One of those nights I was taking photos in the dark
with me working very little on it. Last year 413,000 views. I worked on it.
I am going through a rough time. But I am managing following through with a major medical issue.
That little cm, nodule that they did a biopsy on, was benign a year ago, but is malignant now, or seems to be. Let me put it this way, it lit up on the pet scan.
The Dr. wanted to cut out a third of the bottom of my left lung. My twin was with me, said no way. Second opinion. We ended up agreeing to another Radiology go through my side to the lung to get another piece or take it out.
December 4, 2023. I slept on it. The next day I called the office, and I asked if he was an oncologist. She said, no. I told her cancel that surgery, and I am no longer going there.
It turns out they sent me to a different Dr. that was on the paper work. It is probably gone now.
So, I am trying to stay calm, and not totally freak out. I have been hibernating in my room, when not doing the daily devotionals.
I have wasted time, I could have been working on the writings. I just could not force myself. Twenty eight years, is a long time.
I have the oncologist appointment on the 19 of January. My ex-husband is going with me. My twin is not here. Four ears are better than two, and his wife does not mind.
They say The Dr. is the best Oncologist down here. Otherwise, I am going to try, and get into MD Anderson, in Houston. I just want to see if this Dr. can diagnose me, and hopefully, do it down here. That way Richard does not have to go into a Nursing Home.
I do not think they take my insurance. So I am not answering their calls until, I see the Dr. on the 19th.
I want to be able to pray, I am trying to get unstuck. I used to get so excited working on my writings, reading them, working on them, writing all of them, reading the King James Version of the Bible.
It has been an unproductive year on my site, but the site still got over 100,000 views. Here to be content, because again I could not force myself to work on it.
I need to find inspiration again. It has been to long. I just need some time, until they find out what they are going to do with my left lung.
I do have six nodules inside both my lungs. But they have not grown, only the one they did the biopsy on, I know I am repeating myself.
Well, this is as personal as it gets. I did not take care of myself. I am admitting it right here, right now. No if, ands, or buts about it. Wendy
Thank you God, for this beautiful hot day here in deep South Texas.
My mirror image Norfolk Island Pine that the freeze froze
Where am I, when I am without the Holy Spirit? The teaching is even though we might think we are without the Holy Spirit, we are not. By the grace of the divine blood.
In the name of our Father that has conquered defeat. The Holy Spirit lives, in every one of us. All we have to do is activate the ritual cleansing to ritual purification in the Spirit, with the Spirit, beside Spirit, through Spirit, round about the Glory of God, in presence of Spirit. I am fixing to let it fly out of the nest.
My nest of omnipresent writing in spirit. “In Presence of Spirit,” with the Holy Spirit, and Wendy, writing to the World. I am bold because in spirit I have achieved an understanding that I once, and for all have to share.
It was, is and will always be the I have to of it all. I did the right thing. Even those closest to me that new, did not care to know. It has always been okay because I know, and Richard knows, my writings are significant to the fulfillment of my hearts desire, and my hearts quest.
In presence of the Holy Spirit, has guided me through. I will not let my love, and my life not be read. I believe with all my heart, with all my soul, that the Holy Spirit is my eternal companion, and it is for God’s purpose that I share. It never was for me alone. God the Father, God the Son, God the Holy Spirit, are “In Presence of Spirit,” with everyone. May 7, 2009 Wendy
How high can you go, to infinity, because it is already here. I am blocked. But a peep of light popped in.
Something different then the norm
Two new Nurses came by to see Richard. The Company felt like their services were not for Richard anymore, I guess. They said, he needs to be in Hospice. She told us about the program. Richard agreed, and I agreed.
They will not take his medicine away. An RN will come in once a week and a CNA can come in five days a week. On call twenty-four-seven. The supplies he needs. Plus a Chaplin for a visit or two.
I can have a five day respite. They will pick him up and take him to a facility. Just so, everyone knows Richard and I are not common law married. We are friends, even though we have lived here for over two decades.
Yeah, these last years have been the hardest. With me not being able to take care of my own health seriously. Two herniated disks. I wont mention all the other stuff.
Today Hospice is coming in to do the paper work. Lung specialist on the 31 of this month, with the results of my lung situation. Partial results anyway. My forty year old daughter is pregnant. The youngest of all the 18 grandkids, one in heaven, is five, and one great grandson 2.
Now I can figure out how I am supposed to finish my website, and have it up, and running for a few years after I am gone. I have always been a “I” writer, I this, I that. I heard the other night to change the “I,” to “We.”
We will overcome. We have faith, we have love, we have understanding, we have knowledge, we have courage. We have wisdom, we have strength, we have power.
We are in spirit, at all times. We are Spiritual Beings. We are finding our way back to the basics of life, love, liberty, and justice for all. For all time. January 2023 Wendy
I am weary. I have the Lord to back me up, but no human person has touched my writings.
Yes, all done by me, Wendy, my conversations are from the past, we are all, one in presence of spirit. I shared 610 personal conversation I had, in presence of spirit, with anyone who stops by, and reads it.
I must at some point make it more accessible. I blame this solely on myself. It is overwhelming, I have to do it myself.
