I have lost the spirit, and I wish to have You back.
I have lost the spirit, and I wish to have You back. I can not live another day without Your Presence. I Miss You; I Love You, I Need You, I am lost without you. What is my reason for being?
I have lost my children.
Lord, I can not be a part of their life. Oh, Jesus brings Your comfort down and rest with me for eternity. I know I took the wide and wrong path and I failed I lost Your Voice, Your guiding Presence.
The writings I wrote in Spirit are omnipresent, but I lost the gift of writing because of my stupidity. Lord guide and direct our children him and her.
To Your children, since the conception of Humanity through You Jesus Christ life is lived through the death of the old and anew life in and through You. I miss my children so much. I pray to be part of their lives.
Thank you for the job. I should not complain it is just so long but that is alright. I want to put “In Presence of Spirit” together. I have three days off after tomorrow’s 10-hour shift, I will work on the writings when I am off.
Oh Lord, where are you? Are You mad at me? I can not feel You? I can not hear You, I can not do anything without You. Help from henceforth, and forever.
You beloved Wendy, In Jesus Christ, I fall at Your feet with a heavenly kiss My Lord, My Love, My only reason for being alive still. In God, I Trust with all the Angels Congregated together to form The Union of Saints, Pure Knowledge. I love you. August 27, 1997, Wendy Yvette Greenwell
In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.
So what am I supposed to do
“As it was, in the beginning, is now and ever shall be the world without end.”
So what am I suppose to do? The Book says to be positive and affirm positive attributes and dedicate yourself to your conviction, and I have. Time, and time again. Through out the length of my writing days, and then some. I acknowledge that you have given me the greatest gift being, in presence of spirit with you in all my writings. January 14, 2010
Laser Tomorrow
Mr. Errol Grannum will be performing drilling a hole in my left eye and the will re-open the hole in my right eye. The ones that made this happen are Knights Templar out of Illinois. Thank you. They are paying for my surgery on my left eye, and since my Dad and His Wife paid in cash the first surgery and preliminary Doctor’s appointment, he is going to open the hole in my right eye.
It is a stressful time for me on the 27th I go before the Social Security Disability Judge, my third appeal. I have not had very many Doctor appointments because I do not qualify for any help because once again I am a pauper because I quit June 2007 because I was suffering from my eyes and yes forever thought they were’ eye migraines, turning out to be Narrow-Angle Glaucoma, with Cataracts that are not bad enough to take out.
I am not even eligible to get the help of any kind from the commissions for the Blind. Now if I were going to go back to work, they would help me. I figure I will go to them if I get denied again.
My brother is coming down from California
for my Twin and My 50th Birthday. Weird how swift time flies.
You see back in early 1996 I wrote a piece,
I asked the Lord for a friend, not a husband, Ha. There is a difference. He gave Richard and me our friendship. We have lived in this comfortable House for eight years. When I worked, I paid for my part. But since I have not worked in two years and seven months, he has taken care of all of it. It is only Him, my Son and me now. The girls have since seven months moved out.
Although I care for Richard with his needs, he has provided. Home for me. We remain friends, and of course, we are companions, we even share a room, but it does not mean we are common law married. “He is 75 now. Cerebral Palsy has taken its toll on him. I am thankful that God gave me the ability to care for him day in day out, although we like the nights I hate the Sun, the heat of South Texas.” Jesus Christ thank you for Richard, my best friend. Only a friend. I am worried, and no one will still help.
Oh Lord in your name I do pray. I am so confused about what I am supposed to do. I need your help in all areas of my life, my love, my book, the complete book. The Surgery on my eyes tomorrow, The court in front of the Judge for Disability with my Lawyer at least I will not be alone.
I have been reading 2005 writings
“Reflections of In Presence of Spirit.” To the husband of my youth, from the wife of his youth. It is beautiful that is when I had my first glaucoma attack. I am already on page 59. He still has not read it But my reading and editing further a feeling the vibration of such power prayers to the husband of my youth that is over one hundred pages and 29,000 plus a word count. Second to the highest words from all the years of writing.
It is for anyone, not just him. Truly it is verified. Hopefully, prayerfully you can find forgiveness in your heart, mind, and soul, it takes a ton of layers of your past and gives you the room to breathe through the cleansing of your hearts pain.
I know it works because that gut pain has not come back.
Even in extreme difficulties, to describe mine to the minute status. How else could I state that? I have choice minutes of anxiety depression, fear, I do not have the means and resources I need. Still, no transportation. January 21, 2010
I know I have been working on the writings, no one else was going to do it.
I told my Lawyer it is my hobby, Ha, it is a lot more than that, but because, “In Presence of Spirit,” only sold one book. There is no money involved it has nothing to do with my Court. I worked for The Lord and He will provide in His time. This, all this, is not, for greed it is to help, in the regeneration of our souls. Seriously I followed through with what I was given in Spirit to do. Even in my Mortality with my own problems and the way I am. The Holy Spirit of Jesus Christ blessed me with His Presence of Spirit.
