Category Archives: 1987-1995 HEAVY HEART

WISE WOMAN

Let your “Wise Woman,” drive the bus.

Sunset in the backyard.
I want to walk in the positive light

Read daily. List three ways to do God’s will. Walk. Write. “Serenity Prayer.” 1000 times, Probably. Do something fun. Three things I am grateful for today. It is very difficult to ask for help. I went to sixty Al-Anon meetings, and they shared experiences, strength, and hope. I had to make all the decisions, and it would take time, I would figure it out; it was so cool.

I went through so many stages,

But I did not write a journal, at all. It all fell into place. That is a Higher Power more significant than me, opening the doors to go through unfolding my process to recovery.

    I could not function anymore when I came here. I had exhausted all my energies. I had no more spirit; I was desperate for answers.

I do believe in God, but I have a problem turning my will over to Him, and waiting for my solution.

    This is where all my sixty meetings, six counselors, sponsors, priest, friends, rehabilitation, to figure it all out in three months of growth. But I was burnt out!

    I want to walk in the affirmative, light not the negative, dark. I want to be open-minded and feel alive in mind, body, and soul. I am sick of being dead.

I do believe in God, and I feel God can help me, but I have not pursued that relationship.

    I thought I had it, and I lost it again. When my husband left, God opened so many doors for me, pain, school, job, friends that cared, counselors, to help me sort, figure out. I worked my brain off, that is why I came in so frazzled, scattered.

While all this was going on, God was opening doors,

every time I turned around, that last one was taking off, one day notice to come to Minnesota. I know it was God putting me on that plane. The Higher Power is working in my life. I just lost touch again, and I want it back. I am empty.

I need to do the work.

    Open, willing, able. Listen, talk, share, read, go to meetings. Your experiences, strengths, and hopes. “Live one day at a time,” Ask Higher Power for help, understanding, guidance, wisdom, knowledge. All positive things and “Thy will be done.”

    Willing, honest, opened. I know I need to ask for help and the doors will be opened. April 1995 W. Y. L., Wendy Yvette Greenwell August 23, 2015, Twenty Years

    I feel I must put these first ones, they belong here on My Website. It is not a blog anymore; it is My Website, inpresenceofspirit.com. I am still doing this all by myself. This one and the next one are hard for me to Publish. But I think it will show you, how traumatic my experience was.

    Sometimes I cannot believe that I have Published all 400 plus writings, but I have, and it is only for the Holy Spirit’s Purpose, that I share “In Presence of Spirit.com,” with anyone who wants to read it.

231,033 for the year, 426,939 December 13, 2013 to December 31, 2014 = 657,972 views. Blogger had 508,289 views, that makes it, viewed altogether 1,166,261 times. But it has not been read that many times. Whatever.

    inpresenceofspirit.com has 949,316 views, since December 13, 2013. wendygreenwell.com has 75,148 views since January 18, 2016 and of course the blogger that is drafted 508, 289 = 1,532,753 views. Thank You, Jesus Christ, for Yours and my, “In Presence of Spirit” and all it’s extensions. Thank you for viewing my writings. Wendy As of April 30, 2022, inpresenceofspirit.com has 2,338,848 page views.

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CREATIVITY

Creativity, I have always wondered what I could do.

Sunset in the back yard
I have not soul searched

But I am idle, Not really, I am taking care of my three children. 1982, 1984, 1986. 6, 4, 2. I start things then let them go. I have not done a third of the things that Our Lord, has put me on this earth to do.

    I have not been soul searching. I am not well-read; I am not organized, I feel I am in confusion a good deal of the time. So how could I write such a beautiful piece of inspiration like? “In Presence of Spirit.”

    I have wasted so much time, Why no strength, I can not see the end of the rainbow, it is right in front of me, but I go right past it. My faith needs to grow stronger. Faith in every single aspect of my life. When I was young, I used to think I wanted to help people. I can not even help myself. I will not fail You, Lord. Wendy L. August 24, 1988, Wendy Yvette Greenwell

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