I have to look past myself, and send it out to the World. I do not correspond with anyone. I freak, that is why this website has been silent, so to speak.
10,555, views since I hit 400,000 page views 2022, Bringing the total to 2,599,450 page views since December 13, 2013. It is significant to me. Sharing is caring. Always and forever meant to be shared. I believe this for eternity.
I was full of Publication at the first of the year. Publishing for the first time with no dates. It was out of the ordinary experience for me in every sense of the word. Then all the responsibility came tumbling down.
That was then now is now. This is the third time the site hit, 400,000 views, in one year. This year was the highest. 410,555 bringing it up to 2, 604,846 page views. Anyway the writings from 2022 are from 1996-2022.
Pieces put together to become the whole of 2022 writings from the past, future and now. These times I had “In Presence of Spirit,” are for all of us. No one left out. No how, no way could I have come up with this without the Presence of the Holy Spirit.
It all fell into place, each piece on it’s own. It stopped being a book a long time ago. I started on the internet in October 2011, I had shared twenty writings on Facebook to two people, that were open. so they were passed on, I guess. I deleted it all, kept no copy for myself.
The whole, In Presence of Spirit.com is my gift to anyone who will ever read my conversations with the Lord. What do I do? Waller or get this show on the road.
The heart knows what is written is, in presence of spirit. It is a gift of thanksgiving of God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit. In faith of the Unities of our eternal existence. 11:38 December 29, 2022. Wendy
I took thousands of photo’s in the rain, drizzle, fog, not anymore.
for the way to open up the heavens again. In myself, for the purification of the entire Now. Right now, in yesterdays, tomorrows. Right now, I long to be in communication in Spirit, with everyone at the same time.
Being here or not, in all other Galaxies, the whole Cosmos, the whole of the entire every thing seen and unseen. In actuality, We Are! We are all here right here, right now. We are all in presence of spirit, at the same time. No matter here or there.
Yes, it is up in the heavens, it is meant to mend broken hearts. It is a break away from the norm. If you read in the I am of you, and not me, you would have more understanding.
Never for myself alone, I knew this from the 1996 beginning, “Knowledge.” Spent January 1996, to January 17, 2023, Twenty seven years with my personal conversation with the Lord.
Always knowing I was going to share from the beginning. Just by writing, I was sharing in Spirit, to you. Everyone here, there, and everywhere. That is my spontaneous spiritual nature that needs to be fully activated. I need help.
We were exposed to asbestos in the big house. 1988-December 29, 1995. I drilled a hole to hang a hanging basket, no mask, oh me, oh my. I fell off the face of the earth. Four days before my youngest daughters tenth birthday. They did not want to go to the shelter with me. I was total burn out, besides I had some writing to do.
From beginning to end, and end to beginning. Physically by myself, Spiritually the Holy Congregation of our Lord God Almighty in the Spirit of One God the Father, One God the Son, and One God the Holy Spirit.
The Trinity of Union of Divine Mercy. My writings are not written in vain. They are guided by the light of love for all eternity. All of them are, In Presence of Spirit, one in spirit, one in the Lord, which makes them yours, mine and ours’s. Even if you do not understand.
I need to open up, and let the light shine through the pages of the writings of inpresenceofspirit.com. Looking past my present circumstances. I need to finish this off. Who knows, how long, God knows. Wendy
“what shall we do with inpresenceofspirit.com. Show me the way into, in presence of spirit, again.
You have fulfilled my desire to share my personal conversations with the Lord, in our times, “In Presence of Spirit,” to anyone who finds it. It is still for the most part hidden.
I have the necessities, I asked you for, a friend, you gave me a friend with Cerebral Palsy. He is 80 years old now. Twenty two years living in this house.
Wow, when I make a promise I keep it. Even under extreme conditions. Thank you Lord, for giving me the strength to carry on this fascinating trip with You, down NOW LANE!
Here I go again, “I have to look past myself, and share in spirit, the writings that are meant to be shared with the World! Arranging my room to prepare to Publish the rest.
I ask you, God, from Our hearts, to show Us the Truth, in all its form. I ask You, to open up the heavens, and bring back the true beautiful aspects of life, love, and The Holy Spirit’s Presence, with, in, and around, upside down, round about all of Creation. To you with love.
Wendy Yvette Greenwell, now and forever, me, myself, and I, one in Spirit, one with the Lord. Eternally present from here, and in eternity. I want to play in Spirit. Uplifting, and expansion. What do you want Wendy? Yes, you are happy, when you are, in presence of spirit. Wendy
I get to pick him up, he used to rent cars. Not anymore, cuz he bought the home, one.
The stress in my life, I want to abandoned my life again.
Although this time. Richard is going to get a full time, care giver. Until, the Dr. steps in. Twenty two years of my life, I have been his right, and left hand servant. I refuse to call myself his provider, caregiver, I call myself his friend.
Come on, only Wendy would take away all independence from her self. Well, I am ready to spread my wings and fly. I am out of here, my twin was the first to know.
Yeah, I drove to the races by myself last Saturday. I did not stay till the end. I get tired when I drive the F-150 2000. I am taking off to San Antonio in it. I am not afraid of it anymore, when I drive it. It has been 27 years since I stayed with my twin.
