Category Archives: 1996

1996

I HAVE REGRESSED

I have regressed a bit, but I am in reality.

Shadow on My Trees
My fantasy only saved me when everything was crashing down

It was a tough week, previous. I need to strive totally for my independence, and I am satisfied with all the Divorce, for now, later it will be a completely different story.

 

All the years were a struggle.

    I am not happy with what I put up with, the way I reacted to him, the way the children were’ in the middle of our hatred. It should not have happened. I cannot blame anyone but myself, for being so vulnerable to lies, deceit, confusion, rudeness, unfaithfulness.

My fantasy only saved me when everything was crashing down

And my husband then was suffering from his sufferings, and he was not able to talk about it. There is a big difference between honesty and deceit. I do not hate him; I do not love him either. I would rather be by myself then to subject myself to another man’s rules and regulations, his power, and control, to put down my existence. I feel like I am twelve what regression. It is not easy, but I know significant changes are going to be happening.

I do love, it here in San Antonio,

I was tired of The Valley to many memories. Not good at forgetting all my trauma’s right now. I know there are worse things that could have happened. I am such an outcast, not a people person, my esteem I have zero, I have to pick myself up.

How could I be so coy,

Oh God, I have let myself suffer so much, and I could not do anything about the outcome. I always wanted him to be more of a part of the children’s life. I will never feel sorry for her or be happy for her, I have given her to much emotion, and she has my family.

    I lost my husband because of her and his not being able to forgive himself for the awful years he was so cruel to me. He wanted to do it right, it to me is not fair, but I do hope he gets there even if it is with her.

    He said it took six years to get over me holding a grudge because I told him I had a crush on my third pregnancy Dr. who I had confided all that I had succumbed to all the abuse, those six years most important part of our children growing up. He was cruel and suave, neglected everything except his career, I had no other choice than to put up, and this is what I got. It is going to get better, and at this point, it is all I can handle.

It is Sunday, I read the Bible, and I feel some relief.

This has been a hard week also. Important crucial to the addicted person state and confusion and or being addicted to the addicted person. April 22, 1996, Wendy Yvette Greenwell

    March 12, 2018, My Dad wants us, my twin and I do see him today. He is 85 now, and he has some issues going on that he is worried about. We are an hour and a half away from where he lives. My sister fell and hurt herself on the rib cage, so I am driving. It has been some time since I have driven to the Arroyo.

Her husband is staying with Richard and my dog and their dog that is 18 blind and can not hear, it is so sad, but she is still trucking around.

    I know I am going back to 1996, it is all meant to go together. So it does not matter what year I pick on. I am on a roll. This is the 50th day that I have Published, and I feel I need to continue. No matter how uncomfortable I am at times.

   The first six months was cleaning out the cobwebs so to speak. So with all of this, I am going to keep this on here, and Publish. The Picture is dark, but I do not care. It is Fabulous, I have never taken a picture of my trees with a shadow before, so it is exceptional. Take care; God Bless The World and Everyone On It. Are you ready, I can not believe myself sometimes. I have to Publish it. February 9, 2019, Wendy

© 1996-2023 inpresenceofspirit.com Wendy Yvette Greenwell

1996

WRITING IS PERSONABLE

Thank you for helping me through the hardest time of my life.

Moon Photo
Thank you for helping through the hardest time of my life

Writing is just much more personable. I am a little impatient.

I have been writing a lot, knowledge of the understanding of the Bible. I am thankful for my twin the anger I once had is gone from God. He fixes what needs to be fixed.

    In The Bible, we need to read it in the present tense. You are a master involved in so many outlets helping people with knowledge.

    The understanding of different aspects of the whole realm of your studies in your discipleship. I hope with the studying of the Books of The Bible that one day I will be able to give at least a fourth of what you have provided in your lifetime. I look like a failure at marriage and children in life ha!

    But now tense I am where God wants me to be. I am growing inward which will be more fruitful tomorrow.

    A lifetime of negative has to replace itself with the truth of our existence. There has to be more, and there is. I will get passed this and hopefully be able to push my way out into the World. May 29, 1996

    March 11, 2018, To my 72-year-old friend, guardian angel, I used to call her. I am second guessing myself. Should I, Could I, Would I, Shall I, Yes I think I will. February 9, 2019, Wendy

© 1996-2023 inpresenceofspirit.com Wendy Yvette Greenwell

1996

ACHES AND PAINS

Aches and pains feel like crawling in a hole and never coming out.

My beautiful Tree and Moon
Inner self, please start peaking through show me help me

Desperate, at the end of the dead end. What is keeping me back? Where is any confidence?

Inner self, please start peaking through show me, help me, show me of my truth of existence, vice versa.

    You know way more than I for I am but a pin, widen my perception. I see a lot the knowledge reasoning understanding of the Bible in an I was their text.

    So we have God’s foundation, and the death and resurrection as Christ did, we have the Baptism through the Holy Spirit, God the Father, God the Son and God the Holy Spirit.

