I can not come out of my funk by myself. I need a constructive overall outcome, and I am in poor strength. I am weak I choose to be strong, I want everything “In Presence of Spirit,” has stated, and documented, and Published.
Important time!
I need to work, on loving with one heart to heal through Jesus Christ. I fell down literally, I am going to feel it later. Wrist, elbow, shoulder, sciatica on the left side, Wonderful!
I have to, I need to, I should, no more excuses.
Get out of your rut. Your lack of energy, your lack of enthusiasm, your lack of love, understanding, patience, understanding, courage, endurance, guidance, weak, need the ignition switch to ignite, and guide me out of lack of abundance.
I am worthy.
I am abundantly blessed with all my extensions of my times, “In Presence of Spirit, with The Lord.” They are etched in my mind, heart, and soul. I wish to be with them in heart, mind, and soul, and raise my inner awareness, to peak out, and help me find the people that need to know now.
Help me spread the news that, The Lord God Almighty is present, “In Presence of Our Spirit.” “Everyone’s!”
For the Love of God is here, and I want to feel again. I want to be ignited with the passion of the ever presence. I want to be alive in Spirit. In the here, and now of yesterday’s, tomorrows.” May 21, 2017, Wendy Yvette Greenwell
for forgiveness for everything I have done that is not right with you.
Access better resources for my today’s which will benefit tomorrow.
Forgive me for cussing. Forgive me for my misery. Forgive me for not forgiving the ones that hurt me the most. Help me forgive them. Forgive me for being overweight, uneducated, sad, depressed. I am not lonely, but I do need some spark to ignite the light of love in my heart again.
Help me, Lord.
Give me the strength to carry on. Help me Lord with all I need to do. I need You, Lord. I Love You, Lord. I am screaming inside I need your help! I need You, Lord. Jesus, I Love You. Show me Your way again. Hold fast my love for You and bring me out of darkness into the light of Your Ever Presence. I am calling out! Can you hear me?
I aspire to complete my mission of “In Presence of Spirit.”
Expedite into a paycheck and a way to get all my grand-kids some Christmas Presents. Sale the books so I can help Richard pay the taxes and get Richard his lift chair, and the other essential things he needs. Handicap accessible.
I have to start with the old, in with the new day, the new outlook on everything,
I need to do, to access better resources for my today’s which will benefit tomorrow. I have written some pretty awesome conversations with the Lord. I have shared it since September 2011. Six years, to my first love first, Blogger, The Website on December 13, 2013.
Do it, Wendy!
Do it! You can do it. Yes, you can! You can do it and get over it. Work your mind, walk, plant your garden. Do it!
Finally,
I admitted that the husband of my youth was not nor ever had been my one true physical love. For me, he does not exist. My God and Lord saved me from any more damnation. Even though I have had to deal with all my children’s choices. I am tired and they are all in their thirties. I am 57 the years have not been easy. Love me or not. May 21, 2017, Wendy Yvette Greenwell “I can not believe myself sometimes.”
Can you imagine it? I started the first part in March 1996. Then I decided I wanted to work on “Reflections of In Presence of Spirit.”
I cannot work on it like I used to. I am not ready to activate Social Media. I tried, but I have deactivated and deleted my Pinterest. I can go to Go-daddy and sign in with my Facebook account, but now I am okay behind the scenes. Besides they send me messages to buy my server, my resources are not unlimited.
The possibilities are endless
But I choose to follow through without the get it, of it all. We will see, what tomorrow is going to bring. You need some tender love and care. You cannot do the same ole anymore. You need to open up and let the light of love come in and help the cause from the effect. Yes, I said it. I am down, and I have to pick myself up and do the work to get me where I need to be in action, not distraction.
I got to climb out of this hole. Need to be alive in Spirit. I want to feel the excitement and dynamics of what I have honestly done, Sharing my “In Presence of Spirit,” and hundreds of the extensions.
Shallow Breathing! Nothing in my brain!
Thoughts, episodes in floating thoughts that have not entirely healed. Coming out of a flat-lined state, not able to go forward with all that has been left for me to share. I do not know in the physical who to ask for help! That means I have been lost in my past sins, and my children’s choices, no forgiveness angry with myself.
