I have lost the spirit, and I wish to have You back.
I have lost the spirit, and I wish to have You back. I can not live another day without Your Presence. I Miss You; I Love You, I Need You, I am lost without you. What is my reason for being?
I have lost my children.
Lord, I can not be a part of their life. Oh, Jesus brings Your comfort down and rest with me for eternity. I know I took the wide and wrong path and I failed I lost Your Voice, Your guiding Presence.
The writings I wrote in Spirit are omnipresent, but I lost the gift of writing because of my stupidity. Lord guide and direct our children him and her.
To Your children, since the conception of Humanity through You Jesus Christ life is lived through the death of the old and anew life in and through You. I miss my children so much. I pray to be part of their lives.
Thank you for the job. I should not complain it is just so long but that is alright. I want to put “In Presence of Spirit” together. I have three days off after tomorrow’s 10-hour shift, I will work on the writings when I am off.
Oh Lord, where are you? Are You mad at me? I can not feel You? I can not hear You, I can not do anything without You. Help from henceforth, and forever.
You beloved Wendy, In Jesus Christ, I fall at Your feet with a heavenly kiss My Lord, My Love, My only reason for being alive still. In God, I Trust with all the Angels Congregated together to form The Union of Saints, Pure Knowledge. I love you. August 27, 1997, Wendy Yvette Greenwell
And see if someone will Publish, “The Writings,” not in any vain way. Kind of strange to read writings so powerful. I was deep in scripture, and I pained for every woman in my position, for the sufferings of all the World, and a clearing made me a productive witness in testimony in Jesus Christ, and the entire writings give an understanding to the ancient literature.
The passion of Christ entreats your soul to the peace that only comes through Jesus Christ from God.
It is that unknown you can not face. Oh to be freed from the daily degradation, humiliation, constant ridicule, day after day, week after week, year after year. How can any constructive well being have access into our lives, when it is muddled in all the generational abominations.
My outer world is faceless,
But my inner has an understanding even though I am weak right now. I feel I captured the presence of Jesus Christ Holy Spirit in my prayers and my research in God’s precious words.
I gave nine people the first twenty-four pages of writings.
I felt the I have to of it all despite my boldface expressions of capabilities only done from the inner chamber. I am not ashamed of what I wrote in any realm. My faith is in Christ Jesus and God’s promises, laws, statutes, commandments, judgment, all stated past, present future. To whom understanding is granted, let him understand.
I have seen the vision on the rooftop, and the seeds have been sown on the solid foundation.
We have to save our children, our families from any more loss of soul, bring them in the presence of God so that the cleansing can begin its development, from the core to realization, of the answers of the whole. So the peace can come, and the regeneration can take its place in the mass healing and awareness that all Society can obtain.
Wake the walking dead out of the sleep
That death and destruction have taken over, and bring them into the peace that is given through the promises of God to Our Fore Fathers and then delivered in the redemption of our sins through Christ Jesus to us. I believe with all my heart and soul. My state of being was total burn out of a losing battle. 1996 Wendy Yvette Greenwell
March 21, 2018, Well, I did follow through with Publishing Myself. To funny. As the saying goes, “If You Feel The I Have To of It All,” DO IT! February 17, 2019, Wendy
Flash Backs they are not as severe as they once were
The unveiling of the past was sheathed as shedding skin. The writings are through The Holy Spirit. I am going to put the entire pages together and see what The Lord wants me to do after that. In Jesus, Christ Name, Guide me Holy Spirit to do the right thing always. Show me through Jesus Christ my personal Savior. “Thy Will Be Done.” Thank You, Lord Jesus. July 29, 1996
In the last seven months,
I have absorbed the Bible in all its glorious words. I have written with a power greater than possibly imaginable. I declare the truth of Jesus Christ Our Savior. I have felt Jesus Christ and I know the truth of His Eternal Presence. In the writings, I know The Spirit of Christ was working through me. The visions of The Highest are manifested in my writing. If I may share them I will share them with you. Thanks be to God The Father, God The Son, God The Holy Spirit, “In Jesus Christ We Trust.” July 9, 1996
Flash Backs
They are not as severe as they once were. All were tightly weighing on my mind, my husband with another among the whirlwind of his alcoholism for eight and a half straight years. The last horrible months before my departure.
