See there is a difference in our letters, and my writings.
See there is a difference in our letters and my writings
His are to his first family, well our family, and they are significant to the fulfillment of “In Presence of Spirit,” as a whole developmental process from beginning to end.
The first book is the credentials
that I had done at the time; it was in no way complete. So I am sitting here with 330 books that are complete in regard, it is a book of its own.
It has been read by the family on my mom’s side only.
I have the rest of everything I wrote, and that makes it three books in one. But what? There are three more years of writing after “Reflections of In Presence of Spirit,” that I did not realize until 2008. So I guess that makes it, more parts of the whole.
So with all this,
I am going to merge his letters with my writings a unique combination of flesh versus spirit, in this remarkable journey we have been on. I unite my writings 2005 with that of the letters the husband of my youth wrote the children and me, and I share them with anyone who wants to read it. I assure you, you will not get bored. “I decided long ago to leave his letters out; I gave him credit where no credit was do, honestly. I need to Publish for Publishing’s sake right now.”
It is from the Spirit of Christ, and he joined us,
as one in Spirit, because we never got here when we were’ married.
This love for him is better in Spirit,
So we may never again be entwined in the flesh, we are and will always be in the Spirit of “In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with the Lord, and of course, “Reflections of In Presence of Spirit,” in which we share in our commitment and our communications with each other, our love and understanding of the knowledge that is given through Jesus Christ our Savior, the only ruler of our souls. March 22, 2008, Wendy Yvette Greenwell, I am going to have to Publish as is because I can not change it, and I am running out of time.
In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.
So what am I supposed to do
“As it was, in the beginning, is now and ever shall be the world without end.”
So what am I suppose to do? The Book says to be positive and affirm positive attributes and dedicate yourself to your conviction, and I have. Time, and time again. Through out the length of my writing days, and then some. I acknowledge that you have given me the greatest gift being, in presence of spirit with you in all my writings. January 14, 2010
Laser Tomorrow
Mr. Errol Grannum will be performing drilling a hole in my left eye and the will re-open the hole in my right eye. The ones that made this happen are Knights Templar out of Illinois. Thank you. They are paying for my surgery on my left eye, and since my Dad and His Wife paid in cash the first surgery and preliminary Doctor’s appointment, he is going to open the hole in my right eye.
It is a stressful time for me on the 27th I go before the Social Security Disability Judge, my third appeal. I have not had very many Doctor appointments because I do not qualify for any help because once again I am a pauper because I quit June 2007 because I was suffering from my eyes and yes forever thought they were’ eye migraines, turning out to be Narrow-Angle Glaucoma, with Cataracts that are not bad enough to take out.
I am not even eligible to get the help of any kind from the commissions for the Blind. Now if I were going to go back to work, they would help me. I figure I will go to them if I get denied again.
My brother is coming down from California
for my Twin and My 50th Birthday. Weird how swift time flies.
You see back in early 1996 I wrote a piece,
I asked the Lord for a friend, not a husband, Ha. There is a difference. He gave Richard and me our friendship. We have lived in this comfortable House for eight years. When I worked, I paid for my part. But since I have not worked in two years and seven months, he has taken care of all of it. It is only Him, my Son and me now. The girls have since seven months moved out.
Although I care for Richard with his needs, he has provided. Home for me. We remain friends, and of course, we are companions, we even share a room, but it does not mean we are common law married. “He is 75 now. Cerebral Palsy has taken its toll on him. I am thankful that God gave me the ability to care for him day in day out, although we like the nights I hate the Sun, the heat of South Texas.” Jesus Christ thank you for Richard, my best friend. Only a friend. I am worried, and no one will still help.
Oh Lord in your name I do pray. I am so confused about what I am supposed to do. I need your help in all areas of my life, my love, my book, the complete book. The Surgery on my eyes tomorrow, The court in front of the Judge for Disability with my Lawyer at least I will not be alone.
I have been reading 2005 writings
“Reflections of In Presence of Spirit.” To the husband of my youth, from the wife of his youth. It is beautiful that is when I had my first glaucoma attack. I am already on page 59. He still has not read it But my reading and editing further a feeling the vibration of such power prayers to the husband of my youth that is over one hundred pages and 29,000 plus a word count. Second to the highest words from all the years of writing.
