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2008

WENDY WITH JESUS

March 17, 2018 Wendy Yvette Greenwell

Wendy with Jesus, {the Holy Spirit,} “In Presence of Spirit,” in writing to The World.

Night Photo, with a flash — Wendy with Jesus In Presence of Spirit in writing to The World

Make no doubt about it, The Lord hath called His People home, them that can hear let them come unto God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit.

I leave all the plans in Your Hands, Lord because I cannot see it in mine. I know first hand how essential these writings are to the Lord and I. I insist on completing it. So People will be soothed, and regenerate internally to external purification.

All in all, it is a significant passage for everyone, not just myself.

We are one in Spirit. I can with the whole will of My Father who ordained me, Wendy, to write Our Book for anyone who needs to recuperate, and find their way to the Presence of Spirit, in every heart, “In the Kingdom, the Holy Will Is Done.”

To Jesus Christ,

“but what oneself is to You Dear Lord, what you have given me, my love, and my life, to fulfill the plan You have made for every person on this planet we call earth. 1988 “IN PRESENCE OF SPIRIT.” Oh Lord, I give to You, “I am, In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with the Lord.” June 12, 2008,

Oh, Jesus, we need so much.

We need Your Presence To Fill Us, Renew Us, Regenerate Us. Fill Our Ever Presence with Your Eternal Presence, and Bring Us Where You Want Us To Be. Hold fast Your Love, Your People are searching, and not finding You, they can not hear You. Lord Open Up, and Send The Sound Waves so they can listen to you. August 9, 2008

Well, I have done some inputting and quite a bit of reading.

I have written several writings in the last few weeks. 2008 is already over 17,000 words by itself. If I did not have this book to work on all these years since the day I left I would not have made it.

“Go into the “I,” of You, and talk To the Lord

In the privacy of your mind, and your soul receives the messages that are waiting to be set free inside your private house. Talk to Jesus. Tell him your innermost thoughts. Confess what you need to so He can help cleanse you in the blood of Jesus Christ.

Now would be a good time to read John 17 The Whole Chapter. Jesus Christ Prayer to God. Read Romans and Hebrews, and Corinthians read. Ask Jesus Christ to help you through this hard time in your life. Give Him you, confide in Him, ask Him for guidance, understanding. Give it to God. December 24, 2008, Wendy Yvette Greenwell

1996

BACK IN THE BIBLE

March 16, 2018 Wendy Yvette Greenwell

I am back in the Bible.

Instant Photo — It is easy reading when you have an understanding.

I have been reading, writing vocabulary, and writing scriptures. I cannot sing right now. I am not going to give up on getting a job.

You know I needed to be with my twin. For many years I was hurt, she was not with me back in the day, she hid out so to speak. Anyway, I have overcome a lot of things from the past. Boy, my twin and I are Twins. I feel safe with her; I wait for her, miss her. God did Bless me with a Twin. Growing up we always had each other period. So I was not ever a people person.

When you are a kid time is so slow,

It feels, then, fifteen years have gone by Nineteen years she has lived in San Antonio and me in the Valley. I have been here since February 10, 1996, my thirty-sixth birthday. I have been gone since December 29, 1995. I left. I had to for the kids; they refused to go to the shelter with me. I had no other choice.

This scripture is why I know it was and is right that I left. Malachi 4:6 “And he shall turn the heart of the fathers to the children, and the heart of the children to their fathers, lest I come and smite the earth with a curse.”

It is easy reading when you have an understanding.

As it is written, “as it is unto this day,” in many of the verses in the Bible. Writings pertain to the past, the present, the future.

The fascinating, powerful scriptures are Romans:

The whole Epistle. That is the one which should be read through in Church. The Gift is there in totality. If everyone read the Romans, they would have more understanding. Everything pertains, and we all have to find the Christ within.

I like reading the Bible, and when I come to a word Supplications entreat earnestly address in prayer. Daniel 9:23 “beginning of thy supplications the commandment came forth, and I come to show thee, for thou art greatly beloved; therefore understand the matter, and consider the vision.”