Every breath was a struggle until the pain was lifted right out of me. Then the next months proved to be the stepping stones to understanding, more awareness, a way to find a purpose, the reasons for my existence. Was not stupid because it is God’s life. I know what God means when he says, “go into thy inner chamber, there ye shall knock and the door shall be opened.” July 1996
Live-in Position
The elderly man I care for poked me with his big finger on my gallbladder scar and it hurt, I showed him where he poked me, my nine-inch scar across my gut. I had to tell him do not poke me and do not punch me and your sarcastic jokes with intent to hurt need to stop.
The tests I have been through, I have passed every one of them. They do not have much to complain about me. I am sick of doing laundry. I am forming a regular twenty-three days plus more to come. Thank you for encouraging me to go from a pauper to making the first step into a paycheck, it was an excellent experience. God tested me. I passed by the hair of my chin. When its God’s time.
I have been so deep in the inner chamber,
Studying in the Holy Spirit, through the Holy Spirit, round about the Holy Spirit, the Holy Spirit, has been shown to me personally, and I am in Spirit been taught every day, it is so cool, I wish I could share, but I am still a baby in Christ.
All my questions have been answered in the Bible, in my supplications, in my mourning for six months. In my giving, and my understanding. My observations round about, everyone is in hell around me, screaming, the anger, no positive, the lifeless energy oppressed with wants, super demands, abuse, neglect, each not taking care of their oneness with Christ. Judging has shown itself, and they are blind to it. July 25, 1996
Boundaries
I hope I have not crossed your boundaries by making plans. Thank you for all your blessings of knowledge, understanding, and all my trials, and tribulations. They have been worth it to come to you totally, with Your stretched out arms that caught me through pure inexhaustible love.
Lord, preserve the peace you have bestowed upon me. If it is your will for me to write let me continue. Lord grant that I may stay steadfast in Your Grace, in the insight You have bestowed on me. Your compassion through Your Spirit is felt. No one seems to see.
Thank You for the job, the room with your treasures in it. Thank You In Jesus Christ I trust, I have felt You, Awesome. Peace to You God, and Jesus Christ, the Holy Spirit, and all Your People. I Love You. July 29, 1996, Wendy Yvette Greenwell
I know all my diligent study in The Bible is helping my future
the knowledge of the Word of God. It is utmost in my life now. It seems when I let go of my devotionals, and I take control. I deeply recede into this fountain of slushy muck. I start reading and writing a lot of vocabulary in the Bible.
When I think of my children, I remember how everything was broken, and I could not put any pieces together. So then I place them in the Trust of God and the ex’s quest to be other than a deadbeat Dad, as he so always said, last three or four years.
All the things
He was not to the children he has to be now, and sometimes I think he is not going to be able to do it. He realizes all the responsibility for it not just financial. I hope he is strong enough. See I do not wish harm on him, he is not that strong. Children needed their Dad they never had. I hope he is that man and dad he wanted to be. You know there is a negative side to this, I hope he is being all he can be, Importantly not letting our children down. Cause Mom doesn’t have anything. I am handling it.
It is quite late. I am glad I got to talk to you. Thank you for your insight, and inspirations, you have blessed me with a real understanding that I have needed desperately for years. My growth is not limited, and is exceeding in the right progression, for what I have been through.
I wish not to leave my children out of this, but I can only do something for me for their benefit tomorrow. I am building a tower of precious jewels positive thinking, etc. All resources are being tapped in. I believe the spirit is working preparing the way for me to help benefit others, use my knowledge, etc. to help people in my condition, “World Condition.”
