soul.

I had no one but the burning coals of his search for disaster, greed, materialism, adultery,

     I was safe in my mind. God brought me through, and he has to do everything. Everyone is watching him. He likes attention.

    See God does not need an interpreter because every word that is written is “God’s Word.” For all generations. We are the regeneration of God’s Word, what He said, has come to pass, is right now, and He needs, the mass multitudes because He is alive, and calling the chosen to come together, so we can be home. Finally after all generations. For our soul’s search has intertwined with all the generations of God. March 17, 1996, Wendy Yvette Greenwell

© 1996-2023 inpresenceofspirit.com Wendy Yvette Greenwell

2017

HI OUT THERE

Hi, out there in the World.

Hi out there in the World I need all your help

I need all your help.

    I can not come out of my funk by myself. I need a constructive overall outcome, and I am in poor strength. I am weak I choose to be strong, I want everything “In Presence of Spirit,” has stated, and documented, and Published.

Important time!

    I need to work, on loving with one heart to heal through Jesus Christ. I fell down literally, I am going to feel it later. Wrist, elbow, shoulder, sciatica on the left side, Wonderful!

I have to, I need to, I should, no more excuses.

    Get out of your rut. Your lack of energy, your lack of enthusiasm, your lack of love, understanding, patience, understanding, courage, endurance, guidance, weak, need the ignition switch to ignite, and guide me out of lack of abundance.

I am worthy.

    I am abundantly blessed with all my extensions of my times, “In Presence of Spirit, with The Lord.” They are etched in my mind, heart, and soul. I wish to be with them in heart, mind, and soul, and raise my inner awareness, to peak out, and help me find the people that need to know now.

Help me spread the news that, The Lord God Almighty is present, “In Presence of Our Spirit.” “Everyone’s!”

    For the Love of God is here, and I want to feel again. I want to be ignited with the passion of the ever presence. I want to be alive in Spirit. In the here, and now of yesterday’s, tomorrows.” May 21, 2017, Wendy Yvette Greenwell

© 2017-2023 inpresenceofspirit.com Wendy Yvette Greenwell

2017

HELP ME LORD

Lord, I ask in your name,

for forgiveness for everything I have done that is not right with you.

Moon with a twist of light
Access better resources for my today’s which will benefit tomorrow.

    Forgive me for cussing. Forgive me for my misery. Forgive me for not forgiving the ones that hurt me the most. Help me forgive them. Forgive me for being overweight, uneducated, sad, depressed. I am not lonely, but I do need some spark to ignite the light of love in my heart again.

Help me, Lord.

    Give me the strength to carry on. Help me Lord with all I need to do. I need You, Lord. I Love You, Lord. I am screaming inside I need your help! I need You, Lord. Jesus, I Love You. Show me Your way again. Hold fast my love for You and bring me out of darkness into the light of Your Ever Presence. I am calling out! Can you hear me?

I aspire to complete my mission of “In Presence of Spirit.”

    Expedite into a paycheck and a way to get all my grand-kids some Christmas Presents. Sale the books so I can help Richard pay the taxes and get Richard his lift chair, and the other essential things he needs. Handicap accessible.

I have to start with the old, in with the new day, the new outlook on everything,

    I need to do, to access better resources for my today’s which will benefit tomorrow. I have written some pretty awesome conversations with the Lord. I have shared it since September 2011. Six years, to my first love first, Blogger, The Website on December 13, 2013.

Do it, Wendy!

    Do it! You can do it. Yes, you can! You can do it and get over it. Work your mind, walk, plant your garden. Do it!

Finally,

I admitted that the husband of my youth was not nor ever had been my one true physical love. For me, he does not exist. My God and Lord saved me from any more damnation. Even though I have had to deal with all my children’s choices. I am tired and they are all in their thirties. I am 57 the years have not been easy. Love me or not. May 21, 2017, Wendy Yvette Greenwell “I can not believe myself sometimes.”

© 2017-2023 inpresenceofspirit.com Wendy Yvette Greenwell

2017

POSSIBILITIES ARE ENDLESS

I started working on the manuscript on Notepad,

Green thing
We will see, what tomorrow is going to bring.

    Can you imagine it? I started the first part in March 1996. Then I decided I wanted to work on “Reflections of In Presence of Spirit.”

    I cannot work on it like I used to. I am not ready to activate Social Media. I tried, but I have deactivated and deleted my Pinterest. I can go to Go-daddy and sign in with my Facebook account, but now I am okay behind the scenes. Besides they send me messages to buy my server, my resources are not unlimited.

The possibilities are endless

    But I choose to follow through without the get it, of it all. We will see, what tomorrow is going to bring. You need some tender love and care. You cannot do the same ole anymore. You need to open up and let the light of love come in and help the cause from the effect. Yes, I said it. I am down, and I have to pick myself up and do the work to get me where I need to be in action, not distraction.

    I got to climb out of this hole. Need to be alive in Spirit. I want to feel the excitement and dynamics of what I have honestly done, Sharing my “In Presence of Spirit,” and hundreds of the extensions.

Shallow Breathing! Nothing in my brain!

    Thoughts, episodes in floating thoughts that have not entirely healed. Coming out of a flat-lined state, not able to go forward with all that has been left for me to share. I do not know in the physical who to ask for help! That means I have been lost in my past sins, and my children’s choices, no forgiveness angry with myself.

Thoughts February 24, 1996 “Thoughts flowing with nowhere to hide, for all is gone, and you are thee who lights. The light of thine heart, soul, breath, and mind is exalted from the world ’roundabout.

    For it, thy will be done. For the strength I have is from thee. The knowledge I have received through my tribulation is wisdom, and it has given me the courage and faith that belongs to Our Father in heaven.

    For it is our Father in heaven who walked with and protected me through the threshold of death and showed me life. I have taken my cross and borne it for many. I was buried and awakened in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost. I have been delivered of my trespasses and iniquity. I have no liens on one thing, not even my children.”

This was written four days after my Divorce.

    I am finding my way back into the Presence of Jesus Christ Holy Spirit. I have been stagnant, not knowing which way to go. Upside, downside, inside, outside, roundabout. I long to have the passion of these my conversations with The Lord. Shared but not found. It is okay their time will come.

I am waiting, for the right time.

    I do not feel right. I need reconstruction. Do not need to evaluate, out with the old in with the new. Each writing is new to anyone who reads them. I love working with them or excuse me used to work on them. It is because I have shared it.

    I have not activated any resources to elevate resources and income. It is my right, and I do not know how to ask for abundance. As for users/subscribers, most try and get in my admin. Their usernames and mail .com’s do not look right to me. To me, you want to read them they are here. I am out here by myself. No need to activate Social Media because I can not do any more than I have done and the little that I am doing is not enough. My eyes needed a rest.

These writings I wrote were’ my therapy, my times, “In Presence of Spirit,”

Were’ just what I needed, to get through, my times of having conversations with the Lord. In Spirit, not without. It was not an easy ride. It has almost been a year in July that I finally admitted, to not marrying my one true love. To his face. He asked, and I answered. After that, we have talked a few times. I mean, please. I finally texted him and told him he has no reason to come here again. I missed him some. But for all the reasons that be, when the Judge said we are severed, we were’. A lie cannot last forever. It was his lie.

    It is thirty-six years on the 30th of May the first, and last time I will ever get married. I did not re-hash. The way I see it the whole marriage was a lie from day one. Played the part from hell into His Heaven, I had a price to pay, and I paid dearly. May 21, 2017, Wendy Yvette Greenwell

© 2017-2023 inpresenceofspirit.com Wendy Yvette Greenwell