Category Archives: 1996

1996

CARING HEART

A Letter: I am happy you welcomed me with the caring heart,

Nice one lightning
Finding the knowledge that God was giving us round about

You have for me. I got to spend five months talking with you. I would have died if you had not been willing to do God’s will complete. You did not judge me, lest you had you would have told me. You are a very strong woman, and you have a firm hold on the facts of God’s mysteries and secrets, and You are strong in faith, love, compassion, patience.

    You gave me unconditional love, understanding. You guided me through a hurtful, confusing, end of the affliction of sin, to find the knowledge, that God was giving us roundabout, the end is not yet.

As you can see in my writing,

That I have been reading, God’s Words, I am getting impatient, lost, scared, and I want God to come and get me now, for what am I without, I have been alone, I am not taking my will, I wish God would speed things up.

    I cannot burden anyone, and I am overwhelmed with their lives. I want to leave, and I have nowhere to go. I feel like I am an intruder,  and I have nothing to show for anything.

I have the Bible; I want to see action,

I have nothing to give. I have faith that our justice lies entirely in the hands of God. For what else can I do but read, pray, sing, write, and wait. “Seek, and ye shall find, knock, and the door will be opened, look, and you will see.”

    These “letter writings” were’ written to my Guardian Angel, in the here and now. She received them, read them, put them in order and gave them back to me, so I could see how far I had come after months. March 4, 1996 (This is written 16 days after my Divorce.)

I get this feeling, and I have to write.

    Things I need to say, but mostly it is not, from my mind, it is from my heart. I made some terrible mistakes, and I suffered my iniquity, I thought that was enough, and then the things that followed.

    I know that God has forgiven me, I can not forgive myself. My esteem I have none. Walking on, “The Words of God.” Sometimes, I feel that is not enough to keep me afloat.

    I do not see, how I am going to get through this. I do not know anything about my children, and no one can do anything for me. I have to do it myself; I can’t even do that.

    Learning a different way of life, no demands, no fires to put out. It is not understandable, and it is incomprehensible that the system is actually for abusive, adulteress, him. They are insufficient in all matters about the outcome, not the why’s and wherefores. March 18, 1996

As you will be able to see,

    I have been writing and reading a lot. Remember when we discussed writing a book. Well is this the makings, or am I insane?

    A lot that is in the long-suffering of humankind is the generations, and what was passed down. As it says, “the third generation will start figuring it out.”

I enjoy writing.

I have something to say. I can not keep silent. It is going to be a solid pack of truths. God’s truth is unfolding before our eyes. My heart and soul are grounded in all honesty, for the seeds have been sown for a better tomorrow. March 19, 1996,

    Thank You for life. Thank You for words. Thank You for giving me the rights, You have given me, in Spirit. All the why’s have been answered. My study through Your Precious Words makes all the pain, be so much more bearable. March 20, 1996, Wendy Yvette Greenwell

© 1996 – 2024 inpresenceofspirit.com by Wendy Yvette Greenwell

1996

HELPING HEART

I am reading over Romans, Corinthians,

I am still studying. God is working

    I have temporarily left, the Old Testament. Each and everything means the same. “The Living Word of God.” I know I am saved, baptized, delivered, and I see and hear every word, I read in the Bible, and I am still writing. I am studying hard. God is working.

You helped me, with getting back to saying what, I mean.

    Thanks, live one day at a time, for no one knows what tomorrow will bring. Rebirth to some, death to others, regeneration for the whole World. That is God’s blessing on The World.

If they start listening, they will hear.

    If they start opening their eyes, they will see. If they stop, knock, look, listen and hear; they will know, they have never been alone. Then you have the opposite, but for once I have been on the negative side of doom for too long. And I wish not to scratch the scourge of it.

I am so heavy into reading, all the Words,

Often, that my mind is going through scriptures while I am sleeping, what more do I have to lose, not my soul, God forbid? I am surprised I am not gone right now, the only thing keeping me alive is the Bible. I hate to say this, but I am not ready to go out into the World and support me. Does that mean I am chicken shit, sorry my world? What World?

Boy did I make bad choices?

    I am very displeased with myself, but I am going to have to forgive me sooner or later. Can you tell I am lost?