I have faith in all God’s Words Past, Present, Future; we
can only get there one day at a time. A lot of my writing is different don’t you think. May the grace of God adorn you in all your works through Jesus Christ Our Lord and Bless You Complete. June 3, 1996
OVER AGAIN
If I had it all to do over again. I would have listened to my Lord because I heard him. I was part of a circle that needed to come to an end of the cycle. Thank you, Lord. June 7, 1996
God is the foundation that gives us life. Man is dominant only in his stupidity; alcohol destroys Families. “Write God’s words to begin to end, what exactly He and only he says, through the from The Holy Spirit through Christ Our Lord Amen.” “but know got caught up in the moment,” “make them look.” June 8, 1996
Reading and writing, knowledge is limitless. The Bible is past present, future. Omnipresent since it’s writings. The heart searches for it’s home all it’s born day. The heart is the home of the highest. The soul, choose to live, and you will have everlasting life. Through Jesus Christ Our Lord.
Six mountains to climb the seventh you rest with and through Jesus Christ. While the sheathing of the old ways, memories with pain, the sins you have in yourself, and those that have affected your life adversely. The new seeds are planted through the regeneration of The Truth, we all have, inside us. June 10, 1996
I have ups and downs. I know we all do. I know all my diligent study in The Bible is helping my future. The regeneration is regenerating itself through the energy that is Jesus Christ Holy Spirit. I can see it around me. June 13, 1996
Solitary Have not been sleeping, restless, lonely probably, no dwelling of my own, no escape, no fantasy, dealing with reality. I am using my time wisely not bee idle in mind. I needed a lot of knowledge to get through this spiritual awakening solitary. Me and the Spirit of Our Heavenly Father.
I have not wasted this last six months at all.
Painful, but I have an inside understanding of the degeneration that has haunted man in our sphere of time and reason. It took giving up sole possessor of everything, even my stuff, left with nothing. Two months later I got my maiden name back.
I fought through hell to come back to some forgiveness of myself reasons, situations, circumstances. I have to get out in public but all my time, in the research of God’s word I have run across quicksand. No one believes you accept my guardian angel. Quick to judge, sure to condemn.
Whose condemnation is it? Not mine, your time will come, my time was just sooner. Believe what you may, All the words written in The Bible are yesterday, today, is tomorrow.
Past, Present, Future, God’s gift is the present sheath the past through Jesus Christ Holy Spirit and look forward to the future. For it is only through Jesus Christ that we can be forgiven, He is the opening of our souls. Then the Baptism the death of sin, rebirth through and with Jesus Christ the redemption of our sins the cleansing sometimes continues you do not think you can take another development and a bigger one comes around. June 14, 1996
Perceive
Now, I can perceive. Before, when I was in the muck of destruction, I could not think. Now I have an unlimited span in my mind’s eye. There stands firm in my being. June 16, 1996,
Confused: I am confused about my spiritual awareness, the knowledge is there, it is all in my writings, my keepsakes, which are essential to me. I know the meaning of truth. I can write it, but I can not speak it.
June 17, 1996, In the past five and a half months, I have been reading God’s Words, studying daily for hours. I have written prayers, letters, vocabulary, set a definite consciousness of the presence of God, which I felt I could not reach. All the things that need to be done will be done in perfect order in perfect time. June 17, 1996, Wendy Yvette Greenwell
Wendy with Jesus, {the Holy Spirit,} “In Presence of Spirit,” in writing to The World.
Wendy with Jesus In Presence of Spirit in writing to The World
Make no doubt about it, The Lord hath called His People home, them that can hear let them come unto God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit.
I leave all the plans in Your Hands, Lord because I cannot see it in mine. I know first hand how essential these writings are to the Lord and I. I insist on completing it. So People will be soothed, and regenerate internally to external purification.
All in all, it is a significant passage for everyone, not just myself.
We are one in Spirit. I can with the whole will of My Father who ordained me, Wendy, to write Our Book for anyone who needs to recuperate, and find their way to the Presence of Spirit, in every heart, “In the Kingdom, the Holy Will Is Done.”
