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1987-1995 HEAVY HEART

WISE WOMAN

Let your “Wise Woman,” drive the bus.

Sunset in the backyard.
I want to walk in the positive light

Read daily. List three ways to do God’s will. Walk. Write. “Serenity Prayer.” 1000 times, Probably. Do something fun. Three things I am grateful for today. It is very difficult to ask for help. I went to sixty Al-Anon meetings, and they shared experiences, strength, and hope. I had to make all the decisions, and it would take time, I would figure it out; it was so cool.

I went through so many stages,

But I did not write a journal, at all. It all fell into place. That is a Higher Power more significant than me, opening the doors to go through unfolding my process to recovery.

    I could not function anymore when I came here. I had exhausted all my energies. I had no more spirit; I was desperate for answers.

I do believe in God, but I have a problem turning my will over to Him, and waiting for my solution.

    This is where all my sixty meetings, six counselors, sponsors, priest, friends, rehabilitation, to figure it all out in three months of growth. But I was burnt out!

    I want to walk in the affirmative, light not the negative, dark. I want to be open-minded and feel alive in mind, body, and soul. I am sick of being dead.

I do believe in God, and I feel God can help me, but I have not pursued that relationship.

    I thought I had it, and I lost it again. When my husband left, God opened so many doors for me, pain, school, job, friends that cared, counselors, to help me sort, figure out. I worked my brain off, that is why I came in so frazzled, scattered.

While all this was going on, God was opening doors,

every time I turned around, that last one was taking off, one day notice to come to Minnesota. I know it was God putting me on that plane. The Higher Power is working in my life. I just lost touch again, and I want it back. I am empty.

I need to do the work.

    Open, willing, able. Listen, talk, share, read, go to meetings. Your experiences, strengths, and hopes. “Live one day at a time,” Ask Higher Power for help, understanding, guidance, wisdom, knowledge. All positive things and “Thy will be done.”

    Willing, honest, opened. I know I need to ask for help and the doors will be opened. April 1995 W. Y. L., Wendy Yvette Greenwell August 23, 2015, Twenty Years

    I feel I must put these first ones, they belong here on My Website. It is not a blog anymore; it is My Website, inpresenceofspirit.com. I am still doing this all by myself. This one and the next one are hard for me to Publish. But I think it will show you, how traumatic my experience was.

    Sometimes I cannot believe that I have Published all 400 plus writings, but I have, and it is only for the Holy Spirit’s Purpose, that I share “In Presence of Spirit.com,” with anyone who wants to read it.

231,033 for the year, 426,939 December 13, 2013 to December 31, 2014 = 657,972 views. Blogger had 508,289 views, that makes it, viewed altogether 1,166,261 times. But it has not been read that many times. Whatever.

    inpresenceofspirit.com has 949,316 views, since December 13, 2013. wendygreenwell.com has 75,148 views since January 18, 2016 and of course the blogger that is drafted 508, 289 = 1,532,753 views. Thank You, Jesus Christ, for Yours and my, “In Presence of Spirit” and all it’s extensions. Thank you for viewing my writings. Wendy As of April 30, 2022, inpresenceofspirit.com has 2,338,848 page views.

© 1995-2024 inpresenceofspirit.com by Wendy Yvette Greenwell

2015

400 PUBLISHED

400 Published:

Sunset in the back yard
400 Published To Me Wow

    To me, Wow! I did my part for four hundred writings. Now Lord what am I suppose to do? I have an idea. I have already started it, “Walking Into The Light,” “Revelation,” and finally, “Truth Is An Opening – To The Heavens.” I changed the name from “Someone said at the end.”

    Well, it has been an event filled trip for me, Publishing the extensions of, My very own, “In Presence of Spirit.com.” Physically all by myself. So I am still leaving a lot out. 

I am going to continue to write the events as they happened.

Meaning my writings, for the most part, are going to be in order. From the beginning to the end.

I saw a different Glaucoma Specialist a couple of days ago.

     As I have stated, STRESS. 38 days with an 11-month-old now, and an almost-three-year-old, plus nine people in the house. July 3, 2015, to August 10, 2015. Among everything else, but the most important is:

    My twin is going in for back surgery, Major Back Surgery, next Tuesday. I can not be there. Our brother is flying in on Monday; he is going to stay with her, and her husband for 16 days. The Doctor told her husband that he had done thousands of these surgeries. I am worried.