    The deliverance from evil. Seven times will pass over. Seven mountains to climb. The death of the inner person who has an individual but equal soul to each and every potential, in the Spiritual plane in awareness. Inner Spiritual Wendy give me some help here. May 19, 1996, Wendy Yvette Greenwell

    March 10, 2018, once again last minute Publication. Too much going on. I feel I need to Publish anyway. February 9, 2019, Wendy

© 1996-2023 inpresenceofspirit.com Wendy Yvette Greenwell

1996

THROUGH ALL THIS PAIN

1 Corinthians 7:30-31

Just Clouds
With all my Spirit I will not lose track

    “And they that weep, as though they wept not, and they that rejoice, as they that rejoiced not 31. And they that use this world, as not abusing it, for the fashion of the world passeth away.

    Romans 11:8 According as it is written, God hath given them the spirit of slumber, eyes that should not see, and ears, that they should not hear; unto this day. For if the casting away of them be the reconciling of the World, what shall the receiving of them be, but life from the dead

THROUGH ALL THIS PAIN

    Letter: Through all this pain and suffering also for my children. I am not a disgrace to God. For it is with him I live, move, and have my being. I am waiting for the Lord for His Justification because through the Judge; God set me free from bondage to well, “Internal House Cleaning.”

I am working on the Bible, and with all my Spirit I will not lose track.

    We need to work on “regeneration.” See I have shed some layers of the afflictions that were’ put upon me. Long generations of time past are surfacing in time and reason.

    Abuse in the physical, mental, emotional, verbal, spiritual, alcoholism past down generation to generation. How Long? A long time, covetous, possessiveness, control, rage, shame, blame, jealousy, should I go on, we know we can go to the Bible and find the reason. “It keeps regenerating itself until destruction.”

For my Dears, not man’s will but, “God’s will be done,” any way round about.

    Reading Chapters of Scripture in Church, a must, show the World how much security you have in bringing in more than you can hold.

   2 Corinthians 6:1-18, 7:1-16. When you read scripture, you read a chapter. God’s words flow through the writings, you know that. Man’s way is not right with God. For all have come short of The Glory of God, but what can one Church do? What can one couple of Ministers do? You can make known God’s way complete.

    2 Corinthians 4:4 (For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strongholds;) 5. Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ.

    Corinthians 12:9 “My grace is sufficient for thee, for my strength is made perfect in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

See when I told you I was prophesying. I was.

    It is for The Glory of God. Christ my Salvation, My Baptism, my reaffirmation, I got Delivered on 2/9/1996. The prophecy I carry is “God’s Words.” Who knows what miracles he has planned for his chosen and I know I am one. I am a baby in Christ, and I have always known in my heart there is a God, and I walked willingly through the fire of my soul.

I had no one but the burning coals of his search for disaster, greed, materialism, adultery,

     I was safe in my mind. God brought me through, and he has to do everything. Everyone is watching him. He likes attention.

    See God does not need an interpreter because every word that is written is “God’s Word.” For all generations. We are the regeneration of God’s Word, what He said, has come to pass, is right now, and He needs, the mass multitudes because He is alive, and calling the chosen to come together, so we can be home. Finally after all generations. For our soul’s search has intertwined with all the generations of God. March 17, 1996, Wendy Yvette Greenwell

© 1996-2023 inpresenceofspirit.com Wendy Yvette Greenwell

1996

REVELATION-2

Revelation can be taken passively or actively.

Arroyo
Revelation can be taken passively or actively.

In the former sense the activity of God whereby he makes himself known to men, in the latter, the knowledge thus imparted. The Biblical idea of revelation must be elicited by means of a broad induction of evidence which I have of which the briefest outline must here suffice.

Our withdrawal from understanding is everyone is on top of you,

the do’s of being wife, and mother with the husband being the alcoholic, and or generational abuser, then the Women having scars possibly more severe inside, then man’s control over women.

Man is bred to believe he is over Women.

Remember who bore these men hey, we did! Give us a hand! Is it our fault they treat us like sex objects, then throw us away?

They have their lives, and we isolate with our children,

We are beaten down verbally, nothing is good enough, except sex ha., and of course we get poked, pinched, pulled, thrown, spit on, once is enough, cursed at, called ugly disgusting names, squashed, joint crunchers, bloody lips one time it was bad, bruises on the extremities, plus the crunch in the glands around the jaw that does not show bruising but hurt for so long, pokes with objects after our separation.

Intimidated we feel we are unworthy,

So we withdraw deeper, we do complain to a few, and we get told to leave the situation, etc. But we know we cannot. It is not that easy. Too many years for me. February 8, 1996, WYL

February 23, 2018,

    These are just a few things that Women all over the World go through. The silent abuser, few on the outside, know the real story behind the life of a union, that was not a union at all. I say this in real time because I left these writings for this time because I have to Publish something before 12.

    This one is in the book; I just did not run across it until now. I am going to Publish it because I had a rough day, and I am almost done editing. He did come over this morning he fixed my lawn mower and brought my Son’s stuff to me from his last job. We do not talk much anymore since 2016. The most significant part of my Divorce is not ever being abused again. Wendy Yvette Greenwell February 7, 2019, Wendy

©1996-2023 inpresenceofspirit.com Wendy Yvette Greenwell