To Jesus Christ,
“but what oneself is to You Dear Lord, what you have given me, my love, and my life, to fulfill the plan You have made for every person on this planet we call earth. 1988 “IN PRESENCE OF SPIRIT.” Oh Lord, I give to You, “I am, In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with the Lord.” June 12, 2008,
Oh, Jesus, we need so much.
We need Your Presence To Fill Us, Renew Us, Regenerate Us. Fill Our Ever Presence with Your Eternal Presence, and Bring Us Where You Want Us To Be. Hold fast Your Love, Your People are searching, and not finding You, they can not hear You. Lord Open Up, and Send The Sound Waves so they can listen to you. August 9, 2008
Well, I have done some inputting and quite a bit of reading.
I have written several writings in the last few weeks. 2008 is already over 17,000 words by itself. If I did not have this book to work on all these years since the day I left I would not have made it.
“Go into the “I,” of You, and talk To the Lord
In the privacy of your mind, and your soul receives the messages that are waiting to be set free inside your private house. Talk to Jesus. Tell him your innermost thoughts. Confess what you need to so He can help cleanse you in the blood of Jesus Christ.
Now would be a good time to read John 17 The Whole Chapter. Jesus Christ Prayer to God. Read Romans and Hebrews, and Corinthians read. Ask Jesus Christ to help you through this hard time in your life. Give Him you, confide in Him, ask Him for guidance, understanding. Give it to God. December 24, 2008, Wendy Yvette Greenwell
Holy Spirit of You Jesus Christ, help me, guide me, direct me to where You want me to start working on the writings again
Jesus, I do not know what to do. I am at a standstill, and I am having a lot of eye pain, migraines, “that were not migraines at all.”
Oh, Jesus where is my passion?
Where is my focus? Where is my love? My life? My understanding? I am missing You, Oh Lord in Your Holy Spirit, I am calling out Lord Jesus Christ my Lord, my life, my only reason for living still.
I want to feel Your Presence.
I want to feel Your soft touch. I want to hear Your still small voice saying, “Complete Wendy what I have given you to do. Finish “In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with the Lord.”
I believe with all my heart
You are the Author through Your Holy Spirit with me and guided me even if sometimes I think I am alone. My Lord, My Savior, My Holy Father, My Husband, My Friend, My Companion, My Master of Creation, My Jesus Christ through Your Holy Spirit, I need to hear from You. April 23, 2007
Dear Lord in Your Name I do Pray.
Thank You, Jesus Christ, for this day help me, and everyone in all Your Ways. Bless The World with Your Salvation, Your Love Throughout All Ages.
Help me Lord do Your Will.
Holy Spirit of You Jesus Christ, help me, guide me, direct me to where You want me to start working on the writings again. I so desire to get closer to You. To hear You, when You speak, to be lit up with the joy of Your Everlasting Breath.
Bless me to understanding Your Words through the scriptures and whatever books, I need to read on getting closer to You. Thank You, Jesus Christ, Thank You Holy Spirit of Jesus Christ. April 21, 2007, Wendy Yvette Greenwell
Each time I read, and work on my writings, it is as it was the first time.
Each time I read and work on my writings, it is as it was the first time
It is always in presence of spirit.
“In Presence of Spirit,” one in spirit, one in the Lord. In an everlasting splendor of the Presence in such explicit detail.
All the while knowing one day I will share my times, In Presence of Spirit, with you. The one that is reading right here, right now. It has been for you since the beginning, as well with me forever, because it is my life’s purpose to fulfill The Holy Spirit through my conversations, “In Presence of Spirit.” May 15, 2012, Wendy Yvette Greenwell
In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.
So what am I supposed to do
“As it was, in the beginning, is now and ever shall be the world without end.”