It is for anyone, not just him. Truly it is verified. Hopefully, prayerfully you can find forgiveness in your heart, mind, and soul, it takes a ton of layers of your past and gives you the room to breathe through the cleansing of your hearts pain.
I know it works because that gut pain has not come back.
Even in extreme difficulties, to describe mine to the minute status. How else could I state that? I have choice minutes of anxiety depression, fear, I do not have the means and resources I need. Still, no transportation. January 21, 2010
I know I have been working on the writings, no one else was going to do it.
I told my Lawyer it is my hobby, Ha, it is a lot more than that, but because, “In Presence of Spirit,” only sold one book. There is no money involved it has nothing to do with my Court. I worked for The Lord and He will provide in His time. This, all this, is not, for greed it is to help, in the regeneration of our souls. Seriously I followed through with what I was given in Spirit to do. Even in my Mortality with my own problems and the way I am. The Holy Spirit of Jesus Christ blessed me with His Presence of Spirit.
Thank you, Jesus Christ, there is no way I would have made it through without you and our “You are and I am In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with the Lord.” “Knowledge had but impatiently been misplaced”
I knew that was the beginning of my book. I was going to be writing while I worked on it on the side. I was still writing every word that would one day be my complete, to be certified Book, of the offspring of my first, in writing communication, “In Presence of Spirit.”
Jesus Christ heard my prayers and answered it at the beginning of my soul’s voyage in search of peace in my soul. Now we know it is not all about me. It is for anyone who is searching and not finding. It is for you and for me. I still do not speak about all this, I have no questions to answer. My eyes feel better today. January 28, 2010, Wendy Yvette Greenwell
“And they that weep, as though they wept not, and they that rejoice, as they that rejoiced not 31. And they that use this world, as not abusing it, for the fashion of the world passeth away.
Romans 11:8 According as it is written, God hath given them the spirit of slumber, eyes that should not see, and ears, that they should not hear; unto this day. For if the casting away of them be the reconciling of the World, what shall the receiving of them be, but life from the dead
THROUGH ALL THIS PAIN
Letter: Through all this pain and suffering also for my children. I am not a disgrace to God. For it is with him I live, move, and have my being. I am waiting for the Lord for His Justification because through the Judge; God set me free from bondage to well, “Internal House Cleaning.”
I am working on the Bible, and with all my Spirit I will not lose track.
We need to work on “regeneration.” See I have shed some layers of the afflictions that were’ put upon me. Long generations of time past are surfacing in time and reason.
Abuse in the physical, mental, emotional, verbal, spiritual, alcoholism past down generation to generation. How Long? A long time, covetous, possessiveness, control, rage, shame, blame, jealousy, should I go on, we know we can go to the Bible and find the reason. “It keeps regenerating itself until destruction.”
For my Dears, not man’s will but, “God’s will be done,” any way round about.
Reading Chapters of Scripture in Church, a must, show the World how much security you have in bringing in more than you can hold.
2 Corinthians 6:1-18, 7:1-16. When you read scripture, you read a chapter. God’s words flow through the writings, you know that. Man’s way is not right with God. For all have come short of The Glory of God, but what can one Church do? What can one couple of Ministers do? You can make known God’s way complete.
2 Corinthians 4:4 (For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strongholds;) 5. Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ.
Corinthians 12:9 “My grace is sufficient for thee, for my strength is made perfect in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
See when I told you I was prophesying. I was.
It is for The Glory of God. Christ my Salvation, My Baptism, my reaffirmation, I got Delivered on 2/9/1996. The prophecy I carry is “God’s Words.” Who knows what miracles he has planned for his chosen and I know I am one. I am a baby in Christ, and I have always known in my heart there is a God, and I walked willingly through the fire of my soul.
I had no one but the burning coals of his search for disaster, greed, materialism, adultery,
I was safe in my mind. God brought me through, and he has to do everything. Everyone is watching him. He likes attention.
See God does not need an interpreter because every word that is written is “God’s Word.” For all generations. We are the regeneration of God’s Word, what He said, has come to pass, is right now, and He needs, the mass multitudes because He is alive, and calling the chosen to come together, so we can be home. Finally after all generations. For our soul’s search has intertwined with all the generations of God. March 17, 1996, Wendy Yvette Greenwell
I can not come out of my funk by myself. I need a constructive overall outcome, and I am in poor strength. I am weak I choose to be strong, I want everything “In Presence of Spirit,” has stated, and documented, and Published.