Thoughts February 24, 1996 “Thoughts flowing with nowhere to hide, for all is gone, and you are thee who lights. The light of thine heart, soul, breath, and mind is exalted from the world ’roundabout.
For it, thy will be done. For the strength I have is from thee. The knowledge I have received through my tribulation is wisdom, and it has given me the courage and faith that belongs to Our Father in heaven.
For it is our Father in heaven who walked with and protected me through the threshold of death and showed me life. I have taken my cross and borne it for many. I was buried and awakened in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost. I have been delivered of my trespasses and iniquity. I have no liens on one thing, not even my children.”
This was written four days after my Divorce.
I am finding my way back into the Presence of Jesus Christ Holy Spirit. I have been stagnant, not knowing which way to go. Upside, downside, inside, outside, roundabout. I long to have the passion of these my conversations with The Lord. Shared but not found. It is okay their time will come.
I am waiting, for the right time.
I do not feel right. I need reconstruction. Do not need to evaluate, out with the old in with the new. Each writing is new to anyone who reads them. I love working with them or excuse me used to work on them. It is because I have shared it.
I have not activated any resources to elevate resources and income. It is my right, and I do not know how to ask for abundance. As for users/subscribers, most try and get in my admin. Their usernames and mail .com’s do not look right to me. To me, you want to read them they are here. I am out here by myself. No need to activate Social Media because I can not do any more than I have done and the little that I am doing is not enough. My eyes needed a rest.
These writings I wrote were’ my therapy, my times, “In Presence of Spirit,”
Were’ just what I needed, to get through, my times of having conversations with the Lord. In Spirit, not without. It was not an easy ride. It has almost been a year in July that I finally admitted, to not marrying my one true love. To his face. He asked, and I answered. After that, we have talked a few times. I mean, please. I finally texted him and told him he has no reason to come here again. I missed him some. But for all the reasons that be, when the Judge said we are severed, we were’. A lie cannot last forever. It was his lie.
It is thirty-six years on the 30th of May the first, and last time I will ever get married. I did not re-hash. The way I see it the whole marriage was a lie from day one. Played the part from hell into His Heaven, I had a price to pay, and I paid dearly. May 21, 2017, Wendy Yvette Greenwell
I could not have made it through all these years without my times, “In Presence of Spirit,” with The Holy Spirit of The Lord.
A person wrote that my inpresenceofspirit.com is from my ego. Her ego is getting convicted. That is why she cannot fathom the depths of my life’s misery from without to within, “In Presence of Spirit.” Ego has nothing to do with it, period end of the story.
I have thrown out there hundreds of writings, from both my sites. I do not call the forgiveness of sins and who is responsible for me to write in the way I did, I have, and I am. It is in the I of me that is “In Presence of Spirit,” with The Holy Spirit of The Lord. I tell all of you, I could not have made it through all these years without my times, “In Presence of Spirit,” with The Holy Spirit of The Lord. Repeat on that one.
My private conversations with The Lord has been out there since September 2011. I threw it out there all messed up, and I had to put it all together again. May 6, 2017
I have been shouting out to the World my writings since September 2011.
Too bad, I deleted everything on Facebook. I went for it because I had to tell my first love before I could figure out how I was going to say it to The World about, “In Presence of Spirit,” and the extensions.
I am content with not having any substantial personal comments about my writings in General. I ran across one on the web where my writings are some of them anyway a woman wrote, “that all of it comes from my ego.” I do not see that. There was nothing left of me when I sunk into my inner chamber and accepted in complete totality, The Savior’s gift to me. Forgiveness of sins and the inheritance of His Gift to me, a sinner in bondage, straightway from my hell into His Heaven.
The Spirit of The Lord lifted me out of darkness into the light of His Ever-presence.
In One with God The Father, God The Son, God The Holy Spirit. The instant I accepted him into my innermost being, He sparked the light lets of His Divine Promise to me broken from bondage to prepare a way for me to write all our times, “In Presence of Spirit.”
That they are, I was not having conversations with myself. I am having conversations with The Lord. Since the beginning. I knew one day I would share them with the World. It is for the Spirit of The Lord’s purpose that I continue to share my writings.