Oh Lord in the name of The Father, The Son, The Holy Spirit, guide the Surgeon’s hands to precise fusion,

“cause that is what they are going to do. Her spine has been slipping for years. She has seven disk bulge, and her neck is worse than her back, they tell her.

    She has suffered 13 years in Chronic Pain with a little help, but not much, prescriptions. It goes like this, she has her pain, I have my pain, and I can see Richard’s illness, every time I look at him. But he does not complain. He has been in pain for 72 years. Cerebral Palsy, if this is the first one you are reading.

Oh Lord in your name Jesus Christ, let this be the answer, to her prayers.

    Calm her spirit; she is worried, Lord. The means will be shown, for Me, to take care of her. Of course with Richard and the two dogs. She took care of me with my Hysterectomy. I am thankful that our brother is going to be with her and her husband.

    To get back to the results of my eyes. My regular Glaucoma Specialist was not there. I saw a new one. My right pupil is atrophied, it was dilated while I had a Glaucoma Attack with 57 pressure, years ago.

    The only good sign, my eyes are Okay, is the Optic Nerve is holding its own, but I might have to change medicine if my pressure does not calm down.

Oh, my Son freaked out the day before I went to the eye Dr.

I am going to share my right eye with you, here because I can. ( I guess I took the eye off.) My pupil is always like this; It was blind for six days, poor eye, the black thing at 11 o’clock is the laser treatment. It is a hole in my eye, and you can almost see the cataract.

    My Son freaked out, so he took this picture. My pressure was high probably higher than 17. I put my medicine in, and when it burns like fire, I feel like the medication did its job.  It is two chemicals, I have to put in my eyes every 12 hours. I am thankful for them. I confused my writing, so I am going to go ahead and close for now. Thank you for visiting inpresenceofspirit.com Wendy Yvette Greenwell August 15, 2015

© 2015-2024 inpresenceofspirit.com by Wendy Yvette Greenwell

1996

TRUTH IS AN OPENING

“I am there if you need me, but I will not come to you.”

Love the blue haze around the moon
We are all searching for the answers

I will give if you ask, but I will not reach out, even knowing dramatic conditions. (I did not ask for help.) It is Okay, We survived. I sat many nights on my roof, many a night, writing future events. Souring, finding, searching for the answers, not just for myself but for mankind.

    My insights are man’s secrets. The wherefore art thou on Women is long suffered. Women know that even if she is blinded by darkness. That she is Caregiver to many.

     Dear Sweet afflicted Children of God. It is not God’s fault. This deterioration of Family is Man’s fault. He has exhausted, controlled, raped us of all our dignity, and left us for dead.

    We have been beaten down, put down, slammed down for too long. We are not supposed to be under thumb. We are the Caregivers.

    We need to join together. Truth is an opening to The Heavens. We are all searching for the answers. February 8, 1996, Wendy Yvette Greenwell

© 1996 – 2024 inpresenceofspirit.com by Wendy Yvette Greenwell

1996

WALKING INTO THE LIGHT

In order to start walking into the light,

I liked that camera phone
To see it beyond the veil has led us through hell and back unsheathed

we need to put away old things. This means we are one with God and behold all things become new, “In Christ Jesus.”

    Everyone needs to stop looking outside of themselves, for the answers. The answers lie with no end. Inside your hearts and guess what, our hearts will overflow, with a burst of fourth of July lights. It hurts like hell, but the end will be justified, and then all will be free in Christ Jesus, infinite World with no end.

    Who are we to judge each other? You have been faithful to your wife, too long, it is time for a change. Pain while being abused. Verbally, emotionally, physically at times, spiritually, mentally.

    They induce fear. They vomit their unworthiness on us and force us to wallow in their misery. Thinking it is our own. When in fact it is not. We lose ourselves completely. Everything is for, for, for, no help, demands, criticism. We take it upon ourselves to the point, past exhaustion.

    We are instinctual beings. To see beyond the veil has led us through hell and back unsheathed. Thank You, Lord. Everyone has his purpose. Man is not willing to give up his reign. He thinks he is above God. My God is more. February 12, 1996, W.Y.L

©1996-2024 inpresenceofspirit.com Wendy Yvette Greenwell

 

1996

REVELATION-2

Revelation can be taken passively or actively.

Magnetized without a flash
Revelation can be taken passively or actively

In the former sense, the activity of God whereby He makes Himself, known to Men. In the latter, the knowledge thus imparted. The Biblical idea of revelation must be elicited by means of a broad induction of evidence, which I have, of which the briefest outline must here suffice.

