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2005

TO THE HUSBAND OF MY YOUTH

January 19, 2018 Wendy Yvette Greenwell

I love you. “Not as the wife as I was.”

My Moon Photo, from the property — So, in essence, you opened up the passage for me.

Thank you for forgiving me, my death in the flesh, and I forgive you for everything under God’s Creation. I hope you do not think; I haven’t arranged something awesome, and incredible, to the full heart of Christ Jesus, and yet to the ones that have not found that the kingdom of heaven is within.

All they need is Jesus, to cleanse them of the lie. We have never been without. All the while the pain, anguish, the no reason for being still, is gripping at our internal, external existence, and there is no escape, so it seems.

Until the great fall and there is your submission. I can not, but You Can! Come, Jesus Christ, come out of the grave of the outer abominations of desolation. In the presence of spirit, which brings you freedom from the bondage of time, place and reason.

All are joined in Christ Jesus, to come to the healing waters of cleansing heart, mind, and soul. In the process of internal purification. To The One Truth, Christ is.

All we have to do is reach down deep and accept God’s gracious gift of Salvation,

“ask in my name” but you know it is essential to ask for forgiveness of sins, understanding, knowledge, patience, wisdom, fortitude, courage, in everything. Reach and go beyond the norm. The heavens are not even the limit. Jesus in his infinity has given me faith in the ever-presence of his majesty. My Lord, My God, my only reason for living still.

See when you asked me to pray with you, God heard you, when you wrote it on the envelop, So, in essence, you opened up the passage for me. You are the one that ignited the light in my heart again, and I have four hundred seventy writings to prove this.

“I have worked like I do not need the money.” I asked the Lord for understanding and wisdom and boy “I have loved like I have never been hurt,” Love Mercy.”

You once again sparked the light of Jesus in my heart. When you were writing that only message to me, the wife of your youth, on that letter to our young adults. The word was given to me directly because I had already started writing to you.

In The Spirit of Our Most Wonderful Sovereign Most High of the Holy of Holy, in Jesus, “I Am,” my sweet friend of Our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

My brother, the reason, “In Presence of Spirit,” came to be,

If my pain was not enough! We took on a major undertaking in commitment to the Lord. We new, but we did not know. The questions were’ asked, the knowledge was granted, even though no one believed Jesus gave me heaven when he gave me, “In Presence of Spirit,” the first writing, and you of all people, no that for a fact.

I am going to send this letter first. I pray that you, not be afraid in any way shape or form. That I would be rude or obnoxious the way, I was in the last three letters. It was everything I had to say. Thank you for forgiving me for that. I was burnt out from all the trauma’s in our daily lives, everyone’s choices, not having three but seven, eight at times and two more on the way, and “dance like nobody is watching,” I remember.

I have some significant revelations for you.
They are all written in the letters, I sent you and were’ returned. So they are copyright. Every writing is signed and dated the day I edited them and the date of creation.

Today is your departure from owing me, Child Support. Congratulations. One heavy load, you do not have to carry anymore, I can relieve you of, and it is done. “Your Welcome”

As for your lack of what you did not do, for the children or what you did not do, by all the abominations of desolation. You are admonished of your past life. Forgive yourself through Christ Jesus love.

Give it to Him; He wants that part of you to be clean. He wants no dark spots, in hidden crevasses of your inside being. Leave it in the darkness and come into the light of Christ Jesus World Awakening.

Please do not put yourself down. You are, one in spirit, one in the Lord. He has called you into the inner chamber of His Ever Presence, and He is healing all your wounds. All your scars, all your wondering, all your lack of the truth, we all can possess.

It is not enough to ask; it is so much broader a process, we have to flow through, you can not rush it. You can help it by not putting yourself down. You are special. You are a unique human being of spiritual, and flesh, you are in Him, and He is in you.

You are freed from the bondage that has plagued humanity. You are forgiven. Acknowledge that fully, completely and ultimately. Yes, there are things you could have done differently, forgive yourself for not doing it, and give it to the Lord.

Hand it over.

It is not yours anymore. You are one in The Lord. You are among, The Spiritual Awakening of World Union, through Jesus Christ. He has forgiven you. Now you have to forgive yourself.

The grown adult children love their Daddy. OK, their forgiveness is in the Lord, and it will come in their time, and the Lord’s. You can not force it.