It is November 5, 2022 4:59 am. The Doctor’s Assistant is going to see Richard on Monday.
I do not know what to do anymore. He has always been frail. I thank God he took the fear away from me of living with a severely handicapped person for 22 years.
I was out of here . Then bam, my brother reacted, threatened to take my room away. I felt threatened of my little territory that has been my own for only a year.
I can not leave. God said, no Wendy not yet. How would I maintain myself. My Daddy, we clash a bit, my older sister spends time with him.
My twin was over, she left yesterday, three or four nights, with two large cats. Peanut could not come in. My little dog, she never grew. Chihuahua. The female cat, kept biting my sister’s feet when she had to get up. She got me a few times.
It is still to hot to go anywhere. I need to at least take my brother up on two days, and two nights. 48 hours off since the last time he was here. He is leaving on Friday.
My courage is not what it used to be. I have gotten used to driving my Son’s Monster Truck. Ford F150 2000, might be old but he roars.
My Son in law that really isn’t my legal one, said, Miss Wendy, he calls me that all the time. That truck is a Man’s Truck. I laughed.
Well, it is what my Son left me not his Father. I will go to a safe place on the Island. I do not know. Mike you want to go with me. That is funny.
OMG, 27 years. Dude, me, get over it. The spirits were together in the spurts of spiritual essence in Spirit with the Lord.
He guided me through the darkest hour of my soul, and gave me words to write, to share, in presence of spirit, because I Am, in all the writings, in Spirit with anyone who reads any of it.
The I Am totally, In Presence of Spirit. I want to be there again. What has been written is meant to be shared. Opened up so, more than thousands of people read it but millions.
I have 18 grandchildren, one in heaven, one great grand son. My two daughters, my Son’s significant other’s, with children. How can I help them hiding in the web. Not being open, and receptive to what is going on in our lifes right now.
I believe, In Presence of Spirit.com, is meant for more people. I do not know what to do. So I am piddling, and paddling, in, not doing but what is essential. I can not tell you how many times I have woke the man up asking him if he is okay. Probably thousands. Twenty two years is a long time.
Well, what the PA, is going to see is Richard, completely bed ridden. I am not able to transfer, not even into a wheel chair. He has atrophied since he was born.
He has not walked in two years. His body, is atrophied, serious, can not straighten his arms, his finger are barely working. His back, and legs do not bend, his legs do not, open an inch.
It is technique to maneuver him. I could teach but I have no credentials. He could not do it without me, and I could not do it with out him. All the years.
My back hurts. Routine, “day by day, week by week, month by month, year by year, time never ending but standing still.”
Now, it is a whole different ball game. I learned how to do what I do from my first patient from the Nursing Home. He had Polio, he was quite small. But the great thing is that I never forgot. So, I know what to do, and know how do it, everyday, and night.
I do not know how to be a free bird anymore. A path I chose, but none-the-less, what do I do?
I keep my writings on-line because I have to share. I worked for 27 years on my project, and at one point in time I will have to close. But until then there is not a day that, I do not think of In Presence of Spirit, and what I am supposed to do with it other than share it.
I can not communicate with anyone. I never have. That is why I am not on full fledged Social. It is here, and there but not every where.
Millions do not even know it exists. This is entirely my fault. I wanted to share my way. Not many come to my site. It is on the updates the writing get views. I am not embarrassed, when I do work on it, it gets a lot of views.
There were 31,000 views in October, I barely worked on it. Yesterday, it was at 377,037 page views for the year.
This page hit a thousand thirty seven words. Not all from this morning actually 6:56 am. I feel a change in the air. I have to follow through.
If I do not do it. No one else is, ha, ha. My hearts desire written on inpresenceofspirit.com, six hundred, and four writings, a few more pages. I can not figure that one out yet.
“Essentially, this is a gift to you, and yours and from, you and yours to put an end to the pain, and peace to our souls.” me 1996
Now, how can I say that, this was to my husband of my youth initially, but it is for every one, that needs to know, Christ is alive in our hearts, and all we have to do is, I need you to bring me back to the I of me, that is one, in presence of spirit, with you Lord. I love you. Wendy
To you who have read some of the writings of, inpresenceofspirit.com.
My favorite tree
I know that you are, in presence of spirit, in the Spirit of humanity, one in Spirit, one in the Lord. Everyone at the same time.
If it was not for my, “In Presence of Spirit.” I would have had a horrible time. I have lost that inspiration. I do not know how to get back to the study, and pure essence of the whole situation it all came to be.
Hold fast my love for you. I wrote for all the love in the World. No one left out. To share my personal letters with the Lord God Almighty. I wrote, it is obvious, I was not by myself.
I long to be in presence of spirit. I had to take a rest. I was drained. I asked for help none came because they do not believe my writings need to be shared with the World.
I am doing it still, because the messages need to be found by any one who needs a little or a lot of time, “In Presence of Spirit.” I still believe this.
So, I can go through the rest, and see if I can find some courage to finish the year 2022, so I can give it an end. Wendy Yvette Greenwell
