I have lost the spirit, and I wish to have You back.
I have lost the spirit, and I wish to have You back. I can not live another day without Your Presence. I Miss You; I Love You, I Need You, I am lost without you. What is my reason for being?
I have lost my children.
Lord, I can not be a part of their life. Oh, Jesus brings Your comfort down and rest with me for eternity. I know I took the wide and wrong path and I failed I lost Your Voice, Your guiding Presence.
The writings I wrote in Spirit are omnipresent, but I lost the gift of writing because of my stupidity. Lord guide and direct our children him and her.
To Your children, since the conception of Humanity through You Jesus Christ life is lived through the death of the old and anew life in and through You. I miss my children so much. I pray to be part of their lives.
Thank you for the job. I should not complain it is just so long but that is alright. I want to put “In Presence of Spirit” together. I have three days off after tomorrow’s 10-hour shift, I will work on the writings when I am off.
Oh Lord, where are you? Are You mad at me? I can not feel You? I can not hear You, I can not do anything without You. Help from henceforth, and forever.
You beloved Wendy, In Jesus Christ, I fall at Your feet with a heavenly kiss My Lord, My Love, My only reason for being alive still. In God, I Trust with all the Angels Congregated together to form The Union of Saints, Pure Knowledge. I love you. August 27, 1997, Wendy Yvette Greenwell
And see if someone will Publish, “The Writings,” not in any vain way. Kind of strange to read writings so powerful. I was deep in scripture, and I pained for every woman in my position, for the sufferings of all the World, and a clearing made me a productive witness in testimony in Jesus Christ, and the entire writings give an understanding to the ancient literature.
The passion of Christ entreats your soul to the peace that only comes through Jesus Christ from God.
It is that unknown you can not face. Oh to be freed from the daily degradation, humiliation, constant ridicule, day after day, week after week, year after year. How can any constructive well being have access into our lives, when it is muddled in all the generational abominations.
My outer world is faceless,
But my inner has an understanding even though I am weak right now. I feel I captured the presence of Jesus Christ Holy Spirit in my prayers and my research in God’s precious words.
I gave nine people the first twenty-four pages of writings.
I felt the I have to of it all despite my boldface expressions of capabilities only done from the inner chamber. I am not ashamed of what I wrote in any realm. My faith is in Christ Jesus and God’s promises, laws, statutes, commandments, judgment, all stated past, present future. To whom understanding is granted, let him understand.
I have seen the vision on the rooftop, and the seeds have been sown on the solid foundation.
We have to save our children, our families from any more loss of soul, bring them in the presence of God so that the cleansing can begin its development, from the core to realization, of the answers of the whole. So the peace can come, and the regeneration can take its place in the mass healing and awareness that all Society can obtain.
Wake the walking dead out of the sleep
That death and destruction have taken over, and bring them into the peace that is given through the promises of God to Our Fore Fathers and then delivered in the redemption of our sins through Christ Jesus to us. I believe with all my heart and soul. My state of being was total burn out of a losing battle. 1996 Wendy Yvette Greenwell
March 21, 2018, Well, I did follow through with Publishing Myself. To funny. As the saying goes, “If You Feel The I Have To of It All,” DO IT! February 17, 2019, Wendy
I know all my diligent study in The Bible is helping my future
the knowledge of the Word of God. It is utmost in my life now. It seems when I let go of my devotionals, and I take control. I deeply recede into this fountain of slushy muck. I start reading and writing a lot of vocabulary in the Bible.
When I think of my children, I remember how everything was broken, and I could not put any pieces together. So then I place them in the Trust of God and the ex’s quest to be other than a deadbeat Dad, as he so always said, last three or four years.
All the things
He was not to the children he has to be now, and sometimes I think he is not going to be able to do it. He realizes all the responsibility for it not just financial. I hope he is strong enough. See I do not wish harm on him, he is not that strong. Children needed their Dad they never had. I hope he is that man and dad he wanted to be. You know there is a negative side to this, I hope he is being all he can be, Importantly not letting our children down. Cause Mom doesn’t have anything. I am handling it.
It is quite late. I am glad I got to talk to you. Thank you for your insight, and inspirations, you have blessed me with a real understanding that I have needed desperately for years. My growth is not limited, and is exceeding in the right progression, for what I have been through.