I would like for you to know that I believe along with R.H., that all this is meant to be accomplished. The writings are received and nurtured for God’s purpose. He is the real Author for without Him in Spirit, and in every true aspect of Him, in His entire eternity. I could and can do nothing without Him.

With Him, I am alive in Spirit. Without, I am in darkness. Having had been in the light, I wished so much to be in Spirit. Thanks again, for opening the channel of communication, because this is what I love, letting it all hang out, in the blood of Jesus Christ. I believe, so it is so. I enjoyed writing this letter.

Look how long it takes to get to Christ. We need to give the faster way; you can not push it, you can help, though. Your, letters of Jesus are the omnipresence of the Lord, in His Glory.

The Holy Spirit, is calling The People, them that can hear, let them understand the writings of their souls. Through Jesus Christ, there is a passage that all can enter and attain.

Then Jesus Christ Holy Spirit guides you every step of the way. Sometimes you do not think you can take another envelopment, and then a bigger one. The sin is eradicated, from the ever presence of our being. We are being cleansed of everything that hurts us in any way, “the old is passed away, the now in consciousness is tomorrows reality.”

It is the truth of our existence. Ask the questions from the simplest to the most complex, and you will get the answer through Jesus Christ. He has all the answers in His Omnipotence.

He is Our Guide.

He is the Highest. He is the Alpha and Omega, The Beginning and the End, The only ruler of our souls. He is the Master of the Universe. He is welcoming everyone into the kingdom of heaven within. There you shall knock, and the door has been opened.

OK, are you ready for the other revelations. My writings, my book, “In Presence of Spirit.” I have, because of you, my ex-husband, the husband of my youth. The only one in ten years that asked me to pray with you.

Can you imagine, what an envelop did?

It is opening me up to perseverance, through Our Lord Jesus Christ. I have in me, A Present from Our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and Wendy, In Writing.

“Reflections of In Presence of Spirit,” by Wendy. This I share with you. All I am giving you is peace in return. Eighteen years, it is just that. How can one writing, so precious, and pure, not be carried through to eternity?

It is heavenly, it is, In The Presence of Jesus Christ Holy Spirit, and is Presented in Love of Our Only Ruler of Our Ever Lasting Souls. He is the only answer. My past love, but the one way through Christ, was granted, and you do not even know yet. (still does not know)

“I have worked like I do not need the money.” Everyone is telling me to get a job, let’s see Michael is seven months, on the first, Orlie is four, Christopher is three. R.H. is 63 on the 27, and he needs full assistance.

I have been writing for fifty-six days. The first seven days, it was all to you, to a three-stage, day, eye migraine, from the sudden expansion of my brain. I exploded in awe, and all the words came traveling out of my inside being.

Once again I expressed in totality, on paper to you, who asked me to pray with you from conception to full fruition. I loved, and I am loved in Spirit. To The Christ Spirit within us all. Cheers!

You are happy in the Lord. He makes every step you take worth breathing. He frees you from the inside pain of no solution, the inner turmoil, of no reason for being still. In the resurrection of the soul, is life through Christ Jesus.

He is the one that guides you through the internal purification of heart, mind, and soul. It does not matter where you are just that you have the kingdom of heaven within your inner house, where restoration of heart, mind, and soul are cleansing the internal house of your ever presence.

Replacing it with forgiveness, and putting on the Armor of Our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. He is calling! Can you hear Him? I hope you understand the vastness of what I am saying.

It is ours. It is our legacy. It was given to share. It will do, what it’s purpose was, is and ever will be, to do. Just because, “In Presence of Spirit,” has not sold, does not mean it is not going to sale, “be shared.”

It will be captured, the true essence of my book of Jesus Christ, with Jesus Christ Holy Spirit, walking on His feet, in His Arms of Mercy, there go I.

You have always been part of me, no matter what we endured in our marriage, and after. While it was going on, I was in the Lord, and He kept me from falling apart. Nothing was cut and dried, and forgotten especially you, even though we had rough years.

We knew we were reaching for help. We just missed the bull’s eye, and so as it is with everyone, in their time, and season, they will come — the whole lot of them. I know in my heart that something giant is going to happen, it has been happening.

I did not know how many significant writings, I was holding on to. Even though you are someone else’s, I can share you in spirit; it is OK, God has given the OK.

I have six writings from 87′, to 95′, and from 1996-2005. Ten years, I kept writing all these years. I have beautiful inspiring, healing through Jesus Christ Love. He gave it to me.