Thank you, Jesus Christ, there is no way I would have made it through without you and our “You are and I am In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with the Lord.” “Knowledge had but impatiently been misplaced”
I knew that was the beginning of my book. I was going to be writing while I worked on it on the side. I was still writing every word that would one day be my complete, to be certified Book, of the offspring of my first, in writing communication, “In Presence of Spirit.”
Jesus Christ heard my prayers and answered it at the beginning of my soul’s voyage in search of peace in my soul. Now we know it is not all about me. It is for anyone who is searching and not finding. It is for you and for me. I still do not speak about all this, I have no questions to answer. My eyes feel better today. January 28, 2010, Wendy Yvette Greenwell
I could not have made it through all these years without my times, “In Presence of Spirit,” with The Holy Spirit of The Lord.
A person wrote that my inpresenceofspirit.com is from my ego. Her ego is getting convicted. That is why she cannot fathom the depths of my life’s misery from without to within, “In Presence of Spirit.” Ego has nothing to do with it, period end of the story.
I have thrown out there hundreds of writings, from both my sites. I do not call the forgiveness of sins and who is responsible for me to write in the way I did, I have, and I am. It is in the I of me that is “In Presence of Spirit,” with The Holy Spirit of The Lord. I tell all of you, I could not have made it through all these years without my times, “In Presence of Spirit,” with The Holy Spirit of The Lord. Repeat on that one.
My private conversations with The Lord has been out there since September 2011. I threw it out there all messed up, and I had to put it all together again. May 6, 2017
I have been shouting out to the World my writings since September 2011.
Too bad, I deleted everything on Facebook. I went for it because I had to tell my first love before I could figure out how I was going to say it to The World about, “In Presence of Spirit,” and the extensions.
I am content with not having any substantial personal comments about my writings in General. I ran across one on the web where my writings are some of them anyway a woman wrote, “that all of it comes from my ego.” I do not see that. There was nothing left of me when I sunk into my inner chamber and accepted in complete totality, The Savior’s gift to me. Forgiveness of sins and the inheritance of His Gift to me, a sinner in bondage, straightway from my hell into His Heaven.
The Spirit of The Lord lifted me out of darkness into the light of His Ever-presence.
In One with God The Father, God The Son, God The Holy Spirit. The instant I accepted him into my innermost being, He sparked the light lets of His Divine Promise to me broken from bondage to prepare a way for me to write all our times, “In Presence of Spirit.”
That they are, I was not having conversations with myself. I am having conversations with The Lord. Since the beginning. I knew one day I would share them with the World. It is for the Spirit of The Lord’s purpose that I continue to share my writings.
I am not in good shape. I have several issues, what is the use? Close it up. Who cares. So I have begun my manuscript. I have kept myself from mourning my 2007 HP Pavilion and all its contents. I still have the pictures on the sites.
For years, my ex-husband would pop up.
He came to see the growing family, visit, stay the night. Not with me on the couch. Then one night in July 2016 he shows up for an all-niter. He saw the six people who were living here then; he visited with Richard then he found me outside in the backyard, with my plants and trees.
The first thing that comes out of his mouth was, “Have you ever been in love.” “My reaction, I laughed and said yes with my illusion.” Boy, that opened up a nine-hour conversation. Which caused me a bad break out of Rosacea and Glaucoma attack and I missed my Eye Specialist appointment that day.
In the end, he wanted a hug, well Lexie the German Shepard stood up and tried to bite him, on the face, if he had not reacted as he did, hand up protecting his face and hand in the dog’s mouth. He would have been bitten. He says oh I have one more beer you want to talk some more I said no and went in, agony.
I felt relieved though.
On the other hand, the truth set him free from me. Scratch his truth about our marriage. He claimed he loved me and would take care of me. It all became the lie that lost itself in the day to day not marrying your one true love.
I felt I did not deserve him because I was tainted and I would never be worthy. But this guy smoothed talked his way to marrying me fast. We made a pact he would take care of me, and I would not cheat on him. I did not want to stay with my parents. I was in no condition to work.
Since July 2016 I have only seen him five times.
We do not talk on the phone anymore. He is a truck driver like our Son. He asked me one time, “do you worry about me?” I said no that’s not my job. My Son had to pick an 18 Wheeler job cross country, across the United States back down, then up again every 36 hours. I hate it. I have to put you in the Lord’s hands Son. Drive Careful. He loves it.
My oldest daughter is expecting her sixth child. That makes the total seventeen grandchildren one in heaven. We never got to be Grandparents together. That is sad in a way. I miss him. There is just nothing left for us, to say to each other.
It really is a good thing. He made his choice the day he left our family, never to return to once was. Thank You, Lord. I am happy to be free, not chained and gagged.