So what am I suppose to do? The Book says to be positive and affirm positive attributes and dedicate yourself to your conviction, and I have. Time, and time again. Through out the length of my writing days, and then some. I acknowledge that you have given me the greatest gift being, in presence of spirit with you in all my writings. January 14, 2010
Laser Tomorrow
Mr. Errol Grannum will be performing drilling a hole in my left eye and the will re-open the hole in my right eye. The ones that made this happen are Knights Templar out of Illinois. Thank you. They are paying for my surgery on my left eye, and since my Dad and His Wife paid in cash the first surgery and preliminary Doctor’s appointment, he is going to open the hole in my right eye.
It is a stressful time for me on the 27th I go before the Social Security Disability Judge, my third appeal. I have not had very many Doctor appointments because I do not qualify for any help because once again I am a pauper because I quit June 2007 because I was suffering from my eyes and yes forever thought they were’ eye migraines, turning out to be Narrow-Angle Glaucoma, with Cataracts that are not bad enough to take out.
I am not even eligible to get the help of any kind from the commissions for the Blind. Now if I were going to go back to work, they would help me. I figure I will go to them if I get denied again.
My brother is coming down from California
for my Twin and My 50th Birthday. Weird how swift time flies.
You see back in early 1996 I wrote a piece,
I asked the Lord for a friend, not a husband, Ha. There is a difference. He gave Richard and me our friendship. We have lived in this comfortable House for eight years. When I worked, I paid for my part. But since I have not worked in two years and seven months, he has taken care of all of it. It is only Him, my Son and me now. The girls have since seven months moved out.
Although I care for Richard with his needs, he has provided. Home for me. We remain friends, and of course, we are companions, we even share a room, but it does not mean we are common law married. “He is 75 now. Cerebral Palsy has taken its toll on him. I am thankful that God gave me the ability to care for him day in day out, although we like the nights I hate the Sun, the heat of South Texas.” Jesus Christ thank you for Richard, my best friend. Only a friend. I am worried, and no one will still help.
Oh Lord in your name I do pray. I am so confused about what I am supposed to do. I need your help in all areas of my life, my love, my book, the complete book. The Surgery on my eyes tomorrow, The court in front of the Judge for Disability with my Lawyer at least I will not be alone.
I have been reading 2005 writings
“Reflections of In Presence of Spirit.” To the husband of my youth, from the wife of his youth. It is beautiful that is when I had my first glaucoma attack. I am already on page 59. He still has not read it But my reading and editing further a feeling the vibration of such power prayers to the husband of my youth that is over one hundred pages and 29,000 plus a word count. Second to the highest words from all the years of writing.
It is for anyone, not just him. Truly it is verified. Hopefully, prayerfully you can find forgiveness in your heart, mind, and soul, it takes a ton of layers of your past and gives you the room to breathe through the cleansing of your hearts pain.
I know it works because that gut pain has not come back.
Even in extreme difficulties, to describe mine to the minute status. How else could I state that? I have choice minutes of anxiety depression, fear, I do not have the means and resources I need. Still, no transportation. January 21, 2010
I know I have been working on the writings, no one else was going to do it.
I told my Lawyer it is my hobby, Ha, it is a lot more than that, but because, “In Presence of Spirit,” only sold one book. There is no money involved it has nothing to do with my Court. I worked for The Lord and He will provide in His time. This, all this, is not, for greed it is to help, in the regeneration of our souls. Seriously I followed through with what I was given in Spirit to do. Even in my Mortality with my own problems and the way I am. The Holy Spirit of Jesus Christ blessed me with His Presence of Spirit.
Thank you, Jesus Christ, there is no way I would have made it through without you and our “You are and I am In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with the Lord.” “Knowledge had but impatiently been misplaced”
I knew that was the beginning of my book. I was going to be writing while I worked on it on the side. I was still writing every word that would one day be my complete, to be certified Book, of the offspring of my first, in writing communication, “In Presence of Spirit.”
Jesus Christ heard my prayers and answered it at the beginning of my soul’s voyage in search of peace in my soul. Now we know it is not all about me. It is for anyone who is searching and not finding. It is for you and for me. I still do not speak about all this, I have no questions to answer. My eyes feel better today. January 28, 2010, Wendy Yvette Greenwell