    “Our withdrawal from understanding is:” Everyone is on top of you, the everyday duties of being Wife, and Mom, with the husband being an alcoholic, and generational abuser. Then, of course, Women having scars, possibly more severe inside, then the man’s control over women.

    Man is bred to believe he is over Women. Remember who bore these Men. Hey, We did! Give Us a hand! Is it our fault they treat us like sex objects, then throw us away? They have their lives, and we isolate with our children.

    We are beaten down verbally, nothing is good enough, except sex ha, and of course we get poked, pinched, pulled, thrown, spit on, cursed at, called ugly disgusting names, squashed, joint crunches, bloody lips, bruises extremities and of course inside, plus the crunches in the glands around the jaw that do not show bruising but hurt for so long.

    Intimidated, we feel we are unworthy. So we withdraw deeper. We do complain to a few and we get told to leave the situation, etc. But we know we can not. It is not that easy. Too many years for me. February 8, 1996 W. Y. L. I was still married,  Wendy Yvette Greenwell

    I have already fixed it, to be Published. I am trying to postpone the inevitable Publication of My interpretation of “Revelation,” in the awakening of my soul. Women suffer because of man’s domination. For some reason, they take the aggression of their own crap, and blame it on the Woman. Lord heal the World’s Wounds, in the name of Jesus. I have to Publish.

© 1996-2024 inpresenceofspirit.com by Wendy Yvette Greenwell

1996

ACCUMULATED

I have accumulated massive amounts of Biblical data.

Nice dark rain cloud, with the sun
I have  accumulated massive amounts of Biblical Data

I am a storehouse of God’s Omnipresence. Overwhelming! I can not get enough. I know I am retaining.

     Do you want to see what I read today: 1 Corinthians, 11 Corinthians the book the Epistle, Galatians, Ephesians, Philippians, Colossians, Thessalonians 1 and 11, Timothy one and two, Titus, Philemon, Hebrews.

    My eyes I am tired. I sang today at the water, all the God songs, I know, exhausted me, two headaches, see I am a sponge right now, and I am rushing, don’t you think?

    For me to write about God’s creations. I needed the magazines. I should have made a lot more book, but I was inspired to further my perception of life more scriptural.

    Oh, Betty, I feel stronger but! I finally washed the dishes. I have been here 31, days today, 39 since I left. I have not talked to anyone since last week.

    I did talk to the Police Warrant Officer, and she said, he has a warrant out for his arrest because he has not paid one ticket. I got worried but oh well. She said, “he had gone over there with the letter he had girly cue sign certified. The Warrant Officer showed it to the Judge, and she would not accept it.

    I said, “good I was under duress when I signed. Court for two of the assault charges are for March 7, 1996, at 6:00 p.m. Interesting. I wonder if he got a jury. Oh, I asked for the Judge only, So this means February 20, 1996, 9:00 a. m. Divorce, February 22, 1996, 9:00 a.m. Abusive Language charges on me, and March 7, 1996, two of the assault charges, I put on him.

    We know how many times I have been to Court already. I still can not take care of my children. I never wanted all this to happen, but the odds were’ against me. I had no other choice. I had to save my children, and they ended up with a liar, and his mistress. Oh whoa. It is hard to handle but better them than I. I needed a  rest, long enough.

    I know I will be following through with some definite plans God has for Us, Me. I am working in the Bible. I mark my lines as I read, I re-read, I answer most all the questions. Cool huh, so my Bible is getting a workout.

      I feel in General I have no limitations, all in God’s time. I am thankful I am living with Jesus Christ Our Savior, and that yeah, I was dead, and during the seventh account of asking, understanding, listening, feeling, and hearing, it was Okay! I am worthy to accept God’s gift.

    My World became real. My heart was opened. I could feel again. The resurrection was unknown but, I was ready. Thank you for not judging me, and believing in me, and loving me, and being the only best human friend I ever had. You are in my heart always. Faith Whoa! All We Have! The knowledge of  understanding.

    Incredible as far as the words, they are God’s word, all of it the whole incredible trip from beyond the dead, to life in Christ is so awesome. W. Y. L. February 8, 1996, Wendy Yvette Greenwell

    I want to change it but “As Is” has to be maintained. Yeah as is, is as is. I just found the Original, checked to see that it is here, so I am editing for a major update.

© 1996 – 2024 inpresenceofspirit.com by Wendy Yvette Greenwell

1996

WHEEL WITHIN THE WHEEL

We are for certain, ancestors since time began.