I have written pages that I can Publish. Will I? Can I? Could I? Should I? We will see. Thank You, Lord, for all our times, “In Presence of Spirit.com” Short ones, long ones, all of them the whole bunch of our writings in, “You are, and I am In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with the Lord.” May 8, 2017, Wendy Yvette Greenwell
Ask for everything. Open your mouth and ask the Lord for what you want. I want to do everything I need to do to share my writings with a lot more People. Hundreds of thousands, of People, will read Our Writings. They are all, “In Presence of Spirit.”
I need and want the house to be handicap accessible,
I need and want all the essential things to help Richard be more comfortable, I need and want a working car, a good one, I want to write. I want to be happy, healthy, active, loving, harmonious, prosperous and happy.
I want to be organized.
I want to write with You Lord. I want to share our writings with The World. I want to take my family on vacation. I want to see my Dad at the Arroyo.
I want to see my first love again.
I wish all the best for Him and His Family. I want him to make it big, his dream come true. “I want to love as I have never been hurt.” I want a new outlook on life.
I am depressed at this time, lack of energy, enthusiasm, no spark.
Sure I love the writings. I am just all by myself in this. I want prayers for comments. Open up the World too, “In Presence of Spirit.” I Love You, God. I Love You “Father of All Mankind.” I Love You with all of my heart.
I want more views; I want all the positive to come true in all the writings, I want to let my ex-husband go completely, I want to not ask for a person in my life because he is not out there. I do not want superficial love. I do not need anything outside of You Lord and me.
I want a cure for Glaucoma and Cataracts, “did the Cataracts, new lenses.”
Save The World, Millions even Billions of People. I want to help heal the Multitudes in the blood of Jesus Christ. I want to be alive in Spirit. I want to be happy. I want to change Lord through “In Presence of Spirit,” that You shared with me.
I Love You, Jesus Christ. Help me accomplish everything that has been written, and let’s share these precious moments, I have with You, and Your Holy Spirit, “In Presence of Spirit.com” October 30, 2013, Wendy Yvette Greenwell February 28, 2018, I took this picture yesterday a. m. with a different phone. Interesting size.
I want to know why, oh why, I always felt like I had to share my writings? It is so weird to me, why couldn’t I just keep them to myself, it is a mystery to me. I always felt the I have to, and now all these years later, I do not know why. So where do I go from here? I am going to finish up, Print my writings, figure out what I am going to do with this massive site. December 26, 2019
Seventeen years since I wrote, “In Presence of Spirit,” the original, wow 2005, now it is eighteen years, double wow. Eighteen years since Jesus gave me the beginning of my heart’s quest.
To stay with me and keep me and protect me, so the fulfillment of the nature of, “In Presence of Spirit,” is going to hit the hearts of the multitudes. Has to happen, it was written in the Spirit of Our Father.
Spirit of Spirit, Cooperation, United again,
To share the rest of the book, writings. How? The way and the means will be plentiful. Why not? It is, was and will always be; meant to be. I followed my call, and I completed the first part.
The second is in the transfer. To open up: The heart of Your People and give them a piece of Heaven in One Heart, One Mind, To You With Love. From Jesus and Wendy in writing To You.
To every one of You, in The Whole World,
It is my Honor to Present the rest of the prayers and writings, quotes from me, Na, from the Holy Spirit of Jesus Christ, through me.
No closed doors, everything is opened and receptive.
The decision has been made and done, start the process of ritual purification. “I think I am talking about a picture I wanted to put on the book.” I am sending it to you; it is heaven to me, it is deep and breathtaking, it reminds me of my first breath of life through Christ Jesus in the spirit of, “In Presence of Spirit.”
I am happy for your healing through Jesus Christ,
Cleansing waters, of shedding the scars of the past existence, before you met Christ. The spark is ignited, and you are in the process of cleansing, to freedom from sin, guilt, anything on the contrary of good and evil. All is One, in Christ Jesus, Love.
It is all for His People to come inside the inner chamber of your innermost being. There you will knock, and the door will be opened. I let, “In Presence of Spirit,” go where it wills when that time comes. I hope my experience helps everyone else. Because that is what God gave me, Peace In Hope, and Faith of His, Ever Presence.
He is ours for the asking:
A deep bottomless pit in which you have to reach down deep and then from the depths, there you will see the truth of existence and know all I want, is to be, “In Presence of Spirit.” Love and kisses from heavens door, open up you will be home soon. 5/20/13 2:41:16 AM input August 29, 2005-August 29, 2013
God Bless The Whole Entire World. It means everything. I know every time my writings are read: “You are, and I am, In Presence of Spirit, in Conversations with The Lord.” I know this is what the Holy Spirit wanted me to do. Amen. Wendy Yvette Greenwell
30 Years now. Wendy’s 30th Anniversary Year with My very own, “In Presence of Spirit,” that turned into, “You are, and I am In Presence of Spirit in Conversations with the Lord.” all extensions of the one writing. That is how I look at it. Even though I have “Reflections,” they still belong with the rest of the extensions. Okay, I read it. I am on #417.