Remember when I said, “I was a gift to you and yours and from you and yours, to put an end to the pain, and peace to our souls.” It was for you, the husband of my youth, because of your pain, my pain, world pain.

I Had To Find My Purpose! and I Did! and I Have! and I Am Completing for Publication. I thought I had a five-year deadline, and it was ten years. I jumped the gun by five years and twelve thousand dollars.

Oh well, the book will sell, when it is God’s time, and then I will be able To Publish Myself, “In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with the Lord.” My whole big baby, not a partial replacement no. No, it is to good to keep in secret, and I was the one it was made for because it all came out of my inner being, where Jesus Christ Holy Spirit is, and ever will be.

So whatever comes of this journey, I am undertaking is the completion of what was given in Spirit, eighteen years ago. This is, “In Presence of Spirit,” Anniversary Year, and every one of my writings, have a name, all four hundred and seventy of them, plus I am still editing.

I have gone through significant transitions in my life, all because I was praying the old fashioned way, but not forgetting where I had been, for many praying sessions In Spirit of The Lord. My writings, prove this to be true.

My prayers have been for World Healing. So when you wrote that *W G,* You opened the windows of heaven. The second you asked me to pray with you, when you finished your letter, closed it, sealed it, and wrote that on the envelope, I was already writing. Every letter I wrote you has a writing. They are all Consecrated In Spiritual Love.

Well, I hope this letter finds you better than ever, full of joy, and forgiveness and understanding. With some knowledge, and lots of wisdom. Yes in Christ all gifts are acquired and registered like this. To you with love, the wife of your youth, and Mother of your first three children. October 25, 2005, 6/‎2/‎2013 04:50:46 AM Wendy Yvette Greenwell 2495 words longest one!

January 19, 2018, I am going to put them in the order as I had them on their temporary home. It is easier than jumping around. Thus the longest writing to the husband of my youth. I have Published it before.

I am going to Publish it here. In a while. I tried to take the dates off of one and the computer did not let me so everything is as is. More personal that way. Thank you to Grammarly for helping me with the comma mistakes, etc. I do not have the Pro. I wonder how bad of a writer I am.

Actually to me, I am “In Presence of Spirit” again, working on my writings, and I am happy to be working on putting all my Published writings together for the very first time. I am going to Publish it as is. I can not believe myself sometimes. Bold for the Lord. January 12, 2019, I am at writing, 370, one hundred thirty-three to go. Wendy

2016

THIS ONE IS IMPORTANT

January 19, 2018 Wendy Yvette Greenwell

This one is going to activate the HTML’s.

Wow, different views, highway through the trees. — My Son’s perfect photo

I gave them their own home on my very own wendygreenwell.com.

I will be able to see it in my posts. I waited forever with the other site, to write something on this page. The most important one, the place just appeared when it was time.

I am not able to get specific functions; I have on the Parent Weblog. So once again, I am going to leave it, “as is,” until I figure it out. I am over here, not over there. This is a big change for me.

I just figured out that these 101 writings

that were inserted into the Parent Website were not getting analyzed. It was like they were not even there. So I gave them their own home on my very own wendygreenwell.com.

I had to do it.

Because these writings deserve to be appropriately, Published, I am not going to push myself. Besides, when my eyes start hurting, I have to go to sleep. But I intend on Publishing these writings, every day until February 10th my 56 birthday. Hopefully, nothing will keep me from it.

It has been two years,

I had to start with them being drafted, this time. “In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with The Lord.” with “Reflections of In Presence of Spirit.” It is meant to be on its own, right here, right now.

The pictures are new from my Son’s West Coast Adventures

As a team driver on the 18 wheeler. Last year he did the East Coast. The views are so beautiful, for some reason, this application will not let me blow the image up like on the Parent Site. Oh well, I have to live with it or change themes. I do not want to do the two sites, identical, this time.

This is a significant time.

I have carried on to accomplish my goal, to share my writings, with The World. Some may think I am crazy, but it never was just for myself. It was always meant to be shared. The only way I could do that was to Weblog my way to fruition. Not costing anyone a cent but me, and my time. I will see what time brings.

I hope I may write again, someday. These writings are from my past but they are as significant today as they were the day I wrote them. So with this, thank you for stopping by, “In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with The Lord,” with “Reflections of In Presence of Spirit.” Wendy Yvette Greenwell now of course all my writings are on https://inpresenceofspirit.com

2013

WELL

January 17, 2018 Wendy Yvette Greenwell

Thank You for reading my writings I wrote, “Reflections of In Presence of Spirit,”

Perfect Atmosphere that night I captured this Photo in the rain. — It counts, when every single person, calls on the name of Jesus Christ.