Important time!
I need to work, on loving with one heart to heal through Jesus Christ. I fell down literally, I am going to feel it later. Wrist, elbow, shoulder, sciatica on the left side, Wonderful!
I have to, I need to, I should, no more excuses.
Get out of your rut. Your lack of energy, your lack of enthusiasm, your lack of love, understanding, patience, understanding, courage, endurance, guidance, weak, need the ignition switch to ignite, and guide me out of lack of abundance.
I am worthy.
I am abundantly blessed with all my extensions of my times, “In Presence of Spirit, with The Lord.” They are etched in my mind, heart, and soul. I wish to be with them in heart, mind, and soul, and raise my inner awareness, to peak out, and help me find the people that need to know now.
Help me spread the news that, The Lord God Almighty is present, “In Presence of Our Spirit.” “Everyone’s!”
For the Love of God is here, and I want to feel again. I want to be ignited with the passion of the ever presence. I want to be alive in Spirit. In the here, and now of yesterday’s, tomorrows.” May 21, 2017, Wendy Yvette Greenwell
for forgiveness for everything I have done that is not right with you.
Access better resources for my today’s which will benefit tomorrow.
Forgive me for cussing. Forgive me for my misery. Forgive me for not forgiving the ones that hurt me the most. Help me forgive them. Forgive me for being overweight, uneducated, sad, depressed. I am not lonely, but I do need some spark to ignite the light of love in my heart again.
Help me, Lord.
Give me the strength to carry on. Help me Lord with all I need to do. I need You, Lord. I Love You, Lord. I am screaming inside I need your help! I need You, Lord. Jesus, I Love You. Show me Your way again. Hold fast my love for You and bring me out of darkness into the light of Your Ever Presence. I am calling out! Can you hear me?
I aspire to complete my mission of “In Presence of Spirit.”
Expedite into a paycheck and a way to get all my grand-kids some Christmas Presents. Sale the books so I can help Richard pay the taxes and get Richard his lift chair, and the other essential things he needs. Handicap accessible.
I have to start with the old, in with the new day, the new outlook on everything,
I need to do, to access better resources for my today’s which will benefit tomorrow. I have written some pretty awesome conversations with the Lord. I have shared it since September 2011. Six years, to my first love first, Blogger, The Website on December 13, 2013.
Do it, Wendy!
Do it! You can do it. Yes, you can! You can do it and get over it. Work your mind, walk, plant your garden. Do it!
Finally,
I admitted that the husband of my youth was not nor ever had been my one true physical love. For me, he does not exist. My God and Lord saved me from any more damnation. Even though I have had to deal with all my children’s choices. I am tired and they are all in their thirties. I am 57 the years have not been easy. Love me or not. May 21, 2017, Wendy Yvette Greenwell “I can not believe myself sometimes.”
Can you imagine it? I started the first part in March 1996. Then I decided I wanted to work on “Reflections of In Presence of Spirit.”
I cannot work on it like I used to. I am not ready to activate Social Media. I tried, but I have deactivated and deleted my Pinterest. I can go to Go-daddy and sign in with my Facebook account, but now I am okay behind the scenes. Besides they send me messages to buy my server, my resources are not unlimited.
The possibilities are endless
But I choose to follow through without the get it, of it all. We will see, what tomorrow is going to bring. You need some tender love and care. You cannot do the same ole anymore. You need to open up and let the light of love come in and help the cause from the effect. Yes, I said it. I am down, and I have to pick myself up and do the work to get me where I need to be in action, not distraction.
I got to climb out of this hole. Need to be alive in Spirit. I want to feel the excitement and dynamics of what I have honestly done, Sharing my “In Presence of Spirit,” and hundreds of the extensions.
Shallow Breathing! Nothing in my brain!
Thoughts, episodes in floating thoughts that have not entirely healed. Coming out of a flat-lined state, not able to go forward with all that has been left for me to share. I do not know in the physical who to ask for help! That means I have been lost in my past sins, and my children’s choices, no forgiveness angry with myself.
Thoughts February 24, 1996 “Thoughts flowing with nowhere to hide, for all is gone, and you are thee who lights. The light of thine heart, soul, breath, and mind is exalted from the world ’roundabout.