This is fun for me.

The Thesaurus of these words is incredible, so many words mean the same thing, all meaning in one word from God. I do freak out sometimes when we are on the expressway there are so many people, and how many are searching? How many are afflicted by abuse? How many? I try to see my part of society, and I withdraw. I lost fifteen years, and I am judged. I have some obstacles to jump over but, at least I am going forward. I am getting stronger, further from the past.

I have no idea what tomorrow is going to bring.

I do not know where I stand with my pre-teens. It has been a month since I have seen them. I have no plans to go down there, even if I wanted to it would be on someone else’s wallet, car time, so when I can do it myself, and when I am ready I will go, I might be being stingy, I am still affected by my loss, and I need more time.

I have accepted all of it because it was my choice in leaving, it is just a shame that I fell and lies prevailed. It is a shame. It is like I am dead. What is there to be here for but I am destined not to die to until He is ready to take me. I am probably depressing you sorry.

I am working on working I will overcome this sooner or later will see what time brings. I hope something good. This is the pits. May 14, 1996, Wendy Yvette Greenwell

Now why would I Publish my writings like this. My conversations, with my guardian angel. This one is a letter to her. It belongs with all the rest, no matter how uncomfortable I am at times. Wendy

1996

I HAVE REGRESSED

March 12, 2018 Wendy Yvette Greenwell

I have regressed a bit, but I am in reality.

Shadow on My Trees — My fantasy only saved me when everything was crashing down

It was a tough week, previous. I need to strive totally for my independence, and I am satisfied with all the Divorce, for now, later it will be a completely different story.

All the years were a struggle.

I am not happy with what I put up with, the way I reacted to him, the way the children were’ in the middle of our hatred. It should not have happened. I cannot blame anyone but myself, for being so vulnerable to lies, deceit, confusion, rudeness, unfaithfulness.

My fantasy only saved me when everything was crashing down

And my husband then was suffering from his sufferings, and he was not able to talk about it. There is a big difference between honesty and deceit. I do not hate him; I do not love him either. I would rather be by myself then to subject myself to another man’s rules and regulations, his power, and control, to put down my existence. I feel like I am twelve what regression. It is not easy, but I know significant changes are going to be happening.

I do love, it here in San Antonio,

I was tired of The Valley to many memories. Not good at forgetting all my trauma’s right now. I know there are worse things that could have happened. I am such an outcast, not a people person, my esteem I have zero, I have to pick myself up.

How could I be so coy,

Oh God, I have let myself suffer so much, and I could not do anything about the outcome. I always wanted him to be more of a part of the children’s life. I will never feel sorry for her or be happy for her, I have given her to much emotion, and she has my family.

I lost my husband because of her and his not being able to forgive himself for the awful years he was so cruel to me. He wanted to do it right, it to me is not fair, but I do hope he gets there even if it is with her.

He said it took six years to get over me holding a grudge because I told him I had a crush on my third pregnancy Dr. who I had confided all that I had succumbed to all the abuse, those six years most important part of our children growing up. He was cruel and suave, neglected everything except his career, I had no other choice than to put up, and this is what I got. It is going to get better, and at this point, it is all I can handle.

It is Sunday, I read the Bible, and I feel some relief.

This has been a hard week also. Important crucial to the addicted person state and confusion and or being addicted to the addicted person. April 22, 1996, Wendy Yvette Greenwell

March 12, 2018, My Dad wants us, my twin and I do see him today. He is 85 now, and he has some issues going on that he is worried about. We are an hour and a half away from where he lives. My sister fell and hurt herself on the rib cage, so I am driving. It has been some time since I have driven to the Arroyo.

Her husband is staying with Richard and my dog and their dog that is 18 blind and can not hear, it is so sad, but she is still trucking around.

I know I am going back to 1996, it is all meant to go together. So it does not matter what year I pick on. I am on a roll. This is the 50th day that I have Published, and I feel I need to continue. No matter how uncomfortable I am at times.