With who I thought was the husband of my youth, in spirit, yes! They are unique writings because I opened up in a whole different way.

They are not about him,

But through him, to you. That is the only way I can write, Prayers of Forgiveness, Friendship, Compassion, Understanding, Encouraging, A Breath of Fresh Air. A Dynamic View, in an unfortunate situation. A place to escape, where it counts. It counts for every single conversation; I have with the Lord.

It counts, when every single person, calls on the name of Jesus Christ.

Every conversation can be one sentence or pages upon pages. You do not have to forget your special times with the Lord. When you are bored, and you do not have anything to do. Write to the Lord.

Write vocabulary words from the Bible, and write the definition and the thesaurus. Or have a conversation with the Lord. I prefer writing because then I can publish later. I am a weird one.

I have poured my soul out on paper to the Lord,

Not just for me but the World. I believe this. Even in my poverty. Do not get me wrong. Richard, my friend, has provided a home that is comfortable. Accept the ceiling is going to cave in pretty soon. (From the roof because someone at the insurance agency stole the check to fix the roof.) This house is only 12 years old.

I have had glaucoma for eight years now, and for some reason this last week, I have had high pressure. It was only eighteen when I went to the Doctor on Thursday. But it was high last Friday. Maybe it is all the time; I was spending on my blog. I pushed the computer back further from me, and it helps a little, I guess.

I think it was better for me to write, “Reflections of In Presence of Spirit,”

With or Too, or whatever, to the husband of my youth. It is not fun to hold a grudge. I did not want him to be in jail for Child Support even though; I do not think prison is the answer for non-payment. Well for him anyway.

He was my friend, in the fire of my soul. He was my confidant. He is the one I talked to. Well, we remain friends. Weird in away. He is the Father of our three grown children, and grandfather to our ten grandchildren, one in heaven. And even though we do not share in that together, it is OK. September 23, 2013, Wendy Yvette Greenwell

January 17, 2018,

Since all my writings have all the dates, I edited them. I am going to leave the next bunch as it is. I do not care if anyone with a website that reads my writings, think this is awkward in any way. These writings are for me, they are mine, to share, “My Way.” As for the copyright. I am going to put © 2013-2018 inpresenceofspirit.com Wendy Yvette Greenwell from beginning to end.

I have nothing to lose. I am fulfilling my hearts quest, and desire. To share my, “In Presence of Spirit,” with the World. It is meant to be.

So I am going to work, as no one is watching, even though, I am sending them out to the World as is, and just maybe they are getting read, and hopefully prayerfully understood.

God Bless the Holy Congregation of World Healing in and through the Love of God the Father, God the Son and God the Holy Spirit. Thank you, Lord, for giving me time with you in, “You are and I am In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with the Lord.” Shared with anyone who finds my writings. Lots of work to do. I have already started. Here’s to, “In Presence of Spirit’s, 30th Anniversary.” Wendy, now it is January 10, 2019.

2016

WELCOME TO WENDY’S HOME PAGE

January 17, 2018 Wendy Yvette Greenwell

Welcome to, “In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with the Lord,” with “Reflections of In Presence of Spirit.”

Awesome Photo — Welcome to, “In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with the Lord,”

It has been a long time to figure out, how to make it, into its site. Accomplished today with the help of GoDaddy.com. Thank you.

These writings have been hidden away on its Mother site, inpresenceofspirit.com.

I am going to edit these writings, add the pictures, and do all the other stuff, from scratch. Publish one by one, not all at once, like before.

I bought three domains and I thought it was iposconversations.com, that had the writings on it, but it ended being wendyyvettegreenwell.blogspot.com that I changed to wendygreenwell.com. So I am stuck with my name. All and all, they are all my writings.

Now,

The Writings of, “In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with the Lord,” with “Reflections of In Presence of Spirit,” have their site. Thank You, Lord. So, it is a critical time, for me, to separate my writings.

These writings are,

“Reflections of In Presence of Spirit.” So I decided to make it the tag name, as such. It is a journey from darkness to light. The mission that I must share.