For it, thy will be done. For the strength I have is from thee. The knowledge I have received through my tribulation is wisdom, and it has given me the courage and faith that belongs to Our Father in heaven.
For it is our Father in heaven who walked with and protected me through the threshold of death and showed me life. I have taken my cross and borne it for many. I was buried and awakened in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost. I have been delivered of my trespasses and iniquity. I have no liens on one thing, not even my children.”
This was written four days after my Divorce.
I am finding my way back into the Presence of Jesus Christ Holy Spirit. I have been stagnant, not knowing which way to go. Upside, downside, inside, outside, roundabout. I long to have the passion of these my conversations with The Lord. Shared but not found. It is okay their time will come.
I am waiting, for the right time.
I do not feel right. I need reconstruction. Do not need to evaluate, out with the old in with the new. Each writing is new to anyone who reads them. I love working with them or excuse me used to work on them. It is because I have shared it.
I have not activated any resources to elevate resources and income. It is my right, and I do not know how to ask for abundance. As for users/subscribers, most try and get in my admin. Their usernames and mail .com’s do not look right to me. To me, you want to read them they are here. I am out here by myself. No need to activate Social Media because I can not do any more than I have done and the little that I am doing is not enough. My eyes needed a rest.
These writings I wrote were’ my therapy, my times, “In Presence of Spirit,”
Were’ just what I needed, to get through, my times of having conversations with the Lord. In Spirit, not without. It was not an easy ride. It has almost been a year in July that I finally admitted, to not marrying my one true love. To his face. He asked, and I answered. After that, we have talked a few times. I mean, please. I finally texted him and told him he has no reason to come here again. I missed him some. But for all the reasons that be, when the Judge said we are severed, we were’. A lie cannot last forever. It was his lie.
It is thirty-six years on the 30th of May the first, and last time I will ever get married. I did not re-hash. The way I see it the whole marriage was a lie from day one. Played the part from hell into His Heaven, I had a price to pay, and I paid dearly. May 21, 2017, Wendy Yvette Greenwell
I could not have made it through all these years without my times, “In Presence of Spirit,” with The Holy Spirit of The Lord.
A person wrote that my inpresenceofspirit.com is from my ego. Her ego is getting convicted. That is why she cannot fathom the depths of my life’s misery from without to within, “In Presence of Spirit.” Ego has nothing to do with it, period end of the story.
I have thrown out there hundreds of writings, from both my sites. I do not call the forgiveness of sins and who is responsible for me to write in the way I did, I have, and I am. It is in the I of me that is “In Presence of Spirit,” with The Holy Spirit of The Lord. I tell all of you, I could not have made it through all these years without my times, “In Presence of Spirit,” with The Holy Spirit of The Lord. Repeat on that one.
My private conversations with The Lord has been out there since September 2011. I threw it out there all messed up, and I had to put it all together again. May 6, 2017
I have been shouting out to the World my writings since September 2011.
Too bad, I deleted everything on Facebook. I went for it because I had to tell my first love before I could figure out how I was going to say it to The World about, “In Presence of Spirit,” and the extensions.
I am content with not having any substantial personal comments about my writings in General. I ran across one on the web where my writings are some of them anyway a woman wrote, “that all of it comes from my ego.” I do not see that. There was nothing left of me when I sunk into my inner chamber and accepted in complete totality, The Savior’s gift to me. Forgiveness of sins and the inheritance of His Gift to me, a sinner in bondage, straightway from my hell into His Heaven.
The Spirit of The Lord lifted me out of darkness into the light of His Ever-presence.
In One with God The Father, God The Son, God The Holy Spirit. The instant I accepted him into my innermost being, He sparked the light lets of His Divine Promise to me broken from bondage to prepare a way for me to write all our times, “In Presence of Spirit.”
That they are, I was not having conversations with myself. I am having conversations with The Lord. Since the beginning. I knew one day I would share them with the World. It is for the Spirit of The Lord’s purpose that I continue to share my writings.
I am not in good shape. I have several issues, what is the use? Close it up. Who cares. So I have begun my manuscript. I have kept myself from mourning my 2007 HP Pavilion and all its contents. I still have the pictures on the sites.
For years, my ex-husband would pop up.