I wish not to leave my children out of this, but I can only do something for me for their benefit tomorrow. I am building a tower of precious jewels positive thinking, etc. All resources are being tapped in. I believe the spirit is working preparing the way for me to help benefit others, use my knowledge, etc. to help people in my condition, “World Condition.”
I have faith in all God’s Words Past, Present, Future; we
can only get there one day at a time. A lot of my writing is different don’t you think. May the grace of God adorn you in all your works through Jesus Christ Our Lord and Bless You Complete. June 3, 1996
OVER AGAIN
If I had it all to do over again. I would have listened to my Lord because I heard him. I was part of a circle that needed to come to an end of the cycle. Thank you, Lord. June 7, 1996
God is the foundation that gives us life. Man is dominant only in his stupidity; alcohol destroys Families. “Write God’s words to begin to end, what exactly He and only he says, through the from The Holy Spirit through Christ Our Lord Amen.” “but know got caught up in the moment,” “make them look.” June 8, 1996
Reading and writing, knowledge is limitless. The Bible is past present, future. Omnipresent since it’s writings. The heart searches for it’s home all it’s born day. The heart is the home of the highest. The soul, choose to live, and you will have everlasting life. Through Jesus Christ Our Lord.
Six mountains to climb the seventh you rest with and through Jesus Christ. While the sheathing of the old ways, memories with pain, the sins you have in yourself, and those that have affected your life adversely. The new seeds are planted through the regeneration of The Truth, we all have, inside us. June 10, 1996
I have ups and downs. I know we all do. I know all my diligent study in The Bible is helping my future. The regeneration is regenerating itself through the energy that is Jesus Christ Holy Spirit. I can see it around me. June 13, 1996
Solitary Have not been sleeping, restless, lonely probably, no dwelling of my own, no escape, no fantasy, dealing with reality. I am using my time wisely not bee idle in mind. I needed a lot of knowledge to get through this spiritual awakening solitary. Me and the Spirit of Our Heavenly Father.
I have not wasted this last six months at all.
Painful, but I have an inside understanding of the degeneration that has haunted man in our sphere of time and reason. It took giving up sole possessor of everything, even my stuff, left with nothing. Two months later I got my maiden name back.
I fought through hell to come back to some forgiveness of myself reasons, situations, circumstances. I have to get out in public but all my time, in the research of God’s word I have run across quicksand. No one believes you accept my guardian angel. Quick to judge, sure to condemn.
Whose condemnation is it? Not mine, your time will come, my time was just sooner. Believe what you may, All the words written in The Bible are yesterday, today, is tomorrow.
Past, Present, Future, God’s gift is the present sheath the past through Jesus Christ Holy Spirit and look forward to the future. For it is only through Jesus Christ that we can be forgiven, He is the opening of our souls. Then the Baptism the death of sin, rebirth through and with Jesus Christ the redemption of our sins the cleansing sometimes continues you do not think you can take another development and a bigger one comes around. June 14, 1996
Perceive
Now, I can perceive. Before, when I was in the muck of destruction, I could not think. Now I have an unlimited span in my mind’s eye. There stands firm in my being. June 16, 1996,
Confused: I am confused about my spiritual awareness, the knowledge is there, it is all in my writings, my keepsakes, which are essential to me. I know the meaning of truth. I can write it, but I can not speak it.
June 17, 1996, In the past five and a half months, I have been reading God’s Words, studying daily for hours. I have written prayers, letters, vocabulary, set a definite consciousness of the presence of God, which I felt I could not reach. All the things that need to be done will be done in perfect order in perfect time. June 17, 1996, Wendy Yvette Greenwell
Wendy with Jesus, {the Holy Spirit,} “In Presence of Spirit,” in writing to The World.
Wendy with Jesus In Presence of Spirit in writing to The World
Make no doubt about it, The Lord hath called His People home, them that can hear let them come unto God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit.
I leave all the plans in Your Hands, Lord because I cannot see it in mine. I know first hand how essential these writings are to the Lord and I. I insist on completing it. So People will be soothed, and regenerate internally to external purification.
All in all, it is a significant passage for everyone, not just myself.
We are one in Spirit. I can with the whole will of My Father who ordained me, Wendy, to write Our Book for anyone who needs to recuperate, and find their way to the Presence of Spirit, in every heart, “In the Kingdom, the Holy Will Is Done.”