Sunset at the Arroyo
Day by day, week by week, month by month, year by year

    “The wheel within the wheel.” The circles become cycles, day by day, week by week, month by month, year by year, time never- ending but standing still.”

    I am no more ready to go out in the World than I was the day I was born. I understand it entirely from God’s stand, but for man’s view, I am supposed to be liberated, and have material possessions.

    God had a plan, it just took a while to be stable in me, and is not concrete yet. I internally have been a brick wall, an iceberg, and a wailing authority of the demise, and destruction, and the deterioration from all points.

    I do not feel like I am a fanatic, “everything pertains to “God’s Word.” My brain is functioning in the infancy of Christ. Knowledge is great. Wisdom is coming on strong. Courage supersedes unimaginable but acquired. Conquered for I have lost all man’s possessions.

    I am starting as if I never was excellent huh, at 36. I am free, God set me free from bondage, (from the lie) no guilt anymore, at this point, I know why everything has happened.

    Some think I am crazy. You are the only one that I could talk to, My Guardian Angel Betty, You are in my heart, and God gave us time together, which I am so thankful. “God’s will, Will be done.” March 14, 1996, Wendy Yvette Greenwell

© 1996-2024 inpresenceofspirit.com by Wendy Yvette Greenwell

2015

JUNE 18, 2015

One million, one hundred thirteen thousand four hundred twenty-seven, views.

Blue Lightning, it was night.
The Originals I recognize the second name I do not

The Writings of “In Presence of Spirit.” It is so nice to go through the writings, one last time. I figure I go overboard with the pictures, which makes the site slower. Hello, I do not care. They put so much emphasis on the second name of the original writing and gave it a small picture.

    I say, “No Thank You,” the first name of “The Original Writing” is more important to me. So I made each, and every one of, “The Original Writings,” stand out.

    The small picture is the way to the even larger image, with the writing of the second name, that I do not know, by heart Original I recognize, but the second name is so different. They made me do it. I did it when I was ready.

So I am not competing, not even with myself.

    In Jesus Name, Hi Lord, wow we have come a long way since, “In Presence of Spirit.” 27 years, Thank You so much, Lord, for hearing me. Thank You for all Our Times, “In Presence of Spirit.” Thank You for every writing, Published, and not Published. I could not wait to share it anymore.

Guide me to find the answers to what I am supposed to do now,

People are finding us, “In Presence of Spirit.com.” wendygreenwell.com both are routed to inpresenceofspirit.com.

We have come to where Your will, and my will is done.

    I Love You, Jesus. You are the Light of this World. You are Supreme in Your Majesty. You took that gut-wrenching pain right out of me and freed me of the plague of darkness, and brought me into the light of Your Ever Presence. Every time I called You, “In Presence of Spirit.”

The writings I have Published are “In Presence of Spirit,” with You Lord and Savior.

    For without You, I had that void, with You, I am one in Spirit. I Love to be, “In Presence of Spirit,” with You Lord.

    I am worried, Lord Jesus right here, right now, I give You all my burdens, and You know what is weighing heavy on my mind and in my life and children, and grandchildren.

Oh Lord forgive me for being burnt out, yet again.

    Help me to take care of the things at hand. Oh Lord, “bring gladness to hearts for sure there is an end to the pain.” “Through Your Mercy.” Lord, I give to You, my everlasting love, through Your Wings of Grace on The Multitudes, Through and Through.

    Help the ones that are searching for You. Find You, in Your Ever Presence. See us through to the rest of eternity. Lord Guide Us and Direct Us to Your Presence in Spirit, in the here and now of yesterday’s tomorrows. June 18, 2015, Wendy Yvette Greenwell

June 24, 2015 Awe 611,922 on my website + 508,289 bloggers = 1,120,211 Oh I messed up my site again. My customize is not working for some reason, anyway I am going to leave it like this for now. The picture is from the lightning storm we had on June 18, 2015, yes over 6,684 views since the 18th of June.

    April 22, 2016, 1,532,753 Views All my writings together. Ten months 413,542 views. Thank you for reading, In Presence of Spirit’s Extensions.

    November 6, 2018, 272,061 2018 so far, 1,442,217 inpresenceofspirit.com all together 2,058,706 page views.  4/25/21, 457 away from 2,000,000 views.

    May 1, 2022, 151,515 for the year. 31,907 for April. 2,340,410, for all time. It is still not fully visible. I have been hiding it, by not opening up to Social. Wendy

©2015-2024 inpresenceofspirit.com by Wendy Yvette Greenwell