No one can fully understand, what I am going through,

right now, and he thinks, well he thinks, he won. But he did not because I am safe now. I cannot afford to be a baby, about all of this. “Wendy’s Quest for what? March 1996 Wendy Yvette Greenwell

© 1996 – 2024 inpresenceofspirit.com by Wendy Yvette Greenwell

1996

TRUTH IS AN OPENING

“I am there if you need me, but I will not come to you.”

Love the blue haze around the moon
We are all searching for the answers

I will give if you ask, but I will not reach out, even knowing dramatic conditions. (I did not ask for help.) It is Okay, We survived. I sat many nights on my roof, many a night, writing future events. Souring, finding, searching for the answers, not just for myself but for mankind.

    My insights are man’s secrets. The wherefore art thou on Women is long suffered. Women know that even if she is blinded by darkness. That she is Caregiver to many.

     Dear Sweet afflicted Children of God. It is not God’s fault. This deterioration of Family is Man’s fault. He has exhausted, controlled, raped us of all our dignity, and left us for dead.

    We have been beaten down, put down, slammed down for too long. We are not supposed to be under thumb. We are the Caregivers.

    We need to join together. Truth is an opening to The Heavens. We are all searching for the answers. February 8, 1996, Wendy Yvette Greenwell

© 1996 – 2024 inpresenceofspirit.com by Wendy Yvette Greenwell

1996

WALKING INTO THE LIGHT

In order to start walking into the light,

I liked that camera phone
To see it beyond the veil has led us through hell and back unsheathed

we need to put away old things. This means we are one with God and behold all things become new, “In Christ Jesus.”

    Everyone needs to stop looking outside of themselves, for the answers. The answers lie with no end. Inside your hearts and guess what, our hearts will overflow, with a burst of fourth of July lights. It hurts like hell, but the end will be justified, and then all will be free in Christ Jesus, infinite World with no end.

    Who are we to judge each other? You have been faithful to your wife, too long, it is time for a change. Pain while being abused. Verbally, emotionally, physically at times, spiritually, mentally.

    They induce fear. They vomit their unworthiness on us and force us to wallow in their misery. Thinking it is our own. When in fact it is not. We lose ourselves completely. Everything is for, for, for, no help, demands, criticism. We take it upon ourselves to the point, past exhaustion.

    We are instinctual beings. To see beyond the veil has led us through hell and back unsheathed. Thank You, Lord. Everyone has his purpose. Man is not willing to give up his reign. He thinks he is above God. My God is more. February 12, 1996, W.Y.L

©1996-2024 inpresenceofspirit.com Wendy Yvette Greenwell

 

1996

REVELATION-2

Revelation can be taken passively or actively.

Magnetized without a flash
Revelation can be taken passively or actively

In the former sense, the activity of God whereby He makes Himself, known to Men. In the latter, the knowledge thus imparted. The Biblical idea of revelation must be elicited by means of a broad induction of evidence, which I have, of which the briefest outline must here suffice.

    “Our withdrawal from understanding is:” Everyone is on top of you, the everyday duties of being Wife, and Mom, with the husband being an alcoholic, and generational abuser. Then, of course, Women having scars, possibly more severe inside, then the man’s control over women.

    Man is bred to believe he is over Women. Remember who bore these Men. Hey, We did! Give Us a hand! Is it our fault they treat us like sex objects, then throw us away? They have their lives, and we isolate with our children.

    We are beaten down verbally, nothing is good enough, except sex ha, and of course we get poked, pinched, pulled, thrown, spit on, cursed at, called ugly disgusting names, squashed, joint crunches, bloody lips, bruises extremities and of course inside, plus the crunches in the glands around the jaw that do not show bruising but hurt for so long.

    Intimidated, we feel we are unworthy. So we withdraw deeper. We do complain to a few and we get told to leave the situation, etc. But we know we can not. It is not that easy. Too many years for me. February 8, 1996 W. Y. L. I was still married,  Wendy Yvette Greenwell

    I have already fixed it, to be Published. I am trying to postpone the inevitable Publication of My interpretation of “Revelation,” in the awakening of my soul. Women suffer because of man’s domination. For some reason, they take the aggression of their own crap, and blame it on the Woman. Lord heal the World’s Wounds, in the name of Jesus. I have to Publish.

© 1996-2024 inpresenceofspirit.com by Wendy Yvette Greenwell