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1987-1995 HEAVY HEART

WISE WOMAN

August 24, 2015 Wendy Yvette Greenwell

Let your “Wise Woman,” drive the bus.

Sunset in the backyard. — I want to walk in the positive light

Read daily. List three ways to do God’s will. Walk. Write. “Serenity Prayer.” 1000 times, Probably. Do something fun. Three things I am grateful for today. It is very difficult to ask for help. I went to sixty Al-Anon meetings, and they shared experiences, strength, and hope. I had to make all the decisions, and it would take time, I would figure it out; it was so cool.

I went through so many stages,

But I did not write a journal, at all. It all fell into place. That is a Higher Power more significant than me, opening the doors to go through unfolding my process to recovery.

I could not function anymore when I came here. I had exhausted all my energies. I had no more spirit; I was desperate for answers.

I do believe in God, but I have a problem turning my will over to Him, and waiting for my solution.

This is where all my sixty meetings, six counselors, sponsors, priest, friends, rehabilitation, to figure it all out in three months of growth. But I was burnt out!

I want to walk in the affirmative, light not the negative, dark. I want to be open-minded and feel alive in mind, body, and soul. I am sick of being dead.

I do believe in God, and I feel God can help me, but I have not pursued that relationship.

I thought I had it, and I lost it again. When my husband left, God opened so many doors for me, pain, school, job, friends that cared, counselors, to help me sort, figure out. I worked my brain off, that is why I came in so frazzled, scattered.

While all this was going on, God was opening doors,

every time I turned around, that last one was taking off, one day notice to come to Minnesota. I know it was God putting me on that plane. The Higher Power is working in my life. I just lost touch again, and I want it back. I am empty.

I need to do the work.

Open, willing, able. Listen, talk, share, read, go to meetings. Your experiences, strengths, and hopes. “Live one day at a time,” Ask Higher Power for help, understanding, guidance, wisdom, knowledge. All positive things and “Thy will be done.”

Willing, honest, opened. I know I need to ask for help and the doors will be opened. April 1995 W. Y. L., Wendy Yvette Greenwell August 23, 2015, Twenty Years

I feel I must put these first ones, they belong here on My Website. It is not a blog anymore; it is My Website, inpresenceofspirit.com. I am still doing this all by myself. This one and the next one are hard for me to Publish. But I think it will show you, how traumatic my experience was.

Sometimes I cannot believe that I have Published all 400 plus writings, but I have, and it is only for the Holy Spirit’s Purpose, that I share “In Presence of Spirit.com,” with anyone who wants to read it.

231,033 for the year, 426,939 December 13, 2013 to December 31, 2014 = 657,972 views. Blogger had 508,289 views, that makes it, viewed altogether 1,166,261 times. But it has not been read that many times. Whatever.

inpresenceofspirit.com has 949,316 views, since December 13, 2013. wendygreenwell.com has 75,148 views since January 18, 2016 and of course the blogger that is drafted 508, 289 = 1,532,753 views. Thank You, Jesus Christ, for Yours and my, “In Presence of Spirit” and all it’s extensions. Thank you for viewing my writings. Wendy As of April 30, 2022, inpresenceofspirit.com has 2,338,848 page views.

2015

400 PUBLISHED

August 16, 2015 Wendy Yvette Greenwell

400 Published:

To me, Wow! I did my part for four hundred writings. Now Lord what am I suppose to do? I have an idea. I have already started it, “Walking Into The Light,” “Revelation,” and finally, “Truth Is An Opening – To The Heavens.” I changed the name from “Someone said at the end.”

Well, it has been an event filled trip for me, Publishing the extensions of, My very own, “In Presence of Spirit.com.” Physically all by myself. So I am still leaving a lot out.

I am going to continue to write the events as they happened.

Meaning my writings, for the most part, are going to be in order. From the beginning to the end.

I saw a different Glaucoma Specialist a couple of days ago.

As I have stated, STRESS. 38 days with an 11-month-old now, and an almost-three-year-old, plus nine people in the house. July 3, 2015, to August 10, 2015. Among everything else, but the most important is:

My twin is going in for back surgery, Major Back Surgery, next Tuesday. I can not be there. Our brother is flying in on Monday; he is going to stay with her, and her husband for 16 days. The Doctor told her husband that he had done thousands of these surgeries. I am worried.

Oh Lord in the name of The Father, The Son, The Holy Spirit, guide the Surgeon’s hands to precise fusion,

“cause that is what they are going to do. Her spine has been slipping for years. She has seven disk bulge, and her neck is worse than her back, they tell her.

She has suffered 13 years in Chronic Pain with a little help, but not much, prescriptions. It goes like this, she has her pain, I have my pain, and I can see Richard’s illness, every time I look at him. But he does not complain. He has been in pain for 72 years. Cerebral Palsy, if this is the first one you are reading.

Oh Lord in your name Jesus Christ, let this be the answer, to her prayers.

Calm her spirit; she is worried, Lord. The means will be shown, for Me, to take care of her. Of course with Richard and the two dogs. She took care of me with my Hysterectomy. I am thankful that our brother is going to be with her and her husband.

To get back to the results of my eyes. My regular Glaucoma Specialist was not there. I saw a new one. My right pupil is atrophied, it was dilated while I had a Glaucoma Attack with 57 pressure, years ago.

The only good sign, my eyes are Okay, is the Optic Nerve is holding its own, but I might have to change medicine if my pressure does not calm down.