I am not in good shape. I have several issues, what is the use? Close it up. Who cares. So I have begun my manuscript. I have kept myself from mourning my 2007 HP Pavilion and all its contents. I still have the pictures on the sites.
For years, my ex-husband would pop up.
He came to see the growing family, visit, stay the night. Not with me on the couch. Then one night in July 2016 he shows up for an all-niter. He saw the six people who were living here then; he visited with Richard then he found me outside in the backyard, with my plants and trees.
The first thing that comes out of his mouth was, “Have you ever been in love.” “My reaction, I laughed and said yes with my illusion.” Boy, that opened up a nine-hour conversation. Which caused me a bad break out of Rosacea and Glaucoma attack and I missed my Eye Specialist appointment that day.
In the end, he wanted a hug, well Lexie the German Shepard stood up and tried to bite him, on the face, if he had not reacted as he did, hand up protecting his face and hand in the dog’s mouth. He would have been bitten. He says oh I have one more beer you want to talk some more I said no and went in, agony.
I felt relieved though.
On the other hand, the truth set him free from me. Scratch his truth about our marriage. He claimed he loved me and would take care of me. It all became the lie that lost itself in the day to day not marrying your one true love.
I felt I did not deserve him because I was tainted and I would never be worthy. But this guy smoothed talked his way to marrying me fast. We made a pact he would take care of me, and I would not cheat on him. I did not want to stay with my parents. I was in no condition to work.
Since July 2016 I have only seen him five times.
We do not talk on the phone anymore. He is a truck driver like our Son. He asked me one time, “do you worry about me?” I said no that’s not my job. My Son had to pick an 18 Wheeler job cross country, across the United States back down, then up again every 36 hours. I hate it. I have to put you in the Lord’s hands Son. Drive Careful. He loves it.
My oldest daughter is expecting her sixth child. That makes the total seventeen grandchildren one in heaven. We never got to be Grandparents together. That is sad in a way. I miss him. There is just nothing left for us, to say to each other.
It really is a good thing. He made his choice the day he left our family, never to return to once was. Thank You, Lord. I am happy to be free, not chained and gagged.
I have written pages that I can Publish. Will I? Can I? Could I? Should I? We will see. Thank You, Lord, for all our times, “In Presence of Spirit.com” Short ones, long ones, all of them the whole bunch of our writings in, “You are, and I am In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with the Lord.” May 8, 2017, Wendy Yvette Greenwell
For all the blessings you have bestowed on my children, and I. Please protect my children, and grandchildren. The significant others, and all their families. My families on both Parents side, cousins, aunt, uncles, that I will never meet, or see again.
Bless Richard, and help me help him.
Oh Lord, I need you. I need your presence again. I need Your Holy Spirit to activate a ritual cleansing for me to finish off what we started Jesus Christ in, “In Presence of Spirit.”
Help me love again.
Open my heart to understanding again. Bring words alive through Your precious love. I need understanding, courage, patience, wisdom, endurance, faith, knowledge, love, like, fortitude, acceptance, serenity.
Show me the way out of the associated misconceptions.
Hold my hand, show me your way, my way does not work. Heal the People of the Congregation of Our Lord, and Savior Jesus Christ. In God the Father, God the Son, God the Holy Spirit, in One with the Holy Trinity. Guide, and direct me back to your power calling from you.
Accentuate the positive
That has come out in all the writings; you blessed me with. Tell me what I need to do. Show me Your way again. Etch it in my DNA, open, spark, ignite the light of You in my heart.
Hold me, Lord, bring me back to where you want me to be. I miss Your Presence in Spirit. I miss the sparks of light lets dancing in my heart mind, and soul. I miss being one with you, “In Presence of Spirit.”
Jesus Christ, I Love You!
Ignite the light of You in me again. I so long want to fulfill your purpose for my existence. Give me the strength to carry on. Help me forgive. Oh Lord help me, forgive me, give me the courage to go past my fears, and into the solution of Your Presence in Spirit. Open my eyes, widen my perception. Let me find happiness, health, wealth. Help me be bold again in Your name Jesus Christ with Love, Wendy May 16, 2017