Stats, starting at 0. So with this, God Bless You and The World. Wendy Yvette Greenwell January 18, 2016, February 18, 2016, One month Anniversary of this site. Now it is wendygreenwell.com. I deleted all the writings off of inpresenceofspirit.com, that are on here. They took up a lot of space, maybe that is why I am not having any resource problems on editing right now. Wendy Greenwell and now home with all of “In Presence of Spirit’s,” extensions.

All the writings I have Published are going to be right here on my, “In Presence of Spirit.com” “You are, and I am In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with the Lord.”

I have not been content since all the mess in February of 2016. Now I am recovering from my separated writings. I have all my writings on wendygreenwell.com changed from wendyyvettegreenwell.com. Mistake but oh well. I will say it is in the transition from over there to here where they belong.

It is an exciting morning.

I am going to finish off editing and forwarding wendygreenwell.com to Publish on here. My twin is leaving in a couple of hours. She had five fusion back surgery in 2016. She is in pain — all the time. Her Husband always is in pain. I cannot get away from all the pain that is in this house. Richard does not complain at all. He is 75 now 16 years we have been companions. Living in this comfortable home, he put his signature on, for My Children, Myself, Grandchildren and Him. I did not let his Mother down.

I am his friend caregiver. I am disabled. We are a separate family. Best friends, not blood Family. I am comfortable although seeing him day after day, week after week, month after month, year after year going on 17 years. He is so frail and well being born with Cerebral Palsy it has taken its toll. But he is active with a little help from his friend. That is me. You know I am A-Okay home bound because my car needs a new engine.

My Son got his Van back new/used engine. It still has a problem, so I do not need to go anywhere. I do not want to drive him past Doolittle Road, and drop him off at his truck. He is going to Houston. It is icy cold outside. Like his saying is, “I’m Good.” I got the insurance right after he got it, his license plate is still good for a month, but someone took his tag. Again, need to get it inspected.

I have decided to put the first 35 writings on before the 2005 Writings. I put 47 letter writings on one notepad. Interesting, I am going to add some together and then the super long ones will be by themselves. I panicked a little and decided I did not want to Publish them again.

They are an essential part of “In Presence of Spirit’s Extensions.” So I must, I am just going to wait until I finish these. I do feel better that I forwarded wendygreenwell.com here. So I am going to Publish as is like I do most often. I have a goal.

Let’s see if I will meet it on February 10, 2018, my 58th Birthday Wendy Yvette Greenwell January 17, 2018, I am going to leave the featured picture out because it is too small. I downsized to help with bandwidth, and I messed it up. WYG January 10, 2019, Wendy

2018

WENDYGREENWELL.COM

January 15, 2018 Wendy Yvette Greenwell

I am a firm believer in having SSL Certificates on my sites.

My Photo in the front yard — All content from wendygreenwell.com Will be Published here on inpresenceofspirit.com

Even though I have no commerce activity. Or advertisers, and whatever else would benefit my plight to share my writings.

It took me two years to bring my writings here

to be activated on my inpresenceofspirit.com. I have forwarded wendygreenwell.com the eighty-eight writings belong here with the rest of my writings, the extensions of “In Presence of Spirit.” I will be publishing them for the first time here. When they were here two years ago, they were not activated, thus a website of their own, that was just there, without me working on it. I did not feel right about it. So I took action, and I have extracted, as fast as I could, all content from wendygreenwell.com, and I am Publishing here.

I have taken 32,000 pictures since October 22, 2017,

I learned how to make video’s from photos, then do the videos, and Publish them 29 in all, on YouTube. I finally took care of my problem. I was not happy with eighty-eight writings over there. Now I have my letter writings of 2005, 38 writings from various years.

I am going to crunch them up, make fewer than 88 writings. I was told I have enough GB to do whatever I want. Like, put some more videos on here. YouTube was fun, and I learned a lot, but it is time for me to complete this part before my 58th Birthday — twenty-seven days.

I feel free to share.

Here is where they belong. One site four Domains three forwarded to inpresenceofspirit.com. One SSL, One Hosting, One C-Panel, One wordpress.org site, everything that is “In Presence of Spirit,” for its 30th Anniversary since I wrote it.

I feel excited; I will see activity like I have not seen for a while, To the ones that have spent time with me, “In Presence of Spirit,” thank you for reading my writings.

I opened the Subscriptions again although I do not know what to do. One time I closed it when I had over 900 Subscribers. They try to come in on my Admin page and my phone beeps so much. I will try and figure it out.

Well, today is the day that wendygreenwell.com came home to me.