Oh, my Son freaked out the day before I went to the eye Dr.

I am going to share my right eye with you, here because I can. ( I guess I took the eye off.) My pupil is always like this; It was blind for six days, poor eye, the black thing at 11 o’clock is the laser treatment. It is a hole in my eye, and you can almost see the cataract.

My Son freaked out, so he took this picture. My pressure was high probably higher than 17. I put my medicine in, and when it burns like fire, I feel like the medication did its job. It is two chemicals, I have to put in my eyes every 12 hours. I am thankful for them. I confused my writing, so I am going to go ahead and close for now. Thank you for visiting inpresenceofspirit.com Wendy Yvette Greenwell August 15, 2015

1996

TRUTH IS AN OPENING

August 15, 2015 Wendy Yvette Greenwell

“I am there if you need me, but I will not come to you.”

Love the blue haze around the moon — We are all searching for the answers

I will give if you ask, but I will not reach out, even knowing dramatic conditions. (I did not ask for help.) It is Okay, We survived. I sat many nights on my roof, many a night, writing future events. Souring, finding, searching for the answers, not just for myself but for mankind.

My insights are man’s secrets. The wherefore art thou on Women is long suffered. Women know that even if she is blinded by darkness. That she is Caregiver to many.

Dear Sweet afflicted Children of God. It is not God’s fault. This deterioration of Family is Man’s fault. He has exhausted, controlled, raped us of all our dignity, and left us for dead.

We have been beaten down, put down, slammed down for too long. We are not supposed to be under thumb. We are the Caregivers.

We need to join together. Truth is an opening to The Heavens. We are all searching for the answers. February 8, 1996, Wendy Yvette Greenwell

1996

ACCUMULATED

July 29, 2015 Wendy Yvette Greenwell

I have accumulated massive amounts of Biblical data.

Nice dark rain cloud, with the sun — I have accumulated massive amounts of Biblical Data

I am a storehouse of God’s Omnipresence. Overwhelming! I can not get enough. I know I am retaining.

Do you want to see what I read today: 1 Corinthians, 11 Corinthians the book the Epistle, Galatians, Ephesians, Philippians, Colossians, Thessalonians 1 and 11, Timothy one and two, Titus, Philemon, Hebrews.

My eyes I am tired. I sang today at the water, all the God songs, I know, exhausted me, two headaches, see I am a sponge right now, and I am rushing, don’t you think?

For me to write about God’s creations. I needed the magazines. I should have made a lot more book, but I was inspired to further my perception of life more scriptural.

Oh, Betty, I feel stronger but! I finally washed the dishes. I have been here 31, days today, 39 since I left. I have not talked to anyone since last week.

I did talk to the Police Warrant Officer, and she said, he has a warrant out for his arrest because he has not paid one ticket. I got worried but oh well. She said, “he had gone over there with the letter he had girly cue sign certified. The Warrant Officer showed it to the Judge, and she would not accept it.

I said, “good I was under duress when I signed. Court for two of the assault charges are for March 7, 1996, at 6:00 p.m. Interesting. I wonder if he got a jury. Oh, I asked for the Judge only, So this means February 20, 1996, 9:00 a. m. Divorce, February 22, 1996, 9:00 a.m. Abusive Language charges on me, and March 7, 1996, two of the assault charges, I put on him.

We know how many times I have been to Court already. I still can not take care of my children. I never wanted all this to happen, but the odds were’ against me. I had no other choice. I had to save my children, and they ended up with a liar, and his mistress. Oh whoa. It is hard to handle but better them than I. I needed a rest, long enough.

I know I will be following through with some definite plans God has for Us, Me. I am working in the Bible. I mark my lines as I read, I re-read, I answer most all the questions. Cool huh, so my Bible is getting a workout.

I feel in General I have no limitations, all in God’s time. I am thankful I am living with Jesus Christ Our Savior, and that yeah, I was dead, and during the seventh account of asking, understanding, listening, feeling, and hearing, it was Okay! I am worthy to accept God’s gift.

My World became real. My heart was opened. I could feel again. The resurrection was unknown but, I was ready. Thank you for not judging me, and believing in me, and loving me, and being the only best human friend I ever had. You are in my heart always. Faith Whoa! All We Have! The knowledge of understanding.

Incredible as far as the words, they are God’s word, all of it the whole incredible trip from beyond the dead, to life in Christ is so awesome. W. Y. L. February 8, 1996, Wendy Yvette Greenwell

I want to change it but “As Is” has to be maintained. Yeah as is, is as is. I just found the Original, checked to see that it is here, so I am editing for a major update.

1997

NO SPECIFICS

June 3, 2015 Wendy Yvette Greenwell

There are no specifics!

Lightning — It is the Spirit that is everyone’s and is waiting to be let free

Yes, there is another, what was suppose to be union, bites the dust, and another. Oh, such pain, torment, the whole of the union is broken. So in essence, everything that was, was a lie, was a role, was a daily degeneration to destruction and how many lives are affected.

Who are the ones that care? Who are the ones that can not do one more thing about it, of the whole in any realm?

It is someone else’s game to pain, not mine anymore. The wheel within the wheel. No one understands. Ho Ho Ho. It feels right; it is not I that wrote alone, it is the Spirit, that is everyone’s and is waiting to be let free. Spirit to Spirit to Spirit. Wendy Yvette Greenwell August 28, 1997

You are, and I am In Presence of Spirit