He came to see the growing family, visit, stay the night. Not with me on the couch. Then one night in July 2016 he shows up for an all-niter. He saw the six people who were living here then; he visited with Richard then he found me outside in the backyard, with my plants and trees.
The first thing that comes out of his mouth was, “Have you ever been in love.” “My reaction, I laughed and said yes with my illusion.” Boy, that opened up a nine-hour conversation. Which caused me a bad break out of Rosacea and Glaucoma attack and I missed my Eye Specialist appointment that day.
In the end, he wanted a hug, well Lexie the German Shepard stood up and tried to bite him, on the face, if he had not reacted as he did, hand up protecting his face and hand in the dog’s mouth. He would have been bitten. He says oh I have one more beer you want to talk some more I said no and went in, agony.
I felt relieved though.
On the other hand, the truth set him free from me. Scratch his truth about our marriage. He claimed he loved me and would take care of me. It all became the lie that lost itself in the day to day not marrying your one true love.
I felt I did not deserve him because I was tainted and I would never be worthy. But this guy smoothed talked his way to marrying me fast. We made a pact he would take care of me, and I would not cheat on him. I did not want to stay with my parents. I was in no condition to work.
Since July 2016 I have only seen him five times.
We do not talk on the phone anymore. He is a truck driver like our Son. He asked me one time, “do you worry about me?” I said no that’s not my job. My Son had to pick an 18 Wheeler job cross country, across the United States back down, then up again every 36 hours. I hate it. I have to put you in the Lord’s hands Son. Drive Careful. He loves it.
My oldest daughter is expecting her sixth child. That makes the total seventeen grandchildren one in heaven. We never got to be Grandparents together. That is sad in a way. I miss him. There is just nothing left for us, to say to each other.
It really is a good thing. He made his choice the day he left our family, never to return to once was. Thank You, Lord. I am happy to be free, not chained and gagged.
I have written pages that I can Publish. Will I? Can I? Could I? Should I? We will see. Thank You, Lord, for all our times, “In Presence of Spirit.com” Short ones, long ones, all of them the whole bunch of our writings in, “You are, and I am In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with the Lord.” May 8, 2017, Wendy Yvette Greenwell
Ask for everything. Open your mouth and ask the Lord for what you want. I want to do everything I need to do to share my writings with a lot more People. Hundreds of thousands, of People, will read Our Writings. They are all, “In Presence of Spirit.”
I need and want the house to be handicap accessible,
I need and want all the essential things to help Richard be more comfortable, I need and want a working car, a good one, I want to write. I want to be happy, healthy, active, loving, harmonious, prosperous and happy.
I want to be organized.
I want to write with You Lord. I want to share our writings with The World. I want to take my family on vacation. I want to see my Dad at the Arroyo.
I want to see my first love again.
I wish all the best for Him and His Family. I want him to make it big, his dream come true. “I want to love as I have never been hurt.” I want a new outlook on life.
I am depressed at this time, lack of energy, enthusiasm, no spark.
Sure I love the writings. I am just all by myself in this. I want prayers for comments. Open up the World too, “In Presence of Spirit.” I Love You, God. I Love You “Father of All Mankind.” I Love You with all of my heart.
I want more views; I want all the positive to come true in all the writings, I want to let my ex-husband go completely, I want to not ask for a person in my life because he is not out there. I do not want superficial love. I do not need anything outside of You Lord and me.
I want a cure for Glaucoma and Cataracts, “did the Cataracts, new lenses.”
Save The World, Millions even Billions of People. I want to help heal the Multitudes in the blood of Jesus Christ. I want to be alive in Spirit. I want to be happy. I want to change Lord through “In Presence of Spirit,” that You shared with me.
I Love You, Jesus Christ. Help me accomplish everything that has been written, and let’s share these precious moments, I have with You, and Your Holy Spirit, “In Presence of Spirit.com” October 30, 2013, Wendy Yvette Greenwell February 28, 2018, I took this picture yesterday a. m. with a different phone. Interesting size.
I want to know why, oh why, I always felt like I had to share my writings? It is so weird to me, why couldn’t I just keep them to myself, it is a mystery to me. I always felt the I have to, and now all these years later, I do not know why. So where do I go from here? I am going to finish up, Print my writings, figure out what I am going to do with this massive site. December 26, 2019