The first six months was cleaning out the cobwebs so to speak. So with all of this, I am going to keep this on here, and Publish. The Picture is dark, but I do not care. It is Fabulous, I have never taken a picture of my trees with a shadow before, so it is exceptional. Take care; God Bless The World and Everyone On It. Are you ready, I can not believe myself sometimes. I have to Publish it. February 9, 2019, Wendy

2008

DIFFERENCE

March 8, 2018 Wendy Yvette Greenwell

See there is a difference in our letters, and my writings.

Moon between My Trees — See there is a difference in our letters and my writings

His are to his first family, well our family, and they are significant to the fulfillment of “In Presence of Spirit,” as a whole developmental process from beginning to end.

The first book is the credentials

that I had done at the time; it was in no way complete. So I am sitting here with 330 books that are complete in regard, it is a book of its own.

It has been read by the family on my mom’s side only.

I have the rest of everything I wrote, and that makes it three books in one. But what? There are three more years of writing after “Reflections of In Presence of Spirit,” that I did not realize until 2008. So I guess that makes it, more parts of the whole.

So with all this,

I am going to merge his letters with my writings a unique combination of flesh versus spirit, in this remarkable journey we have been on. I unite my writings 2005 with that of the letters the husband of my youth wrote the children and me, and I share them with anyone who wants to read it. I assure you, you will not get bored. “I decided long ago to leave his letters out; I gave him credit where no credit was do, honestly. I need to Publish for Publishing’s sake right now.”

It is from the Spirit of Christ, and he joined us,

as one in Spirit, because we never got here when we were’ married.

This love for him is better in Spirit,

So we may never again be entwined in the flesh, we are and will always be in the Spirit of “In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with the Lord, and of course, “Reflections of In Presence of Spirit,” in which we share in our commitment and our communications with each other, our love and understanding of the knowledge that is given through Jesus Christ our Savior, the only ruler of our souls. March 22, 2008, Wendy Yvette Greenwell, I am going to have to Publish as is because I can not change it, and I am running out of time.

2017

HELP ME LORD

March 3, 2018 Wendy Yvette Greenwell

Lord, I ask in your name,

for forgiveness for everything I have done that is not right with you.

Moon with a twist of light — Access better resources for my today’s which will benefit tomorrow.

Forgive me for cussing. Forgive me for my misery. Forgive me for not forgiving the ones that hurt me the most. Help me forgive them. Forgive me for being overweight, uneducated, sad, depressed. I am not lonely, but I do need some spark to ignite the light of love in my heart again.

Help me, Lord.

Give me the strength to carry on. Help me Lord with all I need to do. I need You, Lord. I Love You, Lord. I am screaming inside I need your help! I need You, Lord. Jesus, I Love You. Show me Your way again. Hold fast my love for You and bring me out of darkness into the light of Your Ever Presence. I am calling out! Can you hear me?

I aspire to complete my mission of “In Presence of Spirit.”

Expedite into a paycheck and a way to get all my grand-kids some Christmas Presents. Sale the books so I can help Richard pay the taxes and get Richard his lift chair, and the other essential things he needs. Handicap accessible.

I have to start with the old, in with the new day, the new outlook on everything,

I need to do, to access better resources for my today’s which will benefit tomorrow. I have written some pretty awesome conversations with the Lord. I have shared it since September 2011. Six years, to my first love first, Blogger, The Website on December 13, 2013.

Do it, Wendy!

Do it! You can do it. Yes, you can! You can do it and get over it. Work your mind, walk, plant your garden. Do it!

Finally,

I admitted that the husband of my youth was not nor ever had been my one true physical love. For me, he does not exist. My God and Lord saved me from any more damnation. Even though I have had to deal with all my children’s choices. I am tired and they are all in their thirties. I am 57 the years have not been easy. Love me or not. May 21, 2017, Wendy Yvette Greenwell “I can not believe myself sometimes.”

You are, and I am In Presence of Spirit