Thank You, Lord, for expanding my inpresenceofspirit.com this is what you ordered. It is done.

As stated in past writings,

“This is my journey from darkness to the light,” of “In Presence of Spirit’s” extensions.” I still have to look past myself and share my extensions of “In Presence of Spirit.com” Sometimes I am a little uncomfortable, that is when I Publish anyway, they are meant to be shared. I believe this without a doubt.

So with this message, “We, need to lift our hearts and mind’s up to the heavens and bring back the wonderful, inspiring aspects of life. Therefore making us open and receptive souls to rise to heaven when God is ready for us.” It is so nice to be home, home in the heart of my quest and my desire. Home at Wendy’s, “In Presence of Spirit.com” Wendy Yvette Greenwell January 20, 2018

1997

TWO PLUS TWO

November 17, 2017 Wendy Yvette Greenwell

People know what two plus two is.

Perfect Foggy Night — Our Society is in dire need of mass awareness

What about the whole of society and it’s properties? The putrid decay of our Families.

We are in bondage that has repeated itself to damn many times,

With so many Families over the World being affected by the degenerative powers of the negative side of doom.

Our Society is in dire need of mass awareness to the point, if something is not done soon, many more will suffer the same misconceptions past down from generation to generation.

The near-destruction of our Society is plagued by the outer abominations of desolation which is the break up of the family unit, has caused less than desirable situations for our children.

Everyone is affected the loss of identity — no real meaning to life. All the questions that do not have answers in the outer, do have in the inner. Isolation, confusion, fuses easily lite, alcoholism, dependence, abuses mental, emotional, verbal, physical, anguished from lies and deceit, called names, forced submission, games played, devious, manipulations in degrees from the self-centered addicted person.

Women are the hardest hit. It cycles into a way of life, and it is hard to break the cycle. The circle of events brings decay of one’s ever-presence. Exhausted from breathing, the fears, worries, and anxieties weigh on your soul, the pain is grief in any realm.

As has been written, “the abominations repeat themselves to total degeneration to destruction as seen in my family, and in or for the regeneration to take place there has to be total abandonment from one’s own will.” “Past Events” 1996. What is the point? Mass Awareness because so many are suffering for nothing. August 17, 1997, Wendy Yvette Greenwell

2017

APOLOGY

October 1, 2017 Wendy Yvette Greenwell

I just ventured out to The World of Positive,

Inspiring, Verification, of Communication in The Oneness of “The I Am Presence,” for everyone in, The Universe, and Multi-universe. In July 2016 I looked up Orbs, then I went straight to Archangel Michael, and now I have received hundreds of transmission of information. So many Positive Writers, but I feel I am still stuck. It is great to know that my writings are meant to be, just like all of yours. Thank You, Universe for helping me find Verification! June 17, 2017

6/29/17

It is the person, the people that lose their way time and time again. This song is perfect. It is a reinforcement for the people who are searching. It is my will to be lost and stagnant and worn out from all life’s experiences. This song assures me even in my darkest hour, where there is no light. He is in the midst of me weathering me yet through another storm. “Sorry do not know what song I was talking about but All The Christian Artists lead you to God.”

Before you enter into Salvation, Pain, No Relief from the burdens that have made me or you hit rock bottom. When the light of Love through Jesus Christ enters you, that gut-wrenching pain in the inner person is given to The Holy Spirit in Reconciliation. God does not break his promise. We get weak from all life’s experiences from the beginning to this very moment. June 29, 2017

June flew by.

So much is happening in the whole World. Write a letter to the Lord, directly to him. Have your conversation with the Lord. I got all caught up in the sharing and the work it all entails, that I have worked very little on the writings since last July 2016. I have the previous edit to do, and then, we will see what I do.

God Bless The World with Your Presence in Spirit Lord. I am still sharing but very few. I do not think that my writings are just for me. I am enjoying working on them again. They make me feel better, and that counts for a whole lot of blessings for humanity not just myself. Wendy July 1, 2017,

Apology:

I want to apologize for not Publishing or working on my website. I have no pep in my step. I am resting from December 29, 1995, to date August 14, 2017. Twenty-two years since the awful night, I fell off the face of the earth.

My seventeenth grandchild will be here in three months. I feel I can not take care of any more children. I think it is my 31, 33, 35, children’s responsibility because I am burnt out.

As we might know I got my children back on January 17, 1998, he had them for almost two years. They started having babies 2001 October 4 the first one; we moved into this house when he was one month old. So we have been here sixteen years in November.

Time has flown by. I am 57 and Richard my best friend and companion is 74. I have kept my promise to his mother, and we are here — no place else to go, but here is just fine and dandy as cotton candy.

I love my trees and my plants. I have someone cutting the grass once a month. Although he came over here the other day, I did not answer the door. He is not due back for three weeks. I will be rude if he does it again.

I do not want to have to do the yard myself; I have no energy for it. If he comes back before three weeks, I am firing him. (He came by three more times, I did not answer the door.) But when he does come back, the yard is ready, and I will have forty to pay him. R.H. and I, split the cost. Once a month.

“He came back I asked him why he kept coming over here, he said he needed work.” I said, “I told you four weeks. So while he was doing the yard my sister and I went to the store when we got back he was throwing four-foot pieces of my live Plumeria, upfront in the pile. I picked them up, took them to the back cussing, I had a major fit. Later I cut them down to size and re-potted them. They will grow, I do not understand why people do that.

I brought up my book and my website a while ago. I said I could not force myself to work on it. I am not as inspired as once I was. I do not know how to get back. It seems like the past is in the history and I am right here, right now, on the outside looking into the past of me, that I wish was present.

I would be excited to work on the writings and Publish them as I went on and on. I still have so many, but I am stuck. These writings are in the present, even though I wrote them in the past. I am still at a standstill. So what must I do? That is the question.

About “Someone Said,”

What a name, first name to pop up. August 20, 2017, I wonder why I made it private. I think it is because I knew I would not do it right away. Today is Twelve Years since my first sign of Narrow Angle Glaucoma. I suffered horrible all Richard could do sit in the darkroom with me while I was in severe pain, blindness, 99 times. I was not diagnosed for four years. Pretty pathetic.

By The Grace of God, I can still see. Although they took a test, I am blind at night, but I already knew that. I cannot see my black trash can at night. ” I know, I am going to get a neon light sticker so I can see my trash can at night.” My Eye Dr. told me the cataracts are ready to be taken out. So on the 18th of September, I will have the first surgery on the right eye, and then on October 2 the left eye. Wonderful. She said the narrow angles of glaucoma would have a little room, when she does whatever, it is, that she is going to do. I am not watching a video about it.

This is the day I started writing 2005 writings to my husband of my youth. We parted ways last July 2016. It took him 21 years to ask me if I have ever been in love, I laughed, and said, “yes with my illusion.” He had no more reasons to see me in any way shape or form. Even though we have three grown adult children and going on 17 grandchildren, one in heaven. We are severed! We have been since the day of our Divorce.

A note:

It is September 18, 2017, I worried so much about my Son and driving into two Hurricanes from here to Miami to Connecticut and all the surrounding areas, then back to Miami before the Hurricane. Then driving to all the flooding in Houston, Pasadena Hello! Then back to Pennsylvania, then to Miami to fix the car $80 worth, headed straight for Florida’s Hurricane, then back to the Valley. He got home safe. I will have my first cataract removed on the 2nd of October. I have a fear of it.

August 24, 2017, It was time, to cease all communication. Boy, that did it, and a nine-hour conversation about the truth. That I thoroughly realized on that eventful night, he asked me that one question. “We were’ just friends we were never together again he came around because our children and grandchildren were here.”

August 30, 2017, The devastation of this monster hurricane is devastating. My Son is driving right into it, From Dania Beach Florida through Miami, Houston bound, as far as he can go to Deer Park and Pasadena for drop off of supplies, I am so worried. He left yesterday, and he is almost to Texas.

I am worried about everything right now. I dreamed my first love last night, and it is so weird how after forty-one years, I felt him in my presence, the way I did, back in my youth. I made myself forget the dream and the feeling.

I decided to put these short notes on here together because I need to Publish something. My relay and battery are out. Hopefully, my Son will fix it before he leaves again. He did fix it.

Sorry but I am sick of what is going on in The World. Seriously how can you detach from the catastrophic episodes going on daily? Oh My God. So I am going to take some advice from Faery Guidance 222 and take a week off from all the worrying I am doing. I am going to leave the fear of my upcoming surgeries on my eyes behind because it is stressful. They might take my Medicaid away, so I have to have the operations. How will I get my medicine for my eyes that I have to put in for the rest of my life? If they take the Medicaid away. Hello! I am not going to watch the news.