To Jesus Christ,
“but what oneself is to You Dear Lord, what you have given me, my love, and my life, to fulfill the plan You have made for every person on this planet we call earth. 1988 “IN PRESENCE OF SPIRIT.” Oh Lord, I give to You, “I am, In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with the Lord.” June 12, 2008,
Oh, Jesus, we need so much.
We need Your Presence To Fill Us, Renew Us, Regenerate Us. Fill Our Ever Presence with Your Eternal Presence, and Bring Us Where You Want Us To Be. Hold fast Your Love, Your People are searching, and not finding You, they can not hear You. Lord Open Up, and Send The Sound Waves so they can listen to you. August 9, 2008
Well, I have done some inputting and quite a bit of reading.
I have written several writings in the last few weeks. 2008 is already over 17,000 words by itself. If I did not have this book to work on all these years since the day I left I would not have made it.
“Go into the “I,” of You, and talk To the Lord
In the privacy of your mind, and your soul receives the messages that are waiting to be set free inside your private house. Talk to Jesus. Tell him your innermost thoughts. Confess what you need to so He can help cleanse you in the blood of Jesus Christ.
Now would be a good time to read John 17 The Whole Chapter. Jesus Christ Prayer to God. Read Romans and Hebrews, and Corinthians read. Ask Jesus Christ to help you through this hard time in your life. Give Him you, confide in Him, ask Him for guidance, understanding. Give it to God. December 24, 2008, Wendy Yvette Greenwell
It is easy reading when you have an understanding.
I have been reading, writing vocabulary, and writing scriptures. I cannot sing right now. I am not going to give up on getting a job.
You know I needed to be with my twin. For many years I was hurt, she was not with me back in the day, she hid out so to speak. Anyway, I have overcome a lot of things from the past. Boy, my twin and I are Twins. I feel safe with her; I wait for her, miss her. God did Bless me with a Twin. Growing up we always had each other period. So I was not ever a people person.
When you are a kid time is so slow,
It feels, then, fifteen years have gone by Nineteen years she has lived in San Antonio and me in the Valley. I have been here since February 10, 1996, my thirty-sixth birthday. I have been gone since December 29, 1995. I left. I had to for the kids; they refused to go to the shelter with me. I had no other choice.
This scripture is why I know it was and is right that I left. Malachi 4:6 “And he shall turn the heart of the fathers to the children, and the heart of the children to their fathers, lest I come and smite the earth with a curse.”
It is easy reading when you have an understanding.
As it is written, “as it is unto this day,” in many of the verses in the Bible. Writings pertain to the past, the present, the future.
The fascinating, powerful scriptures are Romans:
The whole Epistle. That is the one which should be read through in Church. The Gift is there in totality. If everyone read the Romans, they would have more understanding. Everything pertains, and we all have to find the Christ within.
I like reading the Bible, and when I come to a word Supplications entreat earnestly address in prayer. Daniel 9:23 “beginning of thy supplications the commandment came forth, and I come to show thee, for thou art greatly beloved; therefore understand the matter, and consider the vision.”
This is fun for me.
The Thesaurus of these words is incredible, so many words mean the same thing, all meaning in one word from God. I do freak out sometimes when we are on the expressway there are so many people, and how many are searching? How many are afflicted by abuse? How many? I try to see my part of society, and I withdraw. I lost fifteen years, and I am judged. I have some obstacles to jump over but, at least I am going forward. I am getting stronger, further from the past.
I have no idea what tomorrow is going to bring.
I do not know where I stand with my pre-teens. It has been a month since I have seen them. I have no plans to go down there, even if I wanted to it would be on someone else’s wallet, car time, so when I can do it myself, and when I am ready I will go, I might be being stingy, I am still affected by my loss, and I need more time.
I have accepted all of it because it was my choice in leaving, it is just a shame that I fell and lies prevailed. It is a shame. It is like I am dead. What is there to be here for but I am destined not to die to until He is ready to take me. I am probably depressing you sorry.
I am working on working I will overcome this sooner or later will see what time brings. I hope something good. This is the pits. May 14, 1996, Wendy Yvette Greenwell
Now why would I Publish my writings like this. My conversations, with my guardian angel. This one is a letter to her. It belongs with all the rest, no matter how uncomfortable I am at times. Wendy