September 29, 2017, I read it all again, and I feel I need to Publish. I am having surgery on my right eye on Monday. I have all the necessary registrations and Dr. appointments, and exams and flu shot out of the way, I have to change so many things, I am less fearful about the surgery. Because I read about the effects of Cataracts, you can go blind with Cataracts also, and I have been experiencing several of them. That is why I stopped working on my writings. I think that is a good reason.

My car is broke down again, a more severe problem. Son leaves tomorrow to Alabama, then further up. My twin sister is coming to my rescue. She is taking me to Surgery, and she will be with me until the Anesthesia wears off and for a couple of days after.

Last time my eye got dilated I went blind for six days. Every Surgery is a major surgery. Have to do what I got to do.

My Dad wants to see us. I asked if I could travel after the surgery, she said I need to go back the next day, she said no. She did not say anything about the days after, but I do not feel after all these years of suffering from my eyes that I dare go an hour and a half away to return the same day. It is too much. My sister’s husband stays with Richard when we go. I can not transport Richard away from home anymore. Just to Dr.’s appointments, not trips.

I have to say I talked to my oldest daughter yesterday and she brought up her Dad. She says, maybe I should not tell you I said, yes I want to hear. He is going back 36 years saying that I was his one true love.

He has been married to her for 21 years. He is wasting his time even talking about me. It was too late the day he married her three months after our Divorce. I am telling you right now you were never my one true love.

This is a long gibberish kind of publication but it is all I have done. I am doing alright, my Dr. is a Great Specialist and I have to trust her and her team that will be working on my eye tomorrow. Thurmond Eye Associates Deborah Alexander has been my Eye Specialist since 2010. October 1, 2017

2017

SOMEONE SAID

April 18, 2017 Wendy Yvette Greenwell

Someone said,

“I would rather listen than read.” I did not say anything about my writings. It made me think of them though.

How can I record each writing

And Publish it? I have the where for art thou. I do! Send me someone to help me Publish My Way of reading my writings with a video of Sunsets, Moons, and My Trees. Help me Lord, do this soon! How do I record and video the writings? What music should be in the background? I know, “My Trees making music with the wind.”

Perfect, We can do it, Lord,

“You and I, We are, In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with the Lord.” I love how it all goes together, no matter where I start and leave, for a time, it all means the same thing to me.

This is my purpose in this my existence!

I have been bold to Publish my writings. To me, they are here for Our Purpose. To gather the broken hearts, To Bring Peace to the Eternal Truth of Our Existence, To Bring Healing Waters of Love, Hope, and Faith. To Bring the Love of Our Father, Who is in Heaven to the home, in Every One of Us, Forever More.

Take the deception of the negative side of the whole situation.

Which is Full Out Alert, I say: “What in the World People. Now, do you know how we got here? It was not an easy task.

Our World is at the hands of Rulers from other Countries and Our Own President. I have 16 Grandchildren, one in heaven. Am I suppose to fear for our daily presence on this beautiful planet, we all call Home.

I give All You Rulers The Presence of God’s Holy Spirit. To Stop The Madness, and bring Peace to all my Brothers, and Sisters World Without End.

I Plead The Blood of Blessings of Jesus Christ Holy Spirit,

to rain down heavenly manna of healing old wounds, and showing the way out of darkness, to the Peace that comes from Jesus Christ Resurrection to Life Eternal.

My Son’s 18 Wheeler broke down 28 miles from a town in Mississippi; he had to wait an hour and a half for help.

Twenty-two years since I started writing my journal. Thirty years, three decades since I wrote, “In Presence of Spirit.” Oh Lord Help! Do I Publish this? I know I should. After I finished writing, I went and read my writing to Richard. He likes all of them. I only had to change one sentence. It was automatic writing. It has not happened in a while.

I found some questions. I know they will be answered. Even if I still, do it all by myself. I am in my sixteenth year of being Richard’s Companion and helper of all his needs. He is 74 now. I asked him what 555,000 x 2 he told me in seconds 1,110,000.

I have not checked the Stats in months. I am not working on writings like I used to. I will Publish this writing sometime today. An unusual circumstance. A need to be free in expression and Love for All Mankind. God Bless The World; God Bless You and Me. Wendy Yvette Greenwell April 18, 2017

I do not know why I made this private. I am going to re-Publish. I can not force myself to work on my writings. Very little activity because of it. Maybe I will feel better after the Cataract Surgeries, October 2017, only